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Shadow Playground

Shadow Playground

By: Ez Bridgman
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Shadow Playground is a podcast focused on the enablers for living a life full of playful vitality, as well as the blockages -- conflict, fear, shame, shadow, judgment, being serious, norms, etc. -- that hold us back from unleashing our unfiltered playful selves. We look at how playfulness & shadow can actually co-exist beautifully together, for instance how we might bring a playful spirit to our most important & challenging moments.

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Ez Bridgman
Relationships Social Sciences
Episodes
  • Drugs, Healing, and the Return to Wholeness with Ashley Booth
    Jul 25 2025

    -GUEST BIOGRAPHY-


    Ashley T. Booth is a psychotherapist and pioneering figure in psychedelic-assisted therapy, specializing in modalities such as Internal Family Systems (IFS), somatic psychotherapy, and ketamine-assisted therapy. She is the founder of the Southern California Psychedelic Society and co-founder of InnerSpace Integration. With over 750 ketamine-assisted psychotherapy sessions under her belt, Ashley is a leading advocate for integrating psychedelics into therapeutic practices and is recognized as a top thought leader in the field. She is also the author of Quieting the Storm Within, an introduction to IFS therapy, and actively contributes to psychedelic education and harm reduction efforts.


    LINKS:

    ashleybooth.net

    IFSandbeyond.com



    PRACTICES:

    • Get comfortable not knowing the answer. Let mysteries stay mysteries longer than feels comfortable.
    • Use systems to make sense of the work.
    • Explore different frequencies so you can tune in with others.
    • Model joy to give others permission to do the same.
    • Do this work in community and with wisdom keepers who have gone before.
    • Let people go through phases of grasping and longing.
    • Use challenges as learning opportunities and ways to grow.



    IDEAS:


    • The drug war shaped harmful ideas about medicine and drugs. We can break free from those paradigms.
    • Drugs can be used to escape, and sometimes that is necessary.
    • Instead of saying "recreational use," say "celebratory use" to emphasize life and connection.
    • Try to be in right relationship with these substances.
    • Drugs often lead to deep experiences of love.
    • We are souls beyond what can be named with words.
    • Recognize and honor Indigenous cultures that use plant medicines and carry important knowledge.
    • Drugs are not cures. They help us face limiting beliefs and allow us to feel more deeply, both pain and joy.
    • These medicines often make you feel worse before you feel better. You have to break things down before rebuilding.
    • These medicines are spreading during a critical time in human evolution. Help is coming from many places: plants, animals, fungi, even labs.
    • Things once considered shameful deserve to be accepted as they are. Shame can also be a way we try to feel safe and belong.
    • Internal Family Systems (IFS) views us as made up of many inner parts, each with its own voice, needs, and memories. These parts often form to protect us and reflect our deeper human needs. When these protective parts are gently acknowledged and allowed to step back, we can access a deeper essence within us known as the Self. Through this process, IFS helps us understand what blocks our vitality and guides us back to our true nature.


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    55 mins
  • Deep Democracy and the Practice of Welcoming It All with Emily Yee Clare
    May 4 2025

    -GUEST BIOGRAPHY-


    Emily is a mixed-race settler (Chinese/white) based out of Montreal, the traditional and unceded territories of the Kanien’kehá:ka, They are passionate about their work as a consultant and facilitator and have close to 10 years of experience in anti-oppressive change management, human resources, conflict mediation & curriculum design.


    PRACTICES:

    • Tap into image, sensation, or metaphor to get a more somatic, accurate read on what’s happening in the group.
    • Normalize playful banter—it softens the space and invites levity.
    • Physically explore inner tensions or polarities (e.g. “I want chicken / I want tofu”) by stepping into each perspective. Then return to center to hold both truths and reflect on what’s needed to integrate them.
    • When interpersonal tension arises, pause and ask: What’s creating this dynamic? Often, it’s unspoken needs or unclear boundaries.
    • Let small facilitator “flaws” (e.g. messy handwriting, imperfect flipcharts) model that it’s okay not to be on top of everything.
    • Use art, metaphor, storytelling, roleplay, or fidget tools to engage imagination and ease.
    • Track and share your inner state (e.g. “I feel a little tense”), and name group dynamics (e.g. people fidgeting or looking away). It builds shared awareness.
    • Notice how resistance shows up in yourself or the group. There’s wisdom in it—it can be a diagnostic tool.

