Aoryn Thorval

Are you exhausted from pretending to be “normal”? Do you feel caught between two worlds, not fully ADHD, not fully autistic, yet deeply resonating with both? You may be AuDHD. For many women, ADHD and autism go unnoticed for decades.

When the woman who always remembered everything... begins to forget you. Watching your mother disappear one memory at a time is one of the deepest heartbreaks a daughter can experience. You love her. You care for her. You stay strong for everyone else.

Nobody is hiring. Or at least that's how it feels. You did everything you were told to do. You earned the degree. You followed the rules. You applied for dozens, maybe hundreds, of jobs. And yet the interviews never come. The problem is not that you are lazy.

What if you were never failing at life, but living with a brain the world never taught you to understand? For countless women, autism and ADHD go unnoticed for decades. Instead, they are labeled “too sensitive,” “lazy,” “dramatic,” “disorganized,” or “not trying hard enough.

Warum bleibt Ihre Bewerbung unbeantwortet? Sie investieren Stunden in Ihren Lebenslauf. Sie passen jedes Anschreiben sorgfältig an. Sie verschicken Bewerbung um Bewerbung. Und trotzdem bleibt Ihr Postfach leer. Wenn Sie sich irgendwann gefragt haben: „Warum meldet sich niemand auf meine Bewerbung?

Why Do I Feel Like Something's Wrong With Me? is a compassionate, practical guide for anyone whose difficult childhood still echoes through everyday life.

Why Are You Being Ignored? You tailored your resume. You wrote thoughtful cover letters. You applied to dozens, maybe hundreds, of jobs. Yet the silence continues. If you're starting to wonder whether the problem is you, this book may completely change the way you see today's job market.

Have you ever felt like your brain works differently from everyone else? You may be intelligent, perceptive, and deeply empathetic. You notice things others miss. You think intensely, feel deeply, and process the world in unique ways.

You're not lazy. You're not inconsistent. And you're definitely not "bad at work." You're operating in a system that was never designed for your brain.

What if the most powerful way to deal with toxic people… was to stop reacting? You try to stay calm. You explain your intentions. You replay conversations in your mind, wondering what went wrong. You try harder to be understanding, patient, reasonable.

Many autistic professionals are intelligent, dedicated, and capable of exceptional work. Yet the modern workplace often feels confusing, exhausting, and filled with invisible rules that no one explains.

You’re not imagining it. Some days leave you completely drained. Some conversations feel like performance. Some relationships feel one-sided, confusing, or exhausting. And the most disorienting part? You’ve always looked “fine.

Do you feel exhausted after every social interaction, as if you've been performing all day? Because you have been. You learned early to edit yourself. To talk less about what you loved. To be less sensitive. Less intense. Less you. You adapted. You masked. You became exceptionally good at passing.

You love each other. So why does it feel like you keep missing each other? If your relationship is shaped by autism, ADHD, or AuDHD, misunderstandings can feel relentless. A forgotten task becomes rejection. A need for quiet feels like withdrawal. A shutdown feels like disconnection.

This book is for high-masking autistic adults who are tired of surviving. Not just physically tired. Tired of pushing through every day. Tired of pretending everything is fine. Tired of holding your life together while quietly falling apart behind the scenes. This is not a book about fixing you.

Why Do We Keep Having the Same Fight? You love each other. So why does every difficult conversation seem to end in the same argument? If you're in an ADHD relationship, you may feel trapped in a cycle that neither of you wants: A forgotten task. A frustrated reminder. A defensive reaction.

Most career advice assumes one thing: That success belongs to the loudest people in the room. Speak more. Network more. Promote yourself more. But for millions of professionals, this advice feels unnatural, and exhausting.

You’re not fighting because you don’t love each other. You’re fighting because you’re speaking two different neurological languages. In an ADHD relationship, communication doesn’t break down all at once.

You were not born anxious. Somewhere along the way, you learned to be. You learned to rehearse conversations in your head before they happened. You learned to study people's tone, expressions, and moods before speaking. You learned that saying "no" could feel like guilt…

How to Pray When You Don't Know Where to StartDo you want to pray but never know what to say? Have you ever sat down to pray, only to feel distracted, awkward, uncertain, or completely blank? Maybe you've wondered: Am I doing this right? Why does prayer feel so difficult?