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By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead
- Narrated by: Kathryn Merry
- Length: 6 hrs and 5 mins
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Narrator Kathryn Merry gives Daelyn Rice a voice almost deadened with pain after a lifetime of bullying, but also lets her intelligence and vulnerability shine through. Daelyn has tried to kill herself before, and although her parents try to protect her, she finds a Website that will give her advice on suicide and a chance to talk about why she wants to die. The only thing getting in the way is a boy at her school who keeps trying to speak to her even though she rejects him at every turn. Merry's performance is mesmerizing and listeners will find themselves caring and fearing for Daelyn, hoping that she will somehow find a way to come back from the brink.
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After a lifetime of being bullied, Daelyn is broken beyond repair. She has tried to kill herself before, and is determined to get it right this time. Though her parents think they can protect her, she finds a Web site for "completers" that seems made just for her. She blogs on its forums, purging her harrowing history. At her private Catholic school, the only person who interacts with her is a boy named Santana. No matter how poorly she treats him, he just won’t leave her alone. And it's too late for Daelyn to be letting people into her life...isn’t it?
In this harrowing, compelling novel, Julie Anne Peters shines a light on what might make a teenager want to kill herself, as well as how she might start to bring herself back from the edge. A discussion guide and resource list prepared by "bullycide" expert C. J. Bott are included in the back matter.