The week my voice cracked, my marriage shifted, and my future self took the wheel

My voice tapped out this week, but my life turned the volume way up. Episode 39 brings you right into the messy middle of healing, courage, relationship truth, and the moment your future self grabs your shoulders and says, “Babe, rise.”

This week delivered a trifecta: a sick voice, a sick heart, and a clarity streak that felt like lightning under the skin. I crossed 500 podcast downloads, way ahead of the pace I expected, and it showed me something huge—steady devotion builds something powerful even when life feels sideways.

I pushed through a week where my marriage felt like a moving target and a long pattern cracked open. A conversation shifted the landscape of my home, my rooms, my sense of safety, and my sense of self. I share how subtle emotional cycles sneak in, how old wounds repeat until you crack them wide open, and how choosing yourself becomes an act of courage that shakes every foundation around you.

“If I want to look like the version of sixty that I picture in my head, I need to do that because that woman takes no shit and is loving and has integrity.”

This is the heartbeat of the episode. The future-self mirror. The boundary drawn. The moment you say yes to the woman you are growing into instead of the patterns you are shedding.

From there, the episode explores the emotional work of growing up in midlife, reclaiming personal safety, and learning how to rescue yourself when your old survival strategies fall apart. I walk you through moving into a separate room, facing the reality of a partner at a crossroads, and choosing emotional maturity over reaction. It is raw, real, and full of that fiery truth that makes “Just Jax” what it is.

You will hear about motherhood, accountability, the long road of healing with my sons, and the way past versions of ourselves cling to old patterns until someone finally says, “This ends here.” I share how my home became my first real place of safety, how fear of losing it pushed old wounds to the surface, and how I am building a stronger foundation for the life I want next.

There is grief, humor, truth, conflict, and the kind of emotional clarity that hits harder when your voice sounds like gravel in a blender. This episode is a bridge between the life that shaped me and the life that will carry me forward.

Episodes drop every Tuesday. If my voice sounds rough, listen anyway. The truth in this one carries enough fire for both of us.

This week carries a different gravity. My body is dragging through a second round of sickness, my spirit is dragging through the loss of a woman who shaped my life in quiet, powerful ways, and my heart is doing that icy-blue thing it does when grief shows up in a form I still struggle to understand.

My friend Diane passed this week, and the universe delivered one of those brutal lessons about timing. I planned to visit her twice. Sickness hit twice. I held back to protect her health, and then she slipped away before I could sit beside her one more time.

Here is the quote that pulled the truth out of my chest:

“The tears are for watching her blossom and become part of a fantastic team because she was one of the reasons I was a successful lead and person basically, and I wish I could have told her that in person.”

This episode explores what happens when love sits in the body in a way that looks different from the world’s rulebook.
It covers:

• The flu-shot chaos, the timing that missed the mark, and the frustration that still simmers

• The sacredness of being invited past the Seattle Freeze and into her circle

• The role Diane played in shaping my leadership, confidence, and compassion

• The strange flavor of gratitude-grief that hits harder than tears

• The harsh truth of past relationships that shut my heart down

• The upgrades, glitches, and emotional rewiring that shaped who I am today

• The shift happening inside my home, my energy, and my creative space

• The legacy I choose to build with my sons

• The permission to embrace difference instead of trying to cure it

Grief has many shades. Mine sits in the deeper blue tones — quiet, reflective, grateful, steady — and this episode gives voice to that experience without shame, without apology, and without shrinking from the truth.

If you have ever felt “different” in the way you process love, loss, or attachment, this episode shows you have a place here. Difference deserves celebration. Difference creates connection. Difference builds tribes.

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Love you.
Jax out.

Cursive curriculum stress, fake trophies, grandma drama, and estranged kids—this Just Jax conversation walks through self forgiveness, breaking generational cycles, and sealing the leaks in your ship so other people’s stories stop steering your life.

This week, my soul took a full-body hit.
A scammy “award,” a panic spiral over Crack the Cursive Code, a hard conversation with my son, and a cycle-breaking face-off with my mother all lined up to test one thing: my worth.

