In this entry, I confronted the truth: I’ve confused being chosen with being cherished. I opened up about how my dad’s absence shaped a blueprint for love that trades my effort for someone else’s comfort. Now I’m stuck in a relationship where I give everything—money, energy, even my body—and receive hope as repayment. I’m beginning to realize that wanting more doesn’t make me ungrateful, it makes me awake.

In today’s diary entry, I talk about a man I liked… and how liking someone doesn’t mean they’re meant for you. I reflect on how far I’ve come after surviving an abusive relationship, only to realize that some men—even the ones who say they’re “of God”—will still treat you like a side quest.

From ghosting to groping to gaslighting me during a breakdown, this story spirals and rises all the way back to ME reclaiming my power. I also ask the question every real one faces after being done dirty: Slutty? Classy? Or both?

This one’s for anyone who’s been manipulated, dismissed, or used—but got back up and went to the movies anyway. By herself. Like the queen she is.

Oh, and yes—he looks like a tub of butter.

This episode honors the kind of growth that often goes unnoticed—making practical decisions, facing discomfort, and choosing to try. It’s about those small, everyday actions that signal a shift in mindset: asking better questions, taking responsibility, and doing things that once felt too big. For anyone who’s ever doubted their progress because it didn’t look dramatic—this is a reminder that becoming doesn’t need an audience.