Hi cutie pies! Today I hit record just after a full-blown meltdown. Complete with a handful of F-bombs and an entire pint of Cold Stone Creamery ice cream (coffee flavor + oreo cookie dough fudge and almonds duh). Because this is the journey too. From there, I dive deep into the transformative magic of devotional repetition—how intentionally repeating sacred phrases, actions, practices and ways of being can and has reshaped my life in unimaginable ways.

I explore the metaphor-rich world of microdosing mushrooms as a guide, especially when paired with intentional rituals and nervous system rewiring practices. I share personal protocols, how I cleanse the channel to hear my deepest truth, and what it means to let your inner knowing lead the way.

And then there’s the forest. 700 women. And a profound remembering: wealth is multidimensional, and true joy lives within the eternal, untouchable Summer of our Being, not in the material things that one second bring us happiness and the next bring us pain (ie new car HAPPY! new car scratched NOT HAPPY!). This episode is about imagination as a portal, mushrooms as guides, repetition as pure magic, and alchemy as our birthright.

THANK YOU, for being with me on this wild path of tantrums, transmissions, breakthroughs and all! MWAH!

One of my go-to "Breathe with Sandy" videos (just five minutes to reset!) :

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8GTd3u_qwGA&t=8s

⚠️ Disclaimer

This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states—whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines—can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

In this episode I share from the eye of the storm—smack in the middle of a breakdown that’s becoming a breakthrough. We’ll explore nervous system regulation through the lens of Deb Dana’s book Anchored, and how her teachings are landing in my lived experience in powerful and practical ways. I talk about how pushing forward from a state of panic only plants seeds of more chaos, and how choosing to slow down, root in safety, and respond differently begins to change the whole story. I open up about how old, protective neural pathways have quietly kept me stuck—how hidden triggers often arise in the mundane—and how I’ve begun to meet them with curiosity, compassion, and new choices. I share three foundational stepping stones that are guiding me toward a more present and embodied life:

1. Creating a safe internal and external environment to help cue my system back into the safety of the moment. 2. Deepening connection with my inner voice—the knowing within that speaks with the voice of Source, Unity, Love.

3. Using my senses as a gateway to return to the here and now, anchoring through what I see, smell, feel, hear, and say.

And most importantly, I speak to the power of intentional self talk—using my own voice with deep conviction and emotion to declare the reality I am choosing:

“I am safe. Safe to move slow. Safe to be in my body. Safe to be all the way here now. I embody the wisdom of the ages.”

This episode is about nervous system healing that doesn’t come through grand catharsis, but through consistent, sacred repetition in the everyday. Through tea in the sun. Through mindful self-talk. Through remembering again and again: we are not broken—we are coming home.

Inspired by Anchored by Deb Dana👉 Buy it through Bookshop.org and support local bookstores!

⚠️ Disclaimer

This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states—whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines—can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.

This one’s raw. I recorded it sitting in the Trader Joe’s parking lot, feeling more in my body than maybe ever before. I talk about choosing a new way — and I speak from the middle of the reckoning.

When I started the bus project, I was still in fight-or-flight, chasing some shimmering oasis out there so I wouldn’t have to feel what was in here. But pain doesn’t vanish. It waits — like a rubber band around the waist, anchoring us to a moment we’ll ever be able to outrun.

In this moment, I got: wisdom and scars have something in common — they have to be earned. No one can walk the fire for you. This is me, standing in it, choosing to become whole from the inside out.

We are the tuning forks. We are the sound bowls. We embody the frequency of whatever it is we are carrying inside of us — or running from. I’m not looking for a safe place anymore… I am the safe place.

I end this episode with a short soul song — a prayer to reclaim the lost soul parts we’ve scattered along the way.

⚠️ Disclaimer

This podcast is for educational and harm-reduction purposes only. I am not encouraging or advocating the use of any illegal substances. No substances were consumed during the making of this episode. Altered states—whether achieved through breathwork, drumming, or plant medicines—can impact perception and decision-making. Exploring these realms without proper guidance, preparation, and integration support can be dangerous. Please journey responsibly and in alignment with your own truth, safety, and sovereignty.