Sometimes it's hard to feel like you will ever be more than just a collection of all your mistakes and lows. Recently it's felt like I'm constantly outrunning my genetics, even waiting for the other shoe to drop, feeling like I'm waiting for my friends and partner to realize who I really am and leave me. This anxiety of feeling like I'll never be more than the valleys of my mental health finally caught up with me and I fell into mental breakdown. During which I spewed hurtful things about myself and my partner. In this episode I share insights from a new rock bottom and truly embrace the feeling that the only place left to go is up. Tune in for an utterly real look at my life and with it I hope you can find solace in knowing you aren't alone and all tough things are temporary.

Eating disorders and the people who have them are often misunderstood. Everybody’s story is different but I hope sharing mine humanizes the issue a bit more. I hope if you can relate and are listening I hope this episode proves growth and healing is possible, if you know someone struggling offer them as much patience and grace as you can. This part of my past will always be with me as a marker for how far I’ve come, and it’ll always be a reminder of the things I’ve gone through and what made me who I am today, but that’s all I will let it be, a reminder of my strength—no longer a silent judging dictator of my actions or my feelings of worth. I can’t wait to further update y’all with a future episode reflecting on how much I’ve grown from this. Enjoy Lovies, and as always feel free to share your story with me.

Welcome back Lovebugs, join me for lucky episode number 11! As someone who has struggled with friendship for all my life and just now seem to finally be getting the hang of it, this episode was really special to make. In this episode I explore some painful lessons of the past that I'm now happy to share to hopefully save you guys from making some of the same mistakes I did. I hope you guys enjoy!