In this episode I'm sharing something raw and unfiltered — what's actually been happening for me lately. The rage, the flatness, the thoughts of wanting out, and what I do with that.

I talk about why healing isn't linear, what suicidal ideation actually is (and why it's different from wanting to end your life), and what it looks like to sit with unbearable feeling rather than run from it. I'm not on the other side of this yet. I'm speaking from inside it.

If you've ever had those thoughts and felt scared by them, or alone in them this one might be for you.

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Do you ever try to be with your feelings and find... nothing? Just blankness, or a spaced-out feeling, or a kind of not-quite-thereness? In this episode I want to talk about something that doesn't get said enough: that nothing is not nothing. The blankness, the dissociation, the feeling of absence, it's a gateway, not a dead end. And when we learn to be with it rather than push past it, something surprising often waits there.

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This meditation is for you if when you try to be with your feelings and what you notice is dissociation, blankness, a spaced-out feeling, daydreaming, numbness, heaviness, or tiredness — but you can't quite get to your feelings. This is for you.

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This podcast is for educational and informational purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical or mental health advice, diagnosis, or treatment. If you are struggling, please reach out to a qualified practitioner or relevant support service.

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