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Living out Loud

By: Christina Lee, Nyrae Dawn
Narrated by: Wyatt Kelley, Max T. Mitchell
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Ben Emerson has lived by his minister father's rules most of his life. Born into an ultraconservative church community, he's finally brave enough to break free and move to San Francisco. Distancing himself certainly helps create a new mind-set, but living as an openly gay man takes some getting used to. When he reaches out to Xavier, a childhood friend who lives in the city, Ben isn't sure how he'll respond given their thorny history. Ben hopes the familiar connection will help him right some wrongs as well as provide the solace he's been craving.

Xavier Ramos is who he is, and he doesn't give a damn what anyone thinks. Whether it's eyeliner, nail polish, tattoos, or his love of hooking up, he uses his body as a form of self-expression but doesn't let anyone get too close. When Ben reenters his life, Xavier helps him experience the city and feel comfortable in his own skin. Seeing the world through Ben's eyes, he begins to wonder if he's also not living as freely as he thought.

When Xavier challenges Ben's beliefs about sex, it becomes explosive - for both of them. Xavier breaks apart Ben's sheltered world and shows him what it's like to live out loud. The more time they spend together, the more Xavier begins to long for Ben in a different way - one that both surprises and scares him. But real life doesn't fade into the background, so when Ben's past comes knocking, old habits are hard to break. Testing the foundation of their deepening connection will take a trust that will either bind them...or tear them apart.

Riley Hart writing as Nyrae Dawn

©2017 Christina Lee and Nyrae Dawn (P)2018 Audible, Inc.
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Breaking free from that old time religion!

Ben comes from a very conservative Christian family and has had a hard time accepting his sexuality. He has run from Xavier, his first childhood crush, and from Ezra, his first serious boyfriend. When Ben reconnects with Xavier years later, it’s a chance for both of them to find and be themselves. I enjoyed the fact that this was richly character-driven, we sit inside Ben and Xavier’s heads as each grapples with the legacy of their parents’ values and rejection - Ben hesitant, naive, nascent; Xavier brash, assured, avoiding emotional attachment. When Ben visits his home town, I could feel his suffocation returning. A supremely satisfying hurt / comfort story with excellent narrators!

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