I’ll be honest...meditation has never been easy for me.
For a long time, it felt uncomfortable. Like my mind got louder instead of quieter??
And honestly, I didn’t feel like it was “for me.”
So when women tell me they’ve tried meditation and thought,
“Why is this making things worse?”
I get it all too well, which is why I wanted to have this conversation.
In this episode of The Female Blueprint Podcast, I sat down with Ellen Haines to talk about what’s actually happening when meditation feels hard, especially for high-functioning, driven women.
This isn’t a conversation about “thinking positive” or forcing yourself to relax.
Ellen explains why sitting still can bring up more noise before it brings calm.
Why meditation isn’t about forcing relaxation.
And how our nervous systems are often responding to stress and past experiences we’ve never really processed.
I promise this episode wasn’t me teaching meditation!
I asked alll the questions I’ve had myself and the ones I hear from women all the time, and letting someone who truly works in this space explain it in a way that finally made sense.
We talk about:
Why sitting still can make your mind feel louder, not quieter
The difference between mindfulness, meditation, and hypnosis (without the woo)
How unresolved stress and past experiences quietly shape your reactions today
Why motherhood has a way of bringing everything you avoided to the surface
And how hypnotherapy can offer a gentler way to process trauma without reliving it
If you’ve ever thought:
“I should be able to handle this better”
“Why do I overreact when I know better?”
“I’ve done therapy… why do I still feel like this?”
This conversation changed how I think about meditation and why it feels so challenging for so many women.
You’ll walk away understanding why your nervous system responds the way it does, and what it actually needs to feel safer and more regulated in daily life.
Listen now and let this one sink in!
👉 Connect with Ellen
Ellen works with women and mothers through hypnotherapy, meditation, and subconscious healing.
You can find her on Instagram @healwithellen or explore her servies and Calm Mama app for guided nervous system support www.ellenhaines.com
👉 Work with me:
Hiii I’m Dr. Courtney Johnson, Doctor of Physical Therapy and founder of Three Sixty Wellness. I help active, high-achieving women strengthen and heal their pelvic floor while understanding how their nervous system, stress, and lifestyle all work together.
You can follow me on Instagram @thefemaleathletedoc
Or you can learn more about working with me and my team + explore resources at www.threesixtywellness.co