I had to sit with what God showed me today. We are quick to believe the bad in people, quick to repeat it, quick to disqualify them, but when it comes to ourselves, we want grace, mercy, and understanding. That contradiction? God had something to say about it… and it might be the very reason some blessings are delayed.

There’s something God spoke to my spirit today that I can’t shake, and I won’t pretend it was comfortable. He reminded me that He is a God of second chances—and if I truly say I know Him, then my posture toward people has to reflect that truth.

Here’s the problem though. Many of us are excellent at believing the worst about others. If someone messes up, fails publicly, or does something that doesn’t sit right with us, we lock them into that moment forever. We replay it. We define them by it. We cancel them out completely. But then… when it’s our past, our mistake, our weak season, suddenly we want God to “understand,” to “see our heart,” to “remember our growth.”

God showed me how backwards that is.

When we only believe the bad in people, we leave no room for correction, growth, or redemption. And that’s dangerous, because correction is how people learn. Without it, without patience, without someone willing to see potential instead of permanence, how does anyone ever become better?

People do not always remain where they are.

You didn’t.
I didn’t.

And God didn’t meet us at our worst just to abandon us there.

What really struck me was this: when we cancel people out completely, we are silently telling God, “I decide who deserves grace.” And that’s not our place. That’s not our authority. Judgment belongs to God alone.

God is not a God of “just a select few.” He is a God of everybody. And in this season, a lot of people are praying for blessings while simultaneously asking God to punish someone else. But mercy doesn’t work like that. You don’t get to demand grace for yourself while denying it to others. That door doesn’t stay open.

This is why some people feel stuck spiritually.
This is why prayers feel unanswered.
This is why peace feels distant.

It’s not always because of what was done to you—it’s sometimes because of what you refuse to release from you.

God showed me that paying attention only to the bad can blind you to the good. And when you miss the good, you miss what God might be trying to grow. You miss the lesson. You miss the purpose. You even miss the blessing that can come out of an uncomfortable situation.

That doesn’t mean ignoring wrongdoing.
That doesn’t mean excusing behavior.
That doesn’t mean trusting people blindly.

It means understanding that God specializes in transformation, not permanent labeling.

And here’s the part that really sat heavy with me: many of the same people who were given patience, time, and mercy by God are now the loudest voices saying someone else should get none. That’s not discernment—that’s pride dressed up as righteousness.

God touched my soul with this because He made it clear:
If you want mercy, you must walk in mercy.
If you want grace, you must extend grace.
And if you want God to work in your life, you cannot block Him by trying to do His job.

I go much deeper into this on the podcast—what God showed me, what Scripture confirms, and why this message is critical right now. This post is just the surface. The conversation? That’s where the real revelation is.

🎧 Listen to the full episode on the podcast
Because some truths aren’t meant to be skimmed—they’re meant to be heard.

https://kingdominfluencemedia.com/2025/08/21/nicki-minaj-god-is-speaking/

I had to learn the hard way that not everybody is meant to understand my relationship with God—and that’s okay.

One thing God has really been teaching me lately is this: we have to stop trying to explain ourselves to people who were never meant to understand us in the first place. Especially when it comes to our relationship with Him. I used to feel like I had to explain why I move the way I move, why I don’t do certain things, why my heart is sensitive, why my convictions are strong, why I choose obedience even when it costs me comfort or relationships. But God gently showed me something that changed everything—this walk is not for public approval.

Your relationship with God is exactly that: a relationship. And just like any real relationship, it’s personal. Intimate. Sacred. There are things between you and God that were never meant to be put on display or explained to people who don’t share that same heart posture. Not everybody is supposed to “get” you, and not everybody deserves an explanation. That was freeing for me.

This is to reaffirm the message I mention The prophecy I gave in August 2025!! GOD IS SPEAKING!!!!
https://kingdominfluencemedia.com/2025/08/21/nicki-minaj-god-is-speaking/

There comes a moment in life when God allows you to see the real character of a person. Not the mask. Not the charm. Not the words. The heart. And when that moment happens, it can feel painful, confusing, and even unfair. But one thing I’ve learned — and I need people to really hear this — God does not expose things to hurt you. He exposes things to protect you.

God had to let you see the bad so you could finally understand what was truly going on. You weren’t crazy. You weren’t overthinking. You weren’t “reading too much into it.” God wanted you to see clearly. He never wants His children walking in darkness, confusion, or deception. Everything about God is rooted in truth.

