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  • If He Had Been with Me

  • By: Laura Nowlin
  • Narrated by: Gina Rogers
  • Length: 8 hrs and 37 mins
  • 4.0 out of 5 stars (269 ratings)

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If He Had Been with Me

By: Laura Nowlin
Narrated by: Gina Rogers
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Publisher's Summary

An achingly authentic and raw portrait of love, regret, and the life-altering impact of the relationships we hold closest to us, this YA best seller is perfect for fans of Kasie West, All the Bright Places, and Dear Evan Hansen.

If he had been with me, everything would have been different....

Autumn and Finn used to be inseparable. But then something changed. Or they changed. Now, they do their best to ignore each other. 

Autumn has her boyfriend, Jamie, and her close-knit group of friends. And Finn has become that boy at school, the one everyone wants to be around. 

That still doesn't stop the way Autumn feels every time she and Finn cross paths, and the growing, nagging thought that maybe things could have been different. Maybe they should be together.

But come August, things will change forever. And as time passes, Autumn will be forced to confront how else life might have been different if they had never parted ways....

©2013, 2019 Laura Nowlin (P)2020 Tantor

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Ending rushed

I felt like the book was drawn out with unnecessary detail at times. Then the ending was rushed which is a shame

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Duality of happiness in sadness- great listen!

Initially i didnt think i’d like it but i actually loved the way its written, as youre listening out of nowhere you suddenly realise just how invested you are in these characters… i found myself wanting to listen at every spare moment, even if it is predictable in parts….as it turns out the beginning doesn’t ruin the ending.. the only downside is now i feel i am grieving because the book is over…

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Unexpectedly great

The title gives away story but was well written and i really enjoyed it ! Lots of emotions

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Ouch

i am in extreme pain from this, read at the your own risk. ouch. pain

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Beautiful

Such a good sad book. Had me emotionally unstable at times. I can’t wait for the next book because I def feel like we need the next part but still an amazing book. I GASPED at the end.

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breath takingly numb

I found myself so captivated, and longing to continue to listen. It was one of those books I just couldn't put down. I was so invested in the story. the ending left me in tears and broken. I felt numb and lost. I'll think about this book for a very long time. 10/10 loved it ❤️

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Loved !!

Absolutely loved it ! Definitely needed tissues for this one but would 100% recommend, read in 1 day really easy read LOVED !!

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schizophrenia is no joke !!

the delusions must be the worst thing about having that horrendous heart-wrenching llness. poor girl!

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Edge of my seat!

This book hits right where it needs to.
The entire book has you feeling/knowing whats going to happen - but doesn’t hit you with it until right at the end. My heart broke several times throughout listening to this book. The writing style and the audio performances were perfectly matched. Id recommend this book to anyone! My only critique would be the abrupt ending, but i feel thats what the author was going for - just another layer of the characters’ “story” ending abruptly.

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I cried like a baby but I loved it. Her 'novel' she was working on was pretty trash though. All her time working on it - I didn't expect it to be so amateurish.

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