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  • Down the Rabbit Hole

  • Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny
  • By: Holly Madison
  • Narrated by: Holly Madison
  • Length: 10 hrs and 51 mins
  • 4.5 out of 5 stars (596 ratings)

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Down the Rabbit Hole

By: Holly Madison
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The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion - and finally the secret truth about the man who holds the key - from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef's former number-one girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door.

A spontaneous decision at age 21 transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner's number-one girlfriend. But like Alice's journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairy tale life inside the Playboy Mansion - including A-list celebrity parties and her own number-one-rated television show for four years - quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious mansion wasn't a dream at all - and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub, contemplating suicide.

But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.

In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.

With great courage Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams - and finding the life we deserve.

©2015 Holly Madison (P)2015 HarperCollins Publishers

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  • 21-08-2015

Most entertaining Bunny

I didn't know what to expect when starting this book, after all I didn't believe I could relate to this woman. However, I found it insightful, honest, entertaining and touching.

Holly knows who she is and she doesn't shy away from calling out the behaviors of others. She has a lot to brag about but stays humble. Her story surprised me in many ways, and gave interesting insights. I'm impressed.

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enjoyable listen

was a good listen into the life of Holly i thoroughly enjoyed it. Very interesting to get her recount on playboy life and what it was like living with Hugh.

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Loved it!

I loved this book so much! i could not stop listening to every juicy detail.

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Great read

Interesting story about Holly's life from college to motherhood. Great narration. A fun, interesting, light read.

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Fun

Fun, easy book about her time at the playboy mansion. Paints Hef in a bad light.

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Surprising insight

I have wanted to read this for sometime and I am so glad I listened to this.

Holly made it easy to listen to.

Listening to this story gave me an insight into her mind. I had flash backs to the show and can see her blank stare and knew there was truth in her words.

She needed to write this to heal. I really hope she went deep into her heart and soul and healed those parts of herself..

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very enjoyable

loved it! so well written and the story was extremely interesting. definitely recommend giving it a go

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very entertaining

I picked this book, because I watched her on television as a teen and always liked her, she didn't seem as dumb and money hungry as the other blondes. Always wondered why and how she was willing to put up with living in this weird Mansion with the ancient, uncharismatic Hefner and heaps of other women!

Absolutely cracked me up how she mimics Hefner's voice.

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One of my all-time-favourite memoirs!!

I love this book a lot. Rereading it as I am listening along with the “Girls Next Level” podcast with Holly Madison & Bridget Marquardt.

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Could not stop listening

I was a huge fan of Holly during the GND era and hearing this account provides a fascinating 'behind the scenes' look at something we were made to believe was glam and enviable. Holly is engaging as a story teller.

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