Five years ago, Benji Green lost his beloved father Big Eddie when his truck crashed into a river. Everyone called it an accident, but Benji knows it was more. Even years later, he's buried in his grief, throwing himself into managing Big Eddie's convenience store in the small-town of Roseland, Oregon. Surrounded by his mother and three aunts, he lives day to day, struggling to keep his head above water.
But Roseland is no ordinary place.
With ever more frequent dreams of his father's death and waking visions of feathers on the river's surface, Benji finds his definition of reality bending. He thinks himself haunted; by ghosts or memories, he can no longer tell. Not until a man falls from the sky, leaving the burning imprint of wings on the ground, does Benji begin to understand that the world is more mysterious than he ever imagined - and more dangerous. As uncontrollable forces descend on Roseland, they reveal long-hidden truths about friends, family, and the stranger Calliel - a man Benji can no longer live without.
©2013 TJ Klune (P)2014 Dreamspinner Press
"Well written, heartbreakingly earnest narration!"
I don't often write book reviews.
I was really hesitant about buying this book as it had no reviews and only a 2 star rating.
Take a chance on this book!
I have a very low tolerance for awkward, amateurish, or self indulgent writing. I couldn't find a single hitch in this imaginative, well realized, and expertly executed story.
Where "In This River I Drown" really shines, though, is the narration. It took only about a minute for the narrater to wrap the story around my heart and squeeze. His voice, off-puttingly childish only for a moment, somehow immersed me in the bittersweet joy of memories, the warmth of families, friends, and loves. I felt like my heart was crushed a few times through the story, felt so much relief I gasped in others, and in some points felt more rage than I've felt toward any story villains I can remember.
This story, and this voice will become a part of you experience, and these characters will become a part of your psyche, and your heart.
Kal, without a doubt. His bright love for the world and such seemingly small things was so endearing, and paradoxically he was terrifying in his strength. Beautiful! Nina is a close second, though she seemed a bit like a Stephen King style gimmick (one I've always been fond of, though).
Oh my gosh! So many things I could say. I have no idea how he did it, but the earnestness in his voice somehow melted me from the start. The rawness with which he recounts joyful memories just wrenches your heart right in two!
Both, but more cry. It's not a sad book. Rather the opposite. It's a book full of such joy and warmth and tenderness that it makes you ache.
"Probably the best book in my library."
I could go on for days about this book. Really, I was hesitant to start with. I loved "Bear, Otter and the Kid", but was completely on the fence about the follow up - it lacked something; to flippant I think. So when this book landed, I had my doubts.
Boy, was I wrong. It's simply wonderful! It's sad and funny, hopeful and sometimes dark, real and imagined all in equal measure and quality. It's hard to image that a book about a boy and guardian angel could be anything but trite, but TL Klune has an expert touch that keeps you engaged all the while.
I cried and laughed, and it the end, love love love this book. There's a movie of this book in my head and I think it would be awesome.
And I found it - the easter egg from "Bear, Otter and the Kid". It made me smile.
"Very well described in the title!"
I loved T.J. Klunes other book so when this became availiable on audio, I wanted to listen to it - but the title surprised me a little, since it did not sound like a lovestory. And it isnt - but it is.
It is mostly a story about love for a lost father and the depression, sorrow and confusion that comepletly takes over the mind and body of a very young man. It is also about regaining faith in life and in God and the coporal angles aside, it is enough to make you wonder about your own faith.
Surprisingly it is also a suspense novel.
All in all, the lovestory between the MC and his angel is the background tread.
It is very well written, as T.Js other books. Written as it is in first person narrative, you follow the MCs mental jumps through time and place, and it can be a little difficult to remember were you started.
The narration of this book must be one of the most difficult I have encountered and the narrator is amazing! I think it would have been an impossible listen if he hadnt been this good.
At first I was a little irritated of the way it sometimes sound like he is narrating from the bottom of a bottle, but accualty begun to appriciate it as this made me able to follow the storyline better, since it is only done when the MC shifts mental pathways and it helps you to know when the flashback is over.
The story kind of stays with you in the way stories does when it moves you or makes you think.
All in all, it is worth a credit - but you should not expect a light listen!
One of the best...
Convoluted and complex plot that explains enough to be satisfying but not so much that you are left with nothing to wonder about. Could probably have done with a less heavy-hand in some places, but it blended well overall and the narrator is able to smooth over what I think reading would have been more jarring. I was definitely not expecting this and I am really glad I took the chance with this book.
"Calile? Yes please!"
Loved it. A totally unique story with steamy love and thrilling intrigue and tense, life threatening antics. Klune's love of daddies and bears continues in these stories, a minority genre that is represented well.
This book was heartbreakingly beautiful. TJ Klune is an author that I recommend to all of my friends. I am currently making my way through his entire library. He has a habit of installing humor into his books, while still making his characters believably real. This was on the more serious side than his books usually are, but look at the subject material.
