This episode isn’t about the badge. It isn’t about the streets. It’s about the case file I never asked for — the kind you can’t arrest, can’t handcuff, can’t control.

Helplessness showed up first. Anger wasn’t far behind. And yet, buried in the wreckage, there were fragments of grace, strength, resilience. People who showed up. Prayers that found me. Signs I couldn’t ignore.

We all get blindsided by a call we didn’t want, a life battle we never signed up for. The question is, when the case is your own, when the fight is bigger than you — how do you respond?

This is no ordinary case! This is the hardest case of my life; and the hardest interrogation I’ve ever done: not of a suspect, but of myself.

In this raw, unflinching episode, I pull no punches as I walk you through my line of fire, the life of a biracial cop, caught between crosshairs from both sides. I’ve been called the enemy by strangers who never knew me, and a traitor by those who looked just like me. I’ve been the target and the tool, judged by skin and by badge. I’ve been on scene where one word could calm the storm or potentially be the match.

From the streets to the squad room, we will walk together through my story about the weight of that judgment, the moments I almost let bitterness win, and the fight to choose grace instead.

This isn’t a clean, polished story. It’s about reclaiming our voice when the world tries to write our script, and finding freedom; not from the uniform, but from the potential prison of our ownhate.

They didn’t steal our financial information...they stole something much more personal....In this unapologetic episode, we pull back the curtain on the social construct of “race,” exposing how it’s been weaponized to divide, define, and deceive for centuries.This episode isn't about denying or forgetting the pain, trauma, and injustice that racism has caused — but a challenge to how we keep responding to it, trapped inside a system built to divide us from the beginning.This isn’t just history class — it’s an interrogation to expose the blueprint.Of our labels. Our loyalties.Is race real? Or is it the longest con ever played?This episode dares us to ask the hard questions — not to incite, but to ignite. Because the truth you reveal from within might just be the key to reclaiming who we really are destined to be.Listen in.Think deeper.Follow. Like. Subscribe.#InternalAffairsOfTheMind YouTube:https://youtube.com/@internalaffairsofthemind?si=li3tbcB0j-gGIn2HiHeart Radio:https://www.iheart.com/podcast/internal-affairs-of-the-mind-288125696?cmp=ios_share&sc=ios_social_share&pr=false&autoplay=trueAmazon Music:https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/955c0219-a334-47e4-b2f0-4a6c53185f95/internal-affairs-of-the-mindMusic from #Uppbeat (free for Creators!):https://uppbeat.io/t/mountaineer/kick-backLicense code: MGRGOQEKTCTXOJYW

In this first case investigation, we crack open the silent break-in most people never talk about or never knew occurred — the one happening in your mind.

From growing up in government housing to leading in law enforcement, I’ve seen how fear, toxic programming, and outside noise hijack who we are — and who we could become.

This isn’t therapy or self-help fluff. It’s raw reflection, hard truth, and tactical wisdom.

We will chop it up about:

• ​ The difference between safety and fear
• ​ Why most people protect their phones better than their minds
• ​ The real reason procrastination and doubt keep showing up • How to use faith as a weapon
• ​ The mental toolkit: mind, heart, and hands

You’ve got the tools. So why ain’t you building?

Welcome to Internal Affairs of the Mind. One man. One mic. The resolve to interrogate what most people run from - ourselves.

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