    IDEAS:

    • Honouring every voice—rational or emotional—helps surface the real conversations a group needs to have.
    • When a group repeats a dynamic, they’re “cycling.” Awareness of this helps break the loop.
    • Group shifts can happen at the individual, one-on-one, or group level—each one impacts the others.
    • We all hold multiple roles (e.g. joker, carer). Creating comfort in shifting between them fosters relational wisdom and shared responsibility.
    • If there’s tension or a marginalized voice, lean in—there’s often opportunity and insight there.
    • Don’t exile your needs—learning to notice and name them helps deepen group connection.
    • We’re allowed to show up grumpy, tired, or joyful. Creating space for the full range of being human is essential.
    • Joy, happiness, and lightness also need a safe space to be expressed—not just struggle.
    • Every group carries a pressure to perform—even without suits and ties. Loosening this helps people show up more authentically.
    • Conflict is often more tolerable than the fear of it. It doesn’t have to be intense—it can be held with curiosity and care.
    • To create safety in a group, we must first feel safe within ourselves.


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    53 mins
  • Freedom to be Angry with Jessica Wallace
    Dec 30 2024


    Jessica Wallace is a Marriage and Family Therapist based in San Francisco, California.


    PRACTICES:


    • Simply say no. For instance, you could say, “No, not today,” or “That won’t work for me,” or “I didn’t like that.”
    • Find a way to let anger move somatically through your body. For example, shake, jump, run, pound a pillow, sigh, or push energy through your feet.
    • You don’t always need to process your anger relationally; you can work with it on your own.
    • Train your anger response in advance by preparing specific sentences. Identify which phrases you’re missing and create them for easy use.
    • When you notice anger in someone else, you can mirror it back to them. Then, observe if any defenses arise and work with the person to address them.
    • Reflect on how anger was or wasn’t expressed in your family. As a primary emotion, it likely played a significant role in your childhood.
    • If you write an angry message, leave it for a while, then revisit it later.
    • When you are angry, tell the other person, “I’m not going to hurt you.” Be explicit about creating a sense of safety.
    • Integrate play into situations of anger in creative ways. For example, you could say, “You’re making that angry face! Go take a look in the mirror.” We can approach our emotions lightly, bringing humour to the experience.
    • When faced with anger, respond with love. This can feel very supportive. You might say, “I love you, I am here.”
    • If you need to take space, tell the other person, “I need to take space. And I love you, and I’ll be back.”
    • Start by building awareness of how anger energy shifts in your body. You might begin by recalling a moment when you were angry and noticing what is happening in your body.
    • Use journaling to explore and notice all the nuanced feelings that accompany your anger.


    IDEAS:


    • Here’s the corrected version of your text:
    • Anger is one of the core emotions. It is healthy and normal.
    • To become more true, authentic, free, and integrated, we need to be in touch with our anger.
    • Anger arises naturally as a response to protect ourselves when a boundary—internal or external—is crossed.
    • Setting a limit doesn’t have to involve rage.
    • A world without anger would feel deflated and collapsed.
    • A distorted form of anger can manifest as violence or self-violence.
    • Often, sadness or grief is hidden beneath anger.
    • Culturally, there is significant judgment around anger and angry people. Many feel guilty, bad, or wrong when they experience anger.
    • When anger is not expressed, it can build up and eventually explode.
    • Friendships can deepen when anger is allowed to be expressed.
    • Anger is a legitimate emotion. Just as we don’t typically question positive emotions by asking, “Why are you feeling that way?” there’s no need to ask “why” when someone feels angry.
    • Our early relationships shape how we relate to the world, creating object relationships where people or things represent those early connections. This can result in misdirected anger.
    • By addressing the internal relationship and the associated grief, we can liberate ourselves—focusing on the root cause of the pain.
    • Our memories are always accessible, as they reside within our bodies.



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    50 mins
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