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Losing a young daughter to murder is the worst nightmare that a mother could possibly imagine, but what if the killer was her son? Charity Lee was thrust into this unimaginable situation when her 13-year-old son, Paris, murdered her beloved four-year-old daughter, Ella. 

Charity goes through intense grief at the loss of her daughter, while at the same time trying to understand why her son would have done something as horrific as this, and how she could have missed the signs that Paris was a true psychopath.

While barely holding herself together throughout her intense grief, Charity is still a mother and feels a need to advocate for her son to receive appropriate treatment while incarcerated, while at the same time trying to ensure he stays in prison so he can never hurt someone again. Charity still loves her son and craves a connection with him despite all he has done. Because of her experiences, she rebuilds her life and starts a non-profit to help other families of victims, as well as offenders.

This book is a meditation on grief, loss, and forgiveness unlike any other. It's also an inspirational story of a true survivor. Well-written and haunting How Now, Butterfly? is a book that no listener will soon forget.

©2020 Charity Lee (P)2020 WildBlue Press

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  • Starla M.
  • 08-04-2021

Charity Lee is the Real Deal

I hadn’t heard about this case before, but I saw Charity being interviewed on YouTube and I decided to give this book a chance. It’s a hard book to listen to in that it speaks in gut wrenching, heartbreakingly raw details about the cold, cruel murder of a four year old child. Charity is, unfortunately the mother of the victim as well as the mother of the killer, which makes things even more horrific for her. Based on her journals this book gives a realistic look at one woman’s struggles to take something unimaginably horrible and make it somehow meaningful. I’m glad I read it.

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  • SMD
  • 06-09-2020

Flawed

Repetitive, lacking insight, superficial. Understandable that author would want to keep certain information private but missed opportunity to offer insight into complex issues and awful tragedy.
Narration dreadful.

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