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My Will vs. God's Will: The Agony of Surrendering My Deepest Desire

My Will vs. God's Will: The Agony of Surrendering My Deepest Desire

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 What happens when the dream of starting a family meets the heartbreaking reality of infertility? In this raw and deeply personal episode, Alicia opens up about the beginning of her IVF journey. From a successful career to a devastating diagnosis, she shares the unspoken fears, the grueling medical tests, and the profound questions of faith that defined her path. This is a story of wrestling with self-blame and the feeling of being "the problem."

But it's also a powerful testament to the strength found in true partnership, the comfort of God's promises, and the life-changing shift from asking "Why me?" to embracing "This is my journey." If you or someone you love is navigating the seemingly isolating path of infertility, this conversation will remind you that you are not alone and that there is purpose even in the most painful moments.

🎯 Key Episode Takeaways:

⚠️ THE HEARTBREAK OF A DIAGNOSIS [09:45]:

"It was that call that basically just said, like, ‘I'm the problem, and it's my fault that I cannot have children. It's my fault that my egg health is the way that it is, and it's my fault that I can't give my husband his dream of being a dad.’”

This is the devastating self-blame so many feel after a diagnosis. Listen to how Alicia confronted this heartbreaking moment head-on.

✨ PARTNER GOALS [13:21]:

“He just reminded me, 'I married you. I want this life with you... and you are who I want to spend the rest of my life with.'"

A must-hear moment for any couple navigating infertility. This is what true support looks and sounds like when the journey feels hopeless.

⚡ SPIRITUAL ANCHOR [29:37]:

"The Lord directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives."

This is the exact scripture from Psalms 37 that became Alicia and Jason's lifeline, reminding them that God was in control even when everything felt chaotic.

Chapters:

00:00 Trusting God After an Infertility Diagnosis

00:57 Introducing Alicia’s Faith-Filled IVF Journey

02:26 Deciding to Pursue IVF Amid Spiritual Doubts

03:53 Leaving a Career to Fully Commit to Fertility Treatment

06:29 Coping With Low Egg Health and Emotional Grief

12:24 Strengthening Marriage Through the Infertility Struggle

14:19 Reframing “Why Me” Into Spiritual Growth

15:54 Starting the IUI Process With Prayer and Hope

20:39 Recognizing God’s Presence in IVF Science and Timing

22:52 Emotional and Physical Toll of IVF on Both Partners

29:30 Anchoring in Scripture and Finding Purpose in the Journey

31:44 A Prayer of Faith and Encouragement for IVF Warriors
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