Is it possible that no one, including our loved human or non-human friends to beings in the warzones, dies at a wrong moment for a wrong reason? Also, how are “We the middle of forever”, with no birth and no death?

Important note: Engaged Buddhist or Ecodharma teachers, including Dr. Kritee, emphasize the importance of compassionate “Bodhisattva” actions for social and environmental change without attachment to results. This is so even for causes where our efforts are inclined to “fail” or when people or groups of people we support will die. We must act in support and healing of all life even if our efforts are not “successful”. So even though, at the “absolute” level, this talk suggests that it is not possible for anyone to die at a wrong moment for a wrong reason, our actions in support of alleviation of suffering in the moment are crucial for anyone on a spiritual path. Our actions, when rooted in wisdom and compassion, create conditions that lead to better outcomes—even if they are only marginally better outcomes as compared to without such actions.

How to stay motivated to undertake compassionate actions is an important question. In addition, if it is not possible for anyone to die at a wrong moment for a wrong reason, how do we hold both human grief and trans-human acceptance? How do we honor the truths of devastating losses and injustices while accessing deep spiritual equanimity?

In this talk, addressed to experienced meditators in the middle of a long residential silent meditation retreat, Dr. Kritee focuses on these profound questions related to death and impermanence. Speaking from a place of authenticity and deeply flowing spontaneity, she explores the classic koan "Hyakujo and a Wild Duck" where a teacher pinches his student's nose to embody that nothing truly flies away. Drawing on personal stories of paralysis, grief around events of October 7th and ongoing violence in Palestine, and teachings from her own spiritual teachers, Sensei Kanko guides practitioners through the territory where everything feels like it's flying away—democracy, health, loved ones, peace of mind. She offers practical guidance on creating altars for grief, differentiating between guilt and shame, and working with the phrase "We are the middle of forever." The talk weaves together themes of impermanence, oceanic consciousness, trauma-informed practice, and the invisible realms that root for us even in our loneliest moments, inviting us to work with one breath at a time while trusting in a wholeness that exists even amidst heartbreak.

Sensei Kanko gave this talk on the fourth day of the Fall 2025 Zen retreat (sesshin).

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Can we transcend suffering by letting go of notions of good and bad? When does medicine become a sickness?

In this profound talk, Sensei Kritee Kanko explores one of Zen's most challenging teaching: everything on earth—including our most painful experiences—is medicine. Drawing from her 25 years of practice, she reveals how our desperate attempts to escape suffering through meditation and spiritual practice can paradoxically become another form of sickness. With refreshing honesty about her own past spiritual bypassing (neglecting her husband, mother, and even her own health in pursuit of “enlightenment”), Kanko examines the delicate balance between disciplined practice and harmful attachment to the "blue sky mind." She bridges ancient Zen wisdom with Joanna Macy's contemporary grief work, discussing how both the “absolute level” wisdom that "Fear or grief is Buddha" and living compassionately along with the messy process of being accountable are essential—and how focusing on only one aspect (wisdom vs compassion) creates harm. Using the metaphor of a consciousness microscope to examine the “components” of grief and fear in our bodies, this talk offers a nuanced path through these times of polycrisis that honors both transcendent realization and grounded community healing.

Sensei Kanko gave this talk during a Zazenkai (half-day meditation retreat) in October 2025.

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Should a slave meditate to wake up?

How can we access a larger trauma-informed view in Zen? In this talk, Sensei Kanko discusses a very emotionally triggering koan with the greatest gentleness. How can we hold our bodies and emotions with gentleness to not fall into the shadows of Zen? How can we remain firm in our need to make changes in the society around us? And at the same time how to make sure we don't lose the golden idea of Zen that there is a possibility to wake up at any point, even in one of the worst circumstances as a sex worker forced into that profession?

Sensei Kanko gave this talk on the 3rd day of a Zen retreat in October 2020.

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