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Love Me Whole

By: Nicky James
Narrated by: Adam Gold
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Twenty-eight-year-old Oryn Patterson isn't like other people. Being an extremely shy social introvert is only part of the problem. Oryn has dissociative identity disorder. He may look like a normal man on the outside, but spend five minutes with him, and his daily struggles begin to show.

Oryn shares his life and headspace with five distinctively different alters. Reed, a protective, very straight jock. Cohen, a flamboyantly gay 19-year-old who is a social butterfly. Cove, a self-destructive terror, whose past haunts him. Theo, an asexual man of little emotion, whose focus is on maintaining order. And Rain, a five-year-old child whose only concern is Batman.

Vaughn Sinclair is stuck in a rut. When his job doesn't offer the same thrill it once did, he decides it's time to mix-up his stagnant, boring routine. Little does he know, the man he meets during an impromptu decision to return to college is anything but ordinary.

Vaughn's heart defies logic, and he finds himself falling in love with this strange new man. But how can you love someone who isn't always themself? It may not be easy, but Vaughn is determined to try.

©2018 Nicky James (P)2019 Nicky James Literature & Fiction Romance Heartfelt Mental Health
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Loved this story so much love went into it. Narrator and author did amazing giving all the individual personalities their own persona . A wonderful love story

So beautiful and complex

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This was an amazingly beautiful read. Loved every moment and had me crying with them. Laughing and getting frustrated. Thank you for a beautifully written romance and the Narration was fantastic as well.

Brilliant and enthralling

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This is my first Ashley James book and it won’t be my last. The research, time and care that went into crafting this piece of work was fantastic. Adam Gold’s narration was also excellent and he used different voices for each of Oryn’s alters.

Vaughn and Oryn meet when they both take some university level night classes and partner up for a group project. Oryn immediately discloses his struggles living with dissociative identity disorder but Vaughn is still very drawn to him and they very slowly become friends… and then more. The story focuses on the development of Vaughn and Oryn’s relationship, specifically the dynamics Vaughn learns to navigate with Oryn’s 5 alternate personalities and their random switching.

TW: there is mention that Oryn has suffered long-term abuse as a child but no discussion of details on-page, as he has no memory of what occurred. There is some self harm by one of his alters.

This will be a re-read for sure.

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Absolutely brilliant

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This was such a beautiful story.This is a book i highly recommend.I have read this book a few times now & the narrator made the book even better.

beautiful!!!

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This book is... perfection.

Nicky James did something outstanding portraying these characters. Yes, it is a romance book but it is so much more than that. This is a story about trauma, acceptance, recovery and moving on with the help of unconditional love from someone. It really could have been a disaster but I appreciate the author didn't romanticize or fetishise Oryn's mental disorder and wrote it beautifully. I also have to mention Adam Gold did a great job narrating this story. This is going to be one of my favourite books of all time.

It's so much more than a romance book.

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So sad but beautiful ending. Well written insight into this complex condition. Loved all the characters. Will try and read more from this author.

Amazing story

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the narration was impeccable. captured every character beautifully.

this book made me feel so much. just a devastingly perfectly imperfect world that I felt the whole time was just a privilege to be able to be a fly on the wall for.

ok narration!

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This is an amazing story by Nicky James and I learned a lot from this book. The narration by Adam Gold is superb, his interpretation of the characters is so good.
I highly recommend this audiobook.

Superb!

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An amazing story that opened my eyes to another way of living…
Narration by Adam Gold is out of this world .
What a book!

Brilliant!

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Brilliant performance by Adam Gold. This is an amazing story - well researched and written. Very empathetic

Complex and fascinating

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