You say you want peace.
But the second life starts feeling calm, your nervous system short-circuits and suddenly you’re spiraling, stress-planning, overcommitting, and micromanaging your way right back into chaos. Why? Because peace feels unsafe when you’ve been addicted to control.

In this raw and unfiltered episode, I’m exposing the sneaky ways control masks itself as “healing,” “consistency,” or “getting your life together” — when really, it’s just a trauma loop dressed up in spiritual language. We’ll break down:

• How control is keeping you from real rest
• Why peace feels awkward AF when you’re first learning it
• Where this need for control actually started
• And what to do when you’re ready to choose something softer

This one’s for the hyper-independent girls, the burnout queens, and the high-functioning perfectionists who are finally ready to unclench.

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Let’s just call it what it is: martyrdom is the silent killer of alignment. And the worst part? Most people have no idea they’re doing it — because it looks like love, like loyalty, like being a “good person.”

In this episode, we’re diving into the sneaky, subconscious ways the martyr complex shows up in your everyday life — in work, relationships, parenting, and even how you talk to yourself. We’ll get real about the conditioning that taught you to put everyone else first and why constantly giving from an empty tank will never get you the love or peace you’re craving.

If you’re exhausted from being the dependable one, the over-giver, the fixer, or the one who “never asks for anything,” this is your wake-up call.

We’re going all the way in — breaking down what giving from lack actually feels like, what a heart-centered life really means (no fluff), and how to start putting yourself first without guilt. Because alignment doesn’t come from sacrifice. It comes from truth. And it’s time to get radically honest.

Let’s unhook from the story that suffering is noble — and start rewriting the one where your needs matter too.

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If things have been feeling a little... off lately, you're not crazy — you're probably just caught in a cosmic growth spurt. In this juicy episode, I’m joined by the one and only Reilly X — astrologer, Human Design guide, and intuitive coach who makes the mystical feel practical AF. We dive right into the current astro-weather (hellooo Pluto in Aquarius), what it's shaking up, and how it’s lowkey forcing all of us to stop pretending and start living in alignment.

We talk about how the stars and your energy blueprint are working together to guide you — and why Human Design can unlock the patterns that keep tripping you up. Reilly breaks down the biggest struggles each Human Design type faces and gives tangible insight into how to work with them instead of against them. We also go deep into how astrology + HD together can explain so much about what you’re experiencing right now.

This convo feels like two cosmic nerds hanging out — raw, real, and soul-sparking. Even if some of it flies over your head, the seeds are still being planted. Come hang out with us and let something in you wake up.

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