Scripture tells us plainly that whatever is hidden will be brought to the light. That’s not a threat — that’s a promise. If God loves you, He will not allow lies to sit over your eyes forever. He will pull the cover back. And when He does, it may hurt, but it will also free you.

You don’t have room on your plate for hate. You just don’t. Hate takes up space that love, peace, wisdom, and discernment are supposed to fill. When you choose to hate, you’re choosing to operate outside of God’s character. And a lot of folks want God to move, want God to fight, want God to expose people, but they aren’t even standing in line with Him. You’re asking God to cosign behavior He already told you not to operate in.

And let’s talk about this real quick—because it needs to be said. Wanting God to “get” somebody while you refuse to love them is not righteousness. That’s pride dressed up as spirituality. That’s ego pretending to be discernment. And yes, sometimes that’s a Jezebel-type spirit at work—manipulation, control, offense, self-righteousness, and a refusal to submit to God’s actual instruction.

And not just a little bit — I mean lie, exaggerate, twist things, and make you believe something that God never said. Feelings are powerful, but they are not always truth. And for some reason, when life hits us hard, our emotions start talking louder than the Word. 😒

There are moments when you’ll say, “God, where are You? Why don’t I feel You? Why does it seem like I’m going through this alone?” And the whole time, God is looking at you like, “I’m right here. I never moved.”

We forget that we’re living in a spiritual world, and just because you feel silence doesn’t mean God is absent. Sometimes God lets your emotions quiet down so your faith can rise up. Because if you never learn to trust Him beyond your feelings, you will keep letting your emotions lead you into fear, confusion, and frustration that He never intended for you.

Here’s the truth:
God wants to see how you come out of the battle… but also how you ACT in the middle of it.

We love to say, “The battle is the Lord’s,” but then we act like we’re supposed to fight it with our emotions. No! God wants to see if you’ll still walk in obedience when your feelings are screaming something different. He wants to see if you can stay calm when everything in you wants to run, shout, or snap back. That’s the real test.

You might not feel good about what happened. You might not feel strong. You might not feel supported. But listen — feelings are not facts.

What is a fact?
God said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”
God said, “I am with you always.”
God said, “I fight for you.”

Your emotions didn’t say that.
GOD said that.

And if God said it, it stands forever.

Sometimes the hardest part of faith is choosing God’s Word over your own emotional reactions. Your feelings say, “Go off on them.” God says, “Peace.”
Your feelings say, “Handle it yourself.” God says, “Be still.”
Your feelings say, “God must’ve forgotten about me.”
God says, “I’m working behind the scenes.”

So even if you didn’t feel His presence…
Even if you were nervous or hurt…
Even if your mind was all over the place…

You still didn’t make the situation worse.
You still didn’t step out of character.
You still didn’t go against the Word of God.

And guess what? That matters. Heaven sees that.

God isn’t looking for perfect people — He is looking for people who choose Him even when their feelings are lying to them. That’s real faith right there. That’s maturity. That’s growth.

So please stop thinking something is wrong with you because you “don’t feel God” every second. Faith is not a feeling — faith is knowing. Faith is standing on His promises when your emotions are having a meltdown in the background. Faith is saying, “Lord, I trust You,” even when your heart is shaking.

Feelings come and go. God stays.
Feelings shift. God is constant.
Feelings confuse you. God brings clarity.

Next time your emotions start lying to you, remind yourself:
“My feelings are temporary. God is eternal.”
And walk in peace, knowing that your Father has already gone ahead of you and taken care of everything. 💛🙏✨

I was sitting there talking to God, and He spoke something so simple but so deep that it made me rethink everything I thought I understood about people. He said, “It does not matter what it looks like from the outside. What matters is the inside.” And instantly, I felt that. Like, deeply. Because it reminded me just how easily we judge people by surface things that have absolutely nothing to do with their relationship with God.

See, people look at image, but God looks at intention. People look at clothing, but God looks at compassion. People look at behavior, but God looks at the broken places we don’t talk about—the things we’re fighting through, the things we’re healing from, the heart we’re trying to offer Him even when it doesn’t look perfect.

And here’s the part that really touched me:
God is searching for the heart, not the performance.

Some folks look holy because they learned how to “play the part,” but their hearts are far from Him. And some folks don’t fit the religious image at all, yet they talk to God all day long, they cry out to Him in private moments, they love Him with sincerity that can’t be faked. That’s why God told me, “Don’t get caught up in appearances.” Because appearances do not reveal relationship.

