Hi Guys... now that I have come off of my coffee high ... I was getting ready for bed tonight, and I have been making it a point to journal at least once a day, so as I was journaling, it came over to me that I wanted to say something to the soulmate that I truly feel is heading in my direction ... so I wrote a little something. THEN, I remembered.... an astrology site that I had signed up for weeks ago in the blurry time between my father passing away and almost losing my mother, I know I did not pay any money for it ... but somehow they emailed me a "Dear Alana" letter from my soulmate ... and I must have glanced over it at that time, but tonight as I was journaling, I remembered it, so I turned on my voice note app (which is now my best friend) ... and recorded both letters ... which stirred up more emotion in me than I was expecting. I hope you all are as moved by this episode as I was ... and of course, THANK YOU so much listening! Remember to please pass along the word of H.O.P.E to anyone that needs it! Hang. On. Pain. Ends

Well... TRIGGER WARNING - this was recorded while I was FULLY caffeinated up after an amazing breakfast date with my bestie ... so... apologizing in advance!

While driving on route 80 for the first time in 10 days ... I somehow went down a detour of some really crazy (and unbelievable) bad date stories while dodging huge rocks and bad drivers! This one might be one of my favorites ... when I listen back to some of these, it is almost like it was an out of body experience when these things happened because I CAN'T believe what I am hearing!

Anyway, I do mention this fellow content creator a few times during this episode ... so I wanted to leave his soical media handle here! He's GREAT! Be sure to look him up .... !

Davide De Pierro

davi87dp (on TikTok & Instagram)

Anyway ... have a blast listening to this one guys! It will be a nice way to kick off everyone's weekend!

This is the pick-me-up (off the floor) check in that I recorded after that last doozy ... I am probably going to keep it lighter for awhile... I realized the energy I exude when I talk more and more about my struggles ... of course I will still use my experience with Mental Illness as the main theme of my Journey... but I think I am ready to realize, those struggles and obstacles were put into my life for a reason, God knew I would be able to get through them (barely) and I think I have good things ahead, so I will try my hardest to keep my mind there ... I know I will have my moments, my bad days, my set backs. But it is all about how I react, how I manage, and how I have to really trust in God, My Dad, and my Angels ... that they will continue to protect me and guide me to where I am meant to go.... and in the meantime, I am going to continue to text myself ... in the hopes I don't get GHOSTED!

Hi Everyone.. I just want to THANK YOU. Thank you for taking time for YOU and leaving your own struggles for a moment ... to hear about stories of someone's life that might be able to make YOURS feel a bit different tomorrow. Soooo with this being said, this one is a DOOZY. I promise you it's a story like you have NEVER EVER heard before .... get your popcorn, your coffee, your white claw ... and just sit back, relax, listen ... laugh... cry... and remember, Have HOPE!

Hey Guys - I am going to preface by saying this is the LONGEST episode I have done clocking at 50 minutes! So if you are looking for a quickie ... this isn't the one! But afterall, we can't be satisfied with Quickies ALL the time right??? (That's what she said lol) Okay - so ... in order to understand the name of this episode, "The Five People You Meet on Earth" - you need to listen to the WHOLE thing .. but I promise you, this one is worth it! Get ready for a lot of laughs ... NO tears this time I promise. Also wondering what you guys like better? Shorter or Longer check ins? I'll probably mix it up ... kind of like my personality - I'm basically a box of chocolates ... you never know what you are going to get! Have a great day guys.

Hey guys! This is a quick fun one! I hope you like it ... it's all about music and how much ONE song can just change the direction of your entire day. And that's what happened to me today.

I promised in this one that I would post the recommended playlist that I dare you all to make on your phone today ... BUT ... you will have to pause the episode and write them down ... because by the time I posted it, my vibe had totally changed, and the below list of songs is more of an inspirational, "I am so much better than I was" type of feel. Both playlists are on my Spotify ... just depends on my mood (and yes, I have moods... it's allowed! There is a difference between a person who is more of a "moody" personality - or someone that is not properly medicated/treated for Bipolar disorder). ANYWAY ... happy listening!

Survivor - Destiny's Child

Lose Yourself - Eminem

Rise Up - Andra Day

When I Look at You - Miley Cyrus

She Used to be Mine - Sarah Barellis (for me, this was me for the past 7 years...)

My Heart Will Go On - Celine Dion

Overcomer - Mandisa

Ain't No Mountain High Enough - Marvin Gaye, Tammi Terrell

Tell your Heart Beat Again - Danny Gokey (THIS ONE??? OMG FULL TEARS EVERY TIME)

This one focuses on the sweetest 94 year old man I've ever met. My mom has been a caregiver to him for the past 3 years ... and she has changed his life, as he has changed hers.

Unfortunately he has been hospitalized and in rehab for months now, my Mom visits him as much as she can, and he just sobs on her shoulder, bc all he wants to do is go home. Today was the first day I went inside with her to say hello ... and what I experienced I was not prepared for.

This "gentle giant" as I would call him ... 6'4" ... muscular, strong old man ... was sobbing like a baby, as my mom had her arms wrapped around him.. and he just kept saying over and over "I'm broken .. they broke me." ... It was probably one of the most heart-breaking things I've ever witnessed in my life and has now become a core memory that I will never forget. As I was there, it dawned on me, that I might be able to help.

So listen with me ... and I hope you leave with the message ... sometimes, you can go from Broken ... to Blessed, if you just have H.O.P.E - Hang On Pain Ends.

I've never claimed to be a Yogi. Most of all because I think the word "Yogi" is annoying. But, today ... on the yoga mat, felt like the first time in a very long time ... where I knew why I was there. In that Moment "in time" ... I knew I was meant to be there. So whether you know what a downward dog is or not... I think this is a good one. Especially for those of us that know, deep down in our hearts, it's time for a fresh start.