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The Feeling That Started It All

The Feeling That Started It All

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In this raw and deeply personal first episode, host Jack Lee Matthews opens up about the moment everything changed — the heartbreaking loss of his best friend Shayne to suicide, and the silent battles he’s fought behind the scenes as a high-achieving man who always looked “fine” on the outside.


This isn’t just a story about grief. It’s about what happens when we finally stop pretending we’re okay… and start feeling for real.


Jack unpacks the weight of high-functioning depression, the loneliness of being the strong one, and how God, heartbreak, and healing shaped the mission behind this podcast. Whether you’re a man who’s been told to tough it out, a woman carrying it all alone, or someone who just knows what it’s like to smile through the pain — this space was created for you.


No filters. No masks. Just truth.


Welcome to the beginning of the Feel First movement.

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