In this energizing conversation, Cynthia meets siblings Denver and Dylan Humphrey, co-founders of the youth nonprofit Fourddo, whose mission is to amplify young voices and build real community. They share how a homeschooled, low-social-media childhood evolved into a joint platform—and then into a hub that connects teens across states with resources, mentors, and each other. The duo explains why they refuse to “be niche”: mental health, civic education, arts, equity, and storytelling all belong in the same room when you’re serving whole human beings. We hear about their Days of Mindfulness campaign, pop-up gatherings that give students a reset through movement, play, and presence—and why simply staying in touch is transformative. Denver and Dylan talk about bridge-building (introductions, DMs, late-night check-ins), making local retreats community-run, and the power of intergenerational listening. Most of all, they model sibling teamwork as a practice of empathy, fluidity, and love. The result is a blueprint for youth leadership that is inclusive, practical, and deeply human.00:00 — What Fourddo Is
04:00 — From Homeschool to Platform

08:00 — Checking In & Staying Connected

12:00 — Campaigns & Days of Mindfulness

16:00 — Safe Spaces, Not Isolation

20:00 — “Not Niche”: Move Freely Across Issues

24:00 — Retreats, Local Partners, & What’s Next

28:01 — Closing: Love, Bridges, and How to Reach Fourddo

In this riveting session, Cynthia Marks and Dr. Loren Weiner unpack masochism as a deep, often invisible style of living driven by unconscious guilt—the felt sense that we “deserve” to suffer or deny ourselves good things. Loren traces the guilt back to Dr. Bernard Bail’s imprint theory: the fetus unconsciously takes on the mother’s unprocessed pain and wrongly concludes, “it’s my fault,” a “first lie” that later fuels self-sabotage, procrastination, and staying in punishing relationships. They show how dreams reveal this pattern—from lost purses and missed deadlines to violent head blows—mapping the original psychic “blast” and the mind’s attempt to wall it off. Cynthia shares personal dreams (like a book titled “Life Is Torture”) that capture resistance to joy and the pull toward old operating manuals. Loren explains how this inner guilt scales up into culture—why groups, institutions, even nations repeatedly choose policies that make everyone suffer. The antidote isn’t moralizing but honest dreamwork, daily self-questioning, and claiming the birthright to love and pleasure. Start inside, they insist; shift the inner operating system and the outer systems begin to change.

• 00:00 — What Is Masochism?

• 07:20 — The First Lie

• 14:40 — Head-Trauma Dreams

• 22:00 — Working the Pattern

• 29:20 — “Life Is Torture”

• 36:40 — Self to Society

• 44:00 — Allowing Love & Pleasure

• 50:49 — Closing Invitation

In this gripping and hope-filled conversation, Cynthia Marks sits down with Adonai Melendez, a Homeboy Industries trainee and reentry advocate, to trace his journey from childhood trauma and gang life to accountability, faith, and service. Adonai describes fleeing civil war, a painful break from his grandmother, and an adolescence that made gangs feel like the only family offering safety and belonging. At 16, he committed a murder; decades in prison followed, where he learned the “politics” of survival, and then, through a searing moment of empathy, began transforming from the inside out. He chose programs, accountability, and love-based action, discovering that giving others power made him truly powerful. Released after nearly 31 years, Adonai rediscovered the world in color, found purpose in community work, and entered Homeboy Industries, where therapy, structure, and dignity anchor his new life. Today he serves people facing homelessness, mental health challenges, and reentry barriers; living proof that we are not defined by our worst act but by what we do next. His message is simple and radical: every person is meant to be loved, and we always have a choice.

00:00 — Homeboy & Purpose: What reentry looks like when it’s love-based08:41 — From El Salvador to LA: Childhood rupture, abuse, and the pull of gangs17:22 — Escalation: Guns, “power,” a murder at 16, arrest, and a life sentence26:03 — Prison Rules: Race politics, riots, fear—and the cost of belonging34:44 — The Turning Point: Seeing the victim’s family and choosing another path43:25 — Programs, Accountability, and Self-Love: Becoming free before release52:06 — Reentry in Action: Campaign work, therapy, school, and Homeboy1:00:47 — Closing: Your trauma is yours—and you’re meant to be loved