• 8 - you are not exempt from grief
    Aug 5 2025

    attention! this message is for everyone

    yes, you too.

    + welcome August, World Juniors, & end of clinical year

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  • 7 - four years without them
    Jul 29 2025

    what actually goes down during support group meetings & raw feelings and reflections from 4th death anniversaries of Mack and Sam

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  • 6 - holding space for grief
    Jul 21 2025

    onward and upward in pediatrics, graduating SO SOON, applying to jobs, internet hate, and a personal check in leading up to the 4 year anniversary of losing Mack and Sam

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  • 5 - ask them this not that
    Jul 15 2025

    starting my pediatrics rotation, new JB, and asking "how's today?" instead

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  • 4 - 10ish ways i helped my mind and body after trauma
    Jul 10 2025

    4th of July recap with a trip down memory lane, getting back in the workout groove, and 10ish tips that ACTUALLY helped me in the first days, weeks, and months after losing Mack and Sam that I still do to this day

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  • 3 - how to be there for people in grief
    Jun 30 2025

    on to rotation 9 of 9, Beau's 21st birthday recap, how to actually be there for your people in grief, and out first special person shoutout - Dylan

    also, check out Kaylyn Sahs - https://open.spotify.com/artist/7Muz7D0pEhoHGuosDjbSgK?si=uGQHVIVRSCSTK0BKOGvVKQ

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  • 2 - you can still do hard things
    Jun 23 2025

    weekly update + 3 things that have allowed me to do hard things while grieving


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  • 1 - what is out of order?
    Jun 19 2025

    episode 1! hi, I'm Ella. I'm 26 and live in Minnesota, and I lost some really important people far too young. my life has turned upside down over and over and over again since that day. each day since brings new challenges, AND newfound joy. I'm not the only one walking through grief, so I'm here to share my healing journey, and maybe create community along the way. whether it's just for me to reflect, my friends and family to keep up, those who know grief to feel seen, or those who simply want to better understand-- thank you for creating space to listen. <3


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