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In this deeply moving episode, Michelle Bray shares the emotional journey of loving—and ultimately losing—her husband David after his long battle with alcoholism, trauma, and mental illness. From their teenage love story and early years raising a family, to navigating the chaos and heartbreak of addiction, Michelle speaks candidly about the unraveling of their marriage, the warning signs she missed, and the devastating day David died by suicide.

She also reflects on the complicated aftermath: the grief, guilt, unanswered questions, and the lack of support from crisis responders. But in the midst of pain, Michelle found a path forward—through therapy, spiritual reflection, and the unexpected connection of finding stories like hers. Today, she shares her truth in hopes that it helps someone else feel less alone.

This is a story of survival, self-reclamation, and learning to believe in joy again—even after the unthinkable.

Content Warning

This podcast includes real stories of suicide loss. Some episodes may reference the method of suicide and include emotionally intense or uncomfortable descriptions. We understand how sensitive this content is, and we carefully edit each episode to honor and respect both our guests and listeners. If you or someone you know is struggling, please call or text 988 or visit 988lifeline.org for free, 24/7 support. Please take care while listening—pause if you need to. You are not alone.

Takeaways

• Michelle's journey began with a chance meeting at 17.
• Alcoholism is a progressive disease that affects families deeply.
• The couple faced many challenges while raising three children.
• Michelle sought education to improve their family's situation.
• David's alcoholism escalated over the years, impacting their relationship.
• Separation was a necessary step for Michelle's self-discovery.
• Crisis moments led to interventions and hospitalizations.
• Grief and guilt are complex emotions after losing a loved one to suicide.
• Finding joy and healing is possible after trauma.
• Michelle's story aims to inspire and help others facing similar struggles.

About She Diaries

In She Diaries, women who have lost their husbands to suicide bravely share their stories of strength while navigating the unimaginable journey of widowhood. Through candid int

Mental Health Resources

• 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline: Call or text 988 for free, 24/7, confidential support for mental health crises, suicidal thoughts, or emotional distress.
• Find a Therapist: Search for licensed therapists near you through directories like Psychology Today, TherapyDen, or Mental Health Match.
• Join a Support Group: Connect with others through peer-led or professionally facilitated support groups via NAMI or GriefShare.

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