I walk through the tangled guilt, the Latin-teaching years, the homeschool grind, the mom wounds, the curriculum chaos, and the moment a magazine dangled a trophy with a $5K price tag.
The universe loves a plot twist.

And right when the storm felt the loudest, my truth cut through:

This is the hinge of the episode.
The place where my past stops steering the wheel.
The place where worth shifts from external approval to internal authority.

From here, we dive into the ship-and-holes metaphor: how other people pour water into your life only when they find a belief you already carry.
We explore fire-rock wounds, anchor energy, generational patterns, survival mode parenting, and the quiet power of welding your hull from the inside out.

If you are a fellow chain breaker, this episode hits your soul squarely.
This is for anyone healing from old programming, navigating estranged kids, wrestling with parental identity, or rebuilding self worth after years of emotional debris.

Inside this episode:

• worthiness wounds that flare when success brushes your door

• the emotional cost of creating something huge without a cheer squad

• why fake trophies shake you harder than real rejection

• the mother wound and its echoes through adulthood

• how adult kids carry their own unhealed holes

• fire-rock souls lighting up only where you still hold pain

• the ship metaphor that changes everything about self protection

• choosing grace without sacrificing yourself to the firing range

Direct Jax quotes inside this episode:

• “I am a good person that just made some mistakes.”

• “I have strengthened the hull of my ship.”

Your ship can sail again.
Mine sure is.

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Love you.
Jax out.

This week delivered a personal plot twist: fever sweats, couch captivity, pomegranate cravings, stovetop stuffing salvation, a marriage-level truth bomb, and a curmudgeon cat who crowned himself my emotional support animal.

Inside this episode, I take you through a Thanksgiving that flipped from misery to meaning. Between my grumpy Buddha-bellied cat shadowing my every move, a friend who drove miles with a full turkey dinner, and a relationship conversation that demanded emotional honesty, this week showed me exactly where support shows up when I ease my grip and allow it.

“Sometimes when something is going sideways in your life, be very careful because it actually is answering and granting wishes for you.”

This episode explores speaking your needs, claiming emotional safety, hearing your own truth, and seeing support that already exists around you.
It dives into caregiving, relationship patterns, boundaries, food triggers, holiday pressure, Human Design emotional waves, and the courage to ask for help instead of carrying it all alone.

• A fever-week breakdown that pushed me straight into emotional clarity

• How a withdrawn, grumpy cat transformed into a full-time support guardian

• Why stovetop stuffing carries a deeper message about comfort and care

• The emotional cost of silence inside long-term relationships

• A marriage conversation that demanded courage, boundaries, and truth

• The moment I chose self-worth over keeping the peace

• Why support often arrives through unexpected people

• How holiday expectations expose cracks we avoid all year

• What my Human Design wave taught me about timing

• Why asking for help is a muscle I finally used

• How Hallmark movies, pomegranates, and friendship became medicine

This episode is raw, emotional, chaotic, funny, and filled with reminders that support sneaks in through the side door when you stop searching only through the front one.

Inside this episode you’ll hear:

A sick-day spiral that uncovers hidden triggers, old stories, and the loud truth your system screams when you push past your limit.

This episode came straight from the couch with fever sweat, zero food in my system, and a body that slammed the emergency brake without warning. One minute I was cranking out cracker candy, running between events, and riding pure adrenaline. The next, everything collapsed at once and dragged old stories right to the surface.

Inside this episode, I walk through:

• the sudden crash that pulled childhood seizure memories right out of storage

• the wild sensitivity I have around green-thing oils, spices, and hidden food triggers

• the tortellini soup twist that pushed my system over the edge

• the mama-bear ER moment where I took charge because nobody else stepped up

• the Human Design insight that explains why acceptance hits me straight in the heart

• the secondary-gain weight story I usually keep tucked away

• the point where Buu, my old boy, became my sick-day therapy cat

This episode digs into body signals, emotional patterns, nervous-system overload, food sensitivities, maternal instincts, and the deeper truth behind pushing yourself past your limit.

If your system has ever yanked you into a timeout and said, sit down before you fall down, this one will land.

