I really, really struggle with self sabotage in every aspect of my life. From relationships, to not following through on things, to recreating trauma. It is an endless battle. I am working to better myself by being introspective and examining why I constantly sabotage myself and what I can do to work on it.

Key Takeaways:

[1:35] Self sabotage and regret in my life

[4:09] Physical and emotional stress can make us stronger

[6:02] Self sabotaging in an effort to protect myself

[9:48] Sabotaging myself to create familiarity and safety

[11:05] Drinking to fit in

[13:36] Not having a good diet, but exercising

[14:53] Teaching even though coaching lite me up

[17:17] Having this idea off what I’m supposed to be

[18:09] Sabotaging relationships, finding safety in people, and escaping

[20:36] Not following through on things

[23:13] Hanging on to past relationships

[25:47] Reasons for sabotage

[27:38] I hate being wrongly accused

[29:24] Being in a state of denial and working to better myself

[30:41] Recreating trauma and the battle of the brain

[31:59] Contemplating why I live my life the way I do

[35:37] Thinking about what needs to change in my life

[38:23] Checking up on past relationships

[42:11] Trying to better myself and my business

[44:50] Staying in Concord even though I complain about it

[47:21] The struggle with social media

Resources:

• The Mountain is You

• The Body Keeps the Score

• POWER Book

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Evelyn and Steven have been through the ringer after two of their siblings died as a product of addiction. They still contemplate how things could have been different and if they would have followed the same path Leslie was on. But through their grief, they tell a raw story riddled with dark humor

Key Takeaways:

[2:37] Getting close to Leslie after I got pregnant at 16

[6:18] My relationship with Leslie was weird, especially with the huge age gap

[7:16] The funeral and thinking maybe we could’ve prevented her death

[10:44] Leslie was a good student and then it all suddenly took a turn her senior year

[15:47] Screaming after finding out Leslie was dead

[18:32] Having to tell people she was dead and they wouldn’t leave us alone

[21:13] Finding out Sam was dead impacted us so much more

[22:45] How Sam died from alcohol and mom having a seizure

[25:32] Being sexually abused by Leslie’s friends and not being believed

[29:50] Hypervigilance is safety and the moment we found out Sam died

[38:14] Having familial support and checking in truly made a difference

[40:19] Finding laughter in dark moments

[44:02] The difference between Leslie and Sam’s personalities

[45:38] Seeing signs of Leslie and Sam throughout the universe

[48:53] The angst over their burial plots

[51:32] I’m never going to get closure, but I have to keep pushing through life

[54:28] Tomorrow is not promised so live your life authentically

[56:54] The things our siblings will never get to do

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Danielle cared for Lexi for 7 years as she battled a brain tumor they knew she would die from. Balancing taking care of someone she loves with also grieving them and having her life spent going from appointment to appointment was a lot - and that’s an understatement. She is now learning what to do in the “after” as in after a person dies.

Key Takeaways:

[2:41] Knowing something was wrong with Lexi and finding cancer

[8:01] Finding out she would die and we didn’t know when

[12:12] Spending so much time in the reality of death and not knowing what to do after

[15:03] Lexi’s mom is living a new life

[18:03] Starting a blog for Lexi to keep everyone updated on her condition

[23:10] Wanting people to remember those who have died

[28:21] How Lexi’s family managed to navigate this journey together

[31:05] Struggling in the early days of grief

[36:08] Grieving something you never had and going to a medium

[41:03] Let chronically ill people be their own person

[42:04] Let people help you in life

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