I thought I was signing up to point people down a path in a high-vis vest. Instead, I ended up part of a 500-year-old tradition with horses, carriages, and chaos. More than that, I realised how small my world had become — nights on the sofa, routines that kept me safe but disconnected. Volunteering for the Lichfield Sheriff’s Ride pulled me out of that bubble, reminded me what real connection feels like, and showed me the growth that comes from saying yes instead of no.

This morning I got a comment—unsolicited advice, the kind that used to send me into a spiral.

I would’ve taken it as truth.

I would’ve overthought it, deleted my post, and probably changed how I showed up online.

But not today.

In this episode, I share the moment that reminded me just how far I’ve come. The way I responded. The way I didn’t shrink. And the power of standing tall in the face of opinions you didn’t ask for.

This one’s for anyone who’s ever felt small after someone else’s judgment. Anyone who’s stayed silent to avoid discomfort.

I’m not doing that anymore.

We talk boundaries, self-trust, social media weirdness, and yes—AI, real life, and how I’m using it to stay productive without burning out

Join me for a very real catch-up: proud mum updates, family tension that nobody talks about, and why consistency still feels terrifying. Plus, my pony throws over the wheelbarrow mid-recording. Because of course he does

I’ve always been a nervous rider. Even when I was younger, even before the bad falls.

It’s never been easy to get in the saddle—but this time, something’s different.

I’m still nervous. Still cautious. But there’s a flicker of enjoyment now. A quiet moment of oh… this could actually feel good.

In this episode—recorded from the car, dogs in the backseat, straight after a ride—I talk about getting back on my horse after more than a year off, and what it feels like to finally maybe start enjoying something that’s always come with tension.

It’s not just about horses. It’s about slow healing, trying again, and letting joy sneak in even when your body’s still a bit braced.

There’s middle-aged rambling, ADHD jumps, mother-daughter dynamics, and real talk about physical pain, fear, and finding new rhythms.

Hit play if you’re in the middle of your own “maybe this could feel good” moment.

Warning: I start with blisters and end up talking about Trump. In between, there’s a dodgy perm in Bangkok, a henna tattoo on a boob, and some properly honest reflections about the state of the world right now. If you like podcasts that are structured and tidy, this ain’t it. But if you’re up for some raw rambling with heart, welcome in.

I had this version of someone in my head for years.

Thought I was the smart one. The driven one. The one who knew better.

But life has a way of humbling you.

And eventually… yeah—turns out I was the a**shole.

This one’s about ego, old stories, and eating that unavoidable slice of humble pie.

If you’ve ever had to face your own bullshit—you’re in good company.

My son is about to be sworn into the Army Reserves. My daughter just finished her A-levels. They’re becoming grounded, driven humans — far more steady than I ever was at their age.

When I was 18–20, I was a mess. I’d already failed three apprenticeships and spent years trying to outrun myself — first to London, then Southeast Asia, then the U.S. I drank too much, smoked too much, and kept dragging my chaos with me.

I was nearly arrested in Malaysia once… but got saved by a penis pipe.

This episode is about body shame, running, reckoning, and unexpected parenting pride. It’s about watching your kids build solid lives while remembering how lost you were — and feeling all the feels about it.

If you’ve ever thought How the hell are they doing so well when I was still a disaster? — this one’s for you.

A rough week, too much chocolate, and a hard look at why I self-sabotage when things start working. This one’s real, raw, and might hit close to home if you’ve ever spiraled just as something good was gaining momentum.