I had this version of someone in my head for years.

Thought I was the smart one. The driven one. The one who knew better.

But life has a way of humbling you.

And eventually… yeah—turns out I was the a**shole.

This one’s about ego, old stories, and eating that unavoidable slice of humble pie.

If you’ve ever had to face your own bullshit—you’re in good company.

My son is about to be sworn into the Army Reserves. My daughter just finished her A-levels. They’re becoming grounded, driven humans — far more steady than I ever was at their age.

When I was 18–20, I was a mess. I’d already failed three apprenticeships and spent years trying to outrun myself — first to London, then Southeast Asia, then the U.S. I drank too much, smoked too much, and kept dragging my chaos with me.

I was nearly arrested in Malaysia once… but got saved by a penis pipe.

This episode is about body shame, running, reckoning, and unexpected parenting pride. It’s about watching your kids build solid lives while remembering how lost you were — and feeling all the feels about it.

If you’ve ever thought How the hell are they doing so well when I was still a disaster? — this one’s for you.

A rough week, too much chocolate, and a hard look at why I self-sabotage when things start working. This one’s real, raw, and might hit close to home if you’ve ever spiraled just as something good was gaining momentum.