This isn't a book, or a performance. This is a mood. The tone is set with the cover and is carried forth when we meet Benji, who is so filled with hurt an loss. It bleeds out and into you, so be prepared for lots of tear shed.
It's dark, mysterious, deceitful and sorrowful. It's strength, courage, hope and faith. It's so very TJ, and so very beautiful.
I adore Kal, as everyone who gets to meet him does. He's goofy with a wondrous curiosity of a child with an intensity and depth of someone timeless. Did I mention he's a ginger? *waggles brows* I really need my own Kal, maybe if I pray hard enough??
The narrator was absolutely perfect. Perfect for Benji, perfect for Kal, perfect on setting the mood of the story. I think this one is going to stick with me for. long, long time.
This story was not what I expected it was all types of feels of my heart
"Not the best of TJ Klune, but a powerful story"
Not the best of TJ Klune, but a powerful story none the less. There were some parts that were hard to get through for some reason and others that captured my rapt attention for hours. Matt Baca was definitely a great choice for a narrator though.
"No words "
Beautifully narratied. Beautifully written. Just beautiful.
His anger at God is so relatable to everyone. And the ending his love is also relatable.
"Interesting, But Flawed"
Long and meandering story revolving primarily around Benji Green, who several years after the death of his father (was it an accident or something more sinister!) feels so alone and depressed that he prays for help because he feels that he is struggling and can't continue. His prayers are answered when Cal, who is not perfect, but is by far and away the most likeable character in the book, literally drops from the skies, and a love story begins! I wish that the story had been centred around him as I probably would have liked the book more, though there are (as is usual with this author) several interesting characters, some I loved and others I loathed!
For me, Benji himself is not always the most likeable character and I kept wishing he would 'grow a pair' as I found him to be selfish and spineless! There is a lot of unnecessary repetition concerning Benji's dream about his father. Initially, I found his dreams added to the story, but by three quarters of the way through the book this really began to irritate me and I struggled to stay with the story, though I have to say that I'm pleased I did for the ending!
Usually I'm a big fan of TJ Klune, having read or listened to several of his wonderful books, but I have to say that had this been the first one I'm not sure I would have listened or read to any of his other books, as in my opinion this one falls short!
What kept me sticking with this story was the excellent narration, as in the hands of a less accomplished narrator I would have given up!
If you haven't listened to any of TJ Klune's books previously then I suggest you start with 'Tell Me It's Real' or 'Bear, Otter and The Kid', but avoid this one!
beautifully written story that covers grief loss and betrayal, I cried many tears, this story made me want to be a better person
"Be prepared for highly emotional journey throughou"
For the first time in a long time, I felt so emotionally overwhelmed. Benjamin's story was truly captivating, emotional and very thought provoking. It was everything all at once. Life, choice, grief, pain, horror, death,anger, loss, shock, denial choice. Love. Betrayal. Miracle. Sacrifice. Everything.
“My name is Benjamin Edward Green, after my father, our first and middle names transposed. People call me Benji. Big Eddie wanted me to carry his name, but felt I should have my own identity, hence the switch. I don’t mind, knowing it will always bind us together. It’s a gift, and because of him, I’ve been able to find my life again. I’ve been able to find meaning in all the colors of the world. Because of him, I’ve found my home. This is at once the end and the beginning. This is the story of my love of two men. One is my father. The other is a man who fell from the sky.”
The narrator, Matt Baca , did a truly superb job, nails every voice astonishingly. The differentiation of each of characters were maintained all the way through. It looked like he told the story of his life. I felt the emotions with every fiber of my being. He is the best fit for it. Bravo!
Well, this is exactly what I want every romance to be like. It is a brilliant example how a poem about the bond between a parent and child could be a real beauty. This is one of the best books I've ever read . It was my third book by this author and he's been becoming my favorite.
I am so glad I read this remarkable book! It's been a tremendous pleasure! Yes, it was a very heavy read with several moments stopping your breath but it is a powerful piece of LGBT fiction that need to be placed on the most visible spot on your bookshelf.
Thank you Mr. Klune for this absolutely captivating book!
this book was simply AMAZING. amazing story. great narration. I really stuck at reviews, all I have to say is you'll most likely enjoy this if you like a good story! I might even get the print version to read it along with my next listen!
"like swimming through treacle"
this is a none story. it is slow and boring. the flashbacks are tedious and repetitive.
not into spoilers but we know from the start that the father is dead, so the flashback to his mother breaking the news was like pulling teeth. she took 10 minutes to get out of the car.. there was no build up to suspense at any point. no tear jerking or anything. this book would benefit by having about 6 hrs chopped out. i fell asleep around chapter 20. so decided to send it back for a refund..
the one good point was the narrater who tried his best to make something of a rubbish story.
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