The week my voice cracked, my marriage shifted, and my future self took the wheel

My voice tapped out this week, but my life turned the volume way up. Episode 39 brings you right into the messy middle of healing, courage, relationship truth, and the moment your future self grabs your shoulders and says, “Babe, rise.”

This week delivered a trifecta: a sick voice, a sick heart, and a clarity streak that felt like lightning under the skin. I crossed 500 podcast downloads, way ahead of the pace I expected, and it showed me something huge—steady devotion builds something powerful even when life feels sideways.

I pushed through a week where my marriage felt like a moving target and a long pattern cracked open. A conversation shifted the landscape of my home, my rooms, my sense of safety, and my sense of self. I share how subtle emotional cycles sneak in, how old wounds repeat until you crack them wide open, and how choosing yourself becomes an act of courage that shakes every foundation around you.

“If I want to look like the version of sixty that I picture in my head, I need to do that because that woman takes no shit and is loving and has integrity.”

This is the heartbeat of the episode. The future-self mirror. The boundary drawn. The moment you say yes to the woman you are growing into instead of the patterns you are shedding.

From there, the episode explores the emotional work of growing up in midlife, reclaiming personal safety, and learning how to rescue yourself when your old survival strategies fall apart. I walk you through moving into a separate room, facing the reality of a partner at a crossroads, and choosing emotional maturity over reaction. It is raw, real, and full of that fiery truth that makes “Just Jax” what it is.

You will hear about motherhood, accountability, the long road of healing with my sons, and the way past versions of ourselves cling to old patterns until someone finally says, “This ends here.” I share how my home became my first real place of safety, how fear of losing it pushed old wounds to the surface, and how I am building a stronger foundation for the life I want next.

There is grief, humor, truth, conflict, and the kind of emotional clarity that hits harder when your voice sounds like gravel in a blender. This episode is a bridge between the life that shaped me and the life that will carry me forward.

Episodes drop every Tuesday. If my voice sounds rough, listen anyway. The truth in this one carries enough fire for both of us.