I had this version of someone in my head for years.

Thought I was the smart one. The driven one. The one who knew better.

But life has a way of humbling you.

And eventually… yeah—turns out I was the a**shole.

This one’s about ego, old stories, and eating that unavoidable slice of humble pie.

If you’ve ever had to face your own bullshit—you’re in good company.

My son is about to be sworn into the Army Reserves. My daughter just finished her A-levels. They’re becoming grounded, driven humans — far more steady than I ever was at their age.

When I was 18–20, I was a mess. I’d already failed three apprenticeships and spent years trying to outrun myself — first to London, then Southeast Asia, then the U.S. I drank too much, smoked too much, and kept dragging my chaos with me.

I was nearly arrested in Malaysia once… but got saved by a penis pipe.

This episode is about body shame, running, reckoning, and unexpected parenting pride. It’s about watching your kids build solid lives while remembering how lost you were — and feeling all the feels about it.

If you’ve ever thought How the hell are they doing so well when I was still a disaster? — this one’s for you.

A rough week, too much chocolate, and a hard look at why I self-sabotage when things start working. This one’s real, raw, and might hit close to home if you’ve ever spiraled just as something good was gaining momentum.

Five episodes in, and I still haven’t got a bloody clue what I’m doing. There’s no fancy editing here—just me, walking around my living room, recording this on my iPhone and hoping ChatGPT can clean up the background noise.

But this isn’t about technical perfection. It’s about real life. Real thoughts. Real bloody bras that won’t roll down over damp skin.

In this episode, I talk about joining the gym—not for weight loss, but to actually speak to people! I share what it felt like to go for my first swim in years, why I’m doing it for my dopamine, not my body, and how I ended up stuck halfway into a sports bra… and going home commando.

This week I found out my HRT hadn’t just gone missing—it had been quietly cancelled without so much as a heads-up. That set the tone. A beach day turned into a row with the husband (no divorce lawyer was called), some uncomfortable truths surfaced, and—also—my boobs have started smelling weird lately when I take off my sports bra. It’s hormonal, emotional, a bit sweaty, and very real

After 100 days without alcohol, I expected clarity, joy, energy. Instead, I felt flat — and that’s what led to one of the biggest epiphanies of my life.

This episode is about discovering that alcohol was never the core issue — it was just one of many crutches I used to chase dopamine. The real problem? A completely overloaded and imbalanced brain.

I talk about the emotional crash that came after quitting, the habits I unknowingly clung to, and the massive shift that came when I realised I can literally influence my happiness on a molecular level.

This isn’t a diet story. This isn’t about willpower. It’s the beginning of rebuilding my brain from the inside out.

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This episode nearly didn’t happen — because Helga (my inner bitch) was loud, rude, and relentless.

She told me I was ridiculous. That I’m not good enough, that no one cares, and honestly, that I should just shut up and go back to being invisible.
She said it with that voice — you know the one. Flat, smug, and mean.

But here we are.

I talk about what it takes to actually push through that voice — not in a motivational way, but in a dragging-yourself-forward kind of way.

Also:

• Going out without my phone (because it was dead) and realising... I actually liked being more present.

• Feeling the relief of leaving it all in the podcast — instead of splattering my life across Instagram.

• And seriously questioning why we feel the need to constantly “show up” on social media in the first place.

If you’ve ever been bullied by your own brain, Helga and I have a seat for you.

In my very first episode, I talk about starting something new, battling mini panic attacks (and no, I don't even have an inhaler), and figuring it out as I go. If you're scared of new ventures too — welcome to the club.