Most survivors don’t start by asking “Is this abuse?” They ask “Why do I feel crazy?”

This episode dives deep into the emotional confusion that defines so many abusive dynamics—especially when gaslighting, blame-shifting, and chronic invalidation are at play. If you’ve ever found yourself apologizing after being hurt, doubting your memory, or shrinking yourself to avoid their reactions, you’re not alone—and you’re not overreacting.

We’ll explore:

• How emotional abuse trains you to question your reality
• The difference between lying and gaslighting—and why the distinction matters
• Subtle red flags that keep you stuck in self-blame
• The questions that help you reconnect with your truth

This episode is here to help you name the thing you haven’t been able to name, and to remind you: confusion is a tactic.

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Dr. Kerry McAvoy joins me to discuss the most confusing and painful parts of surviving a relationship with someone who has Cluster B traits, including narcissistic, antisocial, borderline, and histrionic personality disorders.

We explore:

• The neurological and psychological reasons why people with Cluster B disorders don’t change
• Why survivors feel crazy, confused, and exhausted—and why that’s by design
• How splitting, emotional dysregulation, and weaponized remorse show up in real relationships
• The difference between low capacity and emotional immaturity vs. willful abuse
• How to tell if the “person you miss” was ever real—or just the hook
• Why grief work is essential when letting go of the fantasy version of who you thought they were

Dr. Kerry offers insight from both her clinical background and lived experience. If you’ve ever asked yourself “Why won’t they change?” or “Was any of it real?”—this episode will help you understand why the answer is more devastating and liberating than you thought.

Learn more about Dr. Kerry McAvoy’s work and grab her book Love You More at kerrymcavoyphd.com.
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Email: jessica@jessicaknightcoaching.com

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{Course} Identify Signs of Abuse and Begin to Heal
{Free Resource} Canned Responses for Engaging with an Abusive Partner

I’m sharing one of the most requested and emotionally charged topics: the trauma bond. This episode is part of my private podcast series Unhooked: Mapping the Cycle of Abuse, and I felt it was important to bring it here too—for anyone who’s stuck in the pain, confusion, or shame of staying in a relationship they know is harming them.

We explore why trauma bonds form, how they keep you hooked, and what it takes to begin breaking free. This isn’t just about naming abuse—it’s about understanding how your nervous system got wired for survival in an environment where love and harm coexist.

Inside this episode:

• What a trauma bond actually is (and how it’s different from love)
• Why your body clings to the person who hurts you
• Signs you might be trauma bonded
• Why it feels impossible to leave—even when you know the truth
• What happens during withdrawal after leaving
• How to start untangling yourself, one step at a time
• The myth of mutual abuse and why blaming yourself keeps you stuck

This conversation comes directly from Unhooked, my in-depth series designed to help you map your personal cycle of abuse, reconnect to your clarity, and take back your power. If what you hear in this episode resonates, I invite you to join me inside the full series.

🧠 Learn more about Unhooked at emotionalabusecoach.com

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Join the Patreon: https://patreon.com/Youarenotcrazy

*New Course*: Unhooked: Map the Cycle of Abuse in your Relationship

Website: Emotional Abuse Coach and high-conflictdivorcecoaching.com
Instagram: @emotionalabusecoach
Email: jessica@jessicaknightcoaching.com

{Substack} Blog About Recovering from Abuse

{E-Book} How to Break Up with a Narcissist
{Course} Identify Signs of Abuse and Begin to Heal
{Free Resource} Canned Responses for Engaging with an Abusive Partner