Loosing friends or loosing the ones close to you is a type of grief that lingers as well. Holidays you use to love and enjoy, are painful and you wish there was a skip button. No matter high the mountain is that you climb, many will still leave you. No matter how successful you are or how good you are to many, they will still leave you. With a broken heart, you thought you were the problem. It was you along, but it wasn’t many left because it was their time or God took them out of your life for a reason. You don’t need to keep expressing yourself or giving many reasons. The door is shut for a reason, because once they leave. They can’t be welcomed into your future. I am not perfect, and I never want to be. The only one perfect is God. Many will still try to find a fault in me and still try tear me part. They aren’t tearing me apart. They are taking their insecurities and throwing them onto everyone else, instead of taking care themselves. If you don’t let yourself heal and work on yourself as well, how can you be around anyone else? Finding forgiveness, is willing to admit that you did wrong. That you never meant to hurt the other person. To admit that you made a mistake or wish you had more time with one that just passed away. The broken heart will heal, but it will also never the same. Once you reach a certain level in life, many will never understand the looniness is like. There is no one on the same level, because everyone is below you. You are in a different league and you will walk alone. It’s not out of disrespect or arrogance, it’s just how life is. You will have many look up to you, you will be a role model, but at the same time it’s a feeling that many will never understand. You are thankful that you made it, and you will continue to do great things. You will never change, but you won’t be the same either.