Truth is, someone can look faithful but not truly know God. God said that too—faithfulness can come from wanting to maintain a standard, not from a real connection. Some people follow rules to look good. Others follow God because they love Him. And those two things may look the same on the outside, but the heart behind them is completely different.

And y’all… we’ve all seen it.
That person who looks like the “perfect Christian,” yet they’re cold, judgmental, unkind, and spiritually empty.
And then there’s the one folks overlook because they don’t match the image—but they have a heart full of love, humility, and desire to know God more deeply.

God told me to stop judging what I see. Because what we see is never the whole story.

And let me be real: we’ve ALL been misunderstood this way at some point. People looked at our outside—our past, our struggles, our appearance—and assumed they knew our heart. They didn’t. But God did. And God always will.

This is why He said to me:
“I love a person with a heart. I’m looking inside. That’s where truth lives.”

Anyone can dress holy. Anyone can learn the church culture. Anyone can say the right words. But only a real heart—only a heart that’s honest, surrendered, and seeking Him—can catch God’s attention.

So today, I’m choosing to stop looking at what appears right. And I’m choosing to look at the heart—mine and others’. Because God reminded me that someone can be spotless on the outside and still have a heart full of envy, bitterness, jealousy, or dishonesty. And someone else can be rough on the outside, yet their heart is pure, soft, and open toward Him.

And THAT is the person God is after.
Not the one who looks the part… but the one who loves Him from the inside out.

It’s the heart that reveals everything.
And God sees it even when nobody else does. 💛✨

Listen… life has taught me one thing the hard way: it’s better to keep your hands clean than to let folks drag you into their dirt. I don’t have time to be messy and then wonder why my blessings feel blocked. Nope. God honors clean hands, clean hearts, and people who let Him be God without trying to fix everything themselves (because Lord knows I tried… and failed 😂.

Let me tell y’all something real. I have lived long enough, cried enough, and apologized enough for things that weren’t even my fault to finally understand this truth: it is better to have clean hands than to have dirty ones. Life will test you. People will test you. And sometimes the old you wants to rise up and clap back so loud that heaven itself pauses… but God be like: “Nope. Don’t touch it. I got this.”

And honestly? He’s right.

We think handling things ourselves means we’ve won. But every time I tried to fight fire with fire, I ended up smelling like smoke. Every time I tried to prove a point, I ended up losing my peace. And every time I let someone pull me into their chaos, I walked away feeling further from God, not closer. That’s when I started realizing that the biggest spiritual flex is not reacting. It’s clean hands.

Clean hands don’t mean perfect. Clean hands mean you refuse to roll around in the mud just because somebody else lives in it. Clean hands mean you choose integrity when revenge looks real tempting. Clean hands mean you trust God enough to step back and let Him deal with people the way only He can — fair, firm, and final.

And let me be honest… sometimes watching God handle it is better than anything you could’ve said or done. (If you know, you know 👀)

God blesses those who honor His commands. Not sometimes. Not halfway. Not when it’s convenient. He honors those who actually try — even when the trying is exhausting. And baby… being the bigger person is exhausting (I know you felt that in your spirit 😩😂).

But here’s the truth: Your blessings are tied to your obedience, not your retaliation.
When you trust God to be God, you stop carrying weight that was never yours to lift.

We be out here stressed, tired, ready to fight spiritual battles with emotional weapons, when God is saying:
“Give it to Me. Keep your hands clean. I bless clean hands.”

And He does. Every time.

The moment I stopped defending myself, God became my defender.
The moment I stopped trying to expose people, God exposed the truth.
The moment I stopped trying to force peace, God gave me real peace.

So yes — I have learned through life, through pain, through growth, and through plenty of lessons I did not sign up for — clean hands get blessed hands. God will NEVER stop favoring someone who refuses to play dirty. He will lift you, cover you, and fight for you in ways you didn’t even pray for.

All He asks is that you trust Him enough to stay out of His way.

So today, if you’re tempted to fight, clap back, expose somebody, drag them just a little bit (😂), or return the energy they gave you, stop… breathe… and remember:

Clean hands open doors. Dirty hands close them.

Let God be God.
Let Him carry what you weren’t meant to.
And walk into your blessings with hands so clean that heaven recognizes you instantly. 🙌✨