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Jax out.

This episode hits the sweet spot where self-improvement, personal growth, empowerment, and expressive play crash into each other and hand you a cleaner view of yourself. Costumes, color, and creative courage turn into a surprising mirror for self-identity, emotional release, and how your energy reads the world.

Inside this episode you’ll hear how a turkey suit, face paint, and one powerful EFT session cracked open a deeper desire for authenticity, self-love, compassion, and real empowerment. I take you through the Blank Page practice, the lens shifts, and the everyday moments that build resilience, confidence, and a positive mindset.

This conversation explores:

• How expressive energy wakes up traits you forget you carry
• Why fun, silliness, and creativity fuel self-discovery
• A real-time walk-through of EFT tapping for emotional release
• How everyday moments influence self-esteem and self-identity
• Why small shifts in perception deliver huge internal freedom
• How compassion, humor, and resourcefulness grow through practice
• The Blank Page reset and why it sharpens your read on people
• Self-empowerment through the choices you make every single day

This episode leans into one core truth:
True change comes from the inside before it ever shows up in the outside world.

Two quotes anchor it all:

“My heart’s desire is to live authentically myself.”
“I surround myself with people who allow me to be whatever I need to be for me.”

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Tapping Meditations — Nick and Jessica Ortner (The Tapping Solution)
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Podcast tapping guidance — Jenn Dragonette
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How a Wi-Fi crash exposed my survival patterns and proved persistence, patience, and self-trust always win

When my laptop dropped its Wi-Fi connection, I spiraled straight into tech chaos, emotional exhaustion, and a masterclass in mindset. Six hours later, after YouTube holes, driver updates, and a Geek Squad reality check, I had more than a signal — I had clarity.

This episode breaks down how a simple $25 fix turned into a mirror for my inner patterns and revealed four spirit animals that live inside me:

Badger — the fighter who refuses to quit.
Deer — the one who freezes or leaps into chaos.
Elephant — the memory keeper who drags old shame.
Cat — the strategist who waits, watches, and pounces.

“When my connection was lost, my clarity came through.”

You’ll hear how a broken laptop became a full-blown metaphor for emotional wiring, scarcity triggers, and the art of patience in chaos.

Inside this episode:

• Why your tech meltdowns mirror your emotional patterns

• How scarcity pressure can sharpen focus instead of fueling panic

• The mindset shift that turns frustration into follow-through

• How to recognize which inner “animal” runs your next move

• The $25 fix that rebuilt more than my internet connection

🎙️ Episode 32 — Wishes Granted: When the Wall Falls in Your Favor

Remote work freedom, Human Design waves, prosperity rewiring, and a mural that proves collapse can create clarity.

Ever wish for something, only to realize the universe answered — just in a sideways way? In this episode of the Just Jax Podcast, Jax takes you inside a week of literal and emotional wishes granted: remote work freedom, a costume that reignited joy, a meltdown that birthed a money mindset shift, and a wall that physically fell to reveal the easiest path forward.

This is manifestation with mud on its boots — the kind that trades sparkle for substance and rebuilds with grit. From Human Design waves to unexpected lessons in prosperity, Jax shares how life sometimes answers prayers through breakdowns, detours, and drywall.

You’ll hear:
✨ Why “careful what you wish for” can be a blessing instead of a warning
✨ The power of small shifts that create massive freedom
✨ How Human Design helps Jax navigate emotional waves and trust divine timing
✨ The truth about abundance vs. prosperity (and why clarity matters)
✨ What a fallen mural taught about release, rebuild, and renewal
✨ A gratitude reset you can feel in real time

Along the way, Jax invites you to spot your own wish granted moments hiding in plain sight — from working in pajamas to having water that runs, wheels that start, and a heartbeat that still shows up.

“All it takes is one small change and the life you thought sucked becomes the one you’d give anything to get back.” — Jax

“Having the wall fall over actually saved me and saved it — and gave me the exact wish I needed.” — Jax

This episode is a love letter to collapse, clarity, and the strange way the universe delivers exactly what you ordered… just with better instructions.