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Publisher's Summary

Amanda Hardy is the new girl at school. Like everyone else, all she wants is to make friends and fit in. But Amanda is holding back. Even from Grant, the guy she's falling in love with.

Amanda has a secret. At her old school, she used to be called Andrew. And secrets always have a way of getting out....

©2016 Alloy Entertainment (P)2016 Macmillan Audio

Critic Reviews

"Important and brave. Read this wonderful book, just read it." (Jennifer Niven, author of All the Bright Places)
"Real and raw and layered and wonderful." (Alex Gino, author of George)

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Loved It!

This book has been on my TBR for such a long time, I thought that it was about time that I read it (or listened to it in this case).
I haven't had a lot of experience with the LGBT community when it comes to literature, and I was very looking forward to adding another book to my growing list.
In this book we follow Amanda. Who was born Andrew. She knew from a young age that she was Amanda and eventually her parents - mainly her mum - knew she was too.
This book goes through the struggles of a teenage girl who has a secret, and has gone through such turmoil in her life that she doesn't want to let herself trust anyone. Amanda moves to a new town to live with her dad after immense bullying due to who she is and determined to not let the truth out and to keep to herself, she finds herself with a group of friends and even a boyfriend and life is looking up.
Until one day, her secret is out. Will the boy she loves still want her now that he knows who she is?
I absolutely adored this book from start to finish! I really felt for Amanda the whole way through, she was punished by bullies for being who she was and no one accepted her. I was worried for her the whole time she was in her new school with her new life, worried that someone or something was going to ruin it for her. This book just put me through so many emotions, some of the time I couldn't keep up. 
The only thing I would like to know is how it turns out between Amanda and Grant..does he accept her after all or do they go their separate ways? The book ended before this and I would love to know. I would hope that he did accept her for who she is and they lived happily ever after..but I guess I will never know!

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  • Anonymous User
  • 01-11-2018

Beautiful

Both the story and the reading hit me in the heart so many times. You can feel the emotion in the readers voice like she's actively living it and the story… just fits. Evem the author's note made me feel like crying.

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  • Jessie Jones
  • 03-06-2017

Amazing and relatable.

I loved this book. I am very much similar in the story of Andrew but my name is Jessica not Amanda. I got emotional at points and the author really wrote a great book and I'll be getting it physically too now xx

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  • Taylor, the misfit angel
  • 01-01-2017

Phenomenally flawless

It's hard to try and muster up the words to describe this book. Okay, it isn't realistic in Tiley, as the endnotes says, and in my opinion,the note at the end is just as important as the book itself, but the story… it's a romance, it's A self discovery novel of self acceptance, it is in my opinion, a future gem for LGBT readers. Please if you are considering listen to this, Go ahead. If the romance aspect puts you off, don't worry, I hate romances. I despise them with a passion, and that is no exaggeration. But this, this is the romance that even I ruted for, and when you crack me, the hardest of the lot when it comes to romance, you know you've done a good job. And, just when I was getting bored of the romance aspect, the author seemed to know and brought the focus away from Grant for a bit. It was creepy, like she had read my mind. Guys, I am gender queer, and take this from me, it does not disappoint. It was everything I wanted and more. Thank you Meredith. And Side note, I think the authors note at the end is actually read bye Russo herself, so for that reason and the content with it's reassuring message and advice and knowledge, please, please listen.

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  • Heather
  • 25-02-2021

Excellent story but needs a content warning

The story starts off discussion with discussion of suicide, it's all well done but if you have a history it can be a shock.

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  • poppy
  • 15-04-2017

Phenomenal

I adored this book it's so important so powerful just beautiful please please please read this or listen to it

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  • M3ggie
  • 17-11-2016

A very important book

I absolutely adored this book! I loved how well the author wrote about gender identity and sexuality in such a way that I could have a connection to the characters although I was not going through the same things as them. I think that this a very important book to read, or listen to, especially young people such as myself. I felt like I learned so much from this book yet in such a way that wasn't boring or preachy, just a well written story in the voice of a trans character. If this book was read and enjoyed by more people then I feel like that could really help with the way we view trans people or anyone who is different to ourselves. Also, I love that audible included the message from the author at the end as it was a very nice touch and helpful to anyone who has enjoyed this book or is going through the same struggles as the characters in this story. To conclude, I utterly adored this story and its characters but I would live to know what happens next with Amanda and Grant! Sequel please! - Megan age 14

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  • Mary
  • 12-03-2022

Brilliant and eye opening book

I was gripped by Amanda's story from beginning to end. It was heart rending at times reading of her journey to be the person she'd always felt she was inside, and it provoked feelings of anger towards those who judged her so harshly. As a Christian I found the church part of the story interesting and I liked Anna.

I didn't realise the author was trans until the end of the book. Thank you for writing it. I hope it makes people think and understand better how hard it must be to embark on a journey to transition to the gender a person feels they have always been.

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  • Kelly
  • 07-02-2022

An eye opening story!

I thoroughly enjoyed this book! It was so interesting to learn about Amandas life from her perspective, and the struggles that transgender people go through. I found her story eye opening and heart warming, and really fell in love with the characters.

I really warmed to the narrator too, who I think did a wonderful job at portraying the characters.

4* Would definitely recommend!

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  • Liam_H
  • 16-10-2021

Beautiful book

This should be required reading for young people,. Trans or Cis. Well written and brilliantly read.

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  • Miriam Jones
  • 24-07-2021

Interesting but repetitive

I really like the different take on the love angle and hearing and experiencing it from this point of view. However, it is like all the over love romance stories you read.

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  • Amazon Customer
  • 10-02-2021

I loved it

At first the accent used by Ms Mounts was a surprise but it makes the story more real since it matches the area of USA where the story is set. Her performance is fantastic and she portrays all the characters very well. 5 stars for her performance.

The story is lovely, sweet and although as the author admits it's a little easier for Amanda than many Trans people experience, this doesn't take away anything from the story IMO. I really encourage everyone to listen to this story whether they be Trans, CIS, gay, straight, bi, pan or however they self identify.

The story is one of hope, love, personal growth and acceptance for multiple characters, not just Amanda.

Finally I absolutely loved the message from the author at the end. She obviously speaks from experience and she does an excellent job of trying to reach out to those who are feeling desperate, suicidal and worthless and her appeal is so moving I was brought to tears.

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