Try free for 30 days
-
Blood Orange Night
- My Journey to the Edge of Madness
- Narrated by: Melissa Bond
- Length: 9 hrs and 19 mins
Failed to add items
Add to basket failed.
Add to Wish List failed.
Remove from Wish List failed.
Follow podcast failed
Unfollow podcast failed
Buy Now for $26.99
No valid payment method on file.
We are sorry. We are not allowed to sell this product with the selected payment method
Listeners also picked
-
Safe, Wanted, and Loved
- A Family Memoir of Mental Illness, Heartbreak, and Hope
- By: Patrick Dylan
- Narrated by: Raúl E. Esparza
- Length: 8 hrs and 5 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
“Pat, we need to kill the dog.” When a sudden mental illness struck his wife, Patrick Dylan found himself living with an eerie stranger. Scared and unprepared, he began a desperate battle to protect her from a mysterious disease, shelter their children from her bizarre behavior, and recover the woman he loved. Within weeks, she had been admitted to the emergency room, the hospital, and the local crisis facility, but none of the experts could provide an answer. As her illness eluded diagnosis, the family’s struggle was only beginning.
-
High Achiever
- The Incredible True Story of One Addict's Double Life
- By: Tiffany Jenkins
- Narrated by: Tiffany Jenkins
- Length: 8 hrs and 53 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
With heart-racing urgency and unflinching honesty, Jenkins takes you inside the grips of addiction and the desperate decisions it breeds. She is a born storyteller who lived an incredible story, from blackmail by an ex-boyfriend to a soul-shattering deal with a drug dealer, and her telling brims with suspense and unexpected wit. But the true surprise is her path to recovery. Tiffany breaks through the stigma and silence to offer hope and inspiration to anyone battling the disease - whether it’s a loved one or themselves.
-
-
love this
- By Anonymous User on 21-08-2019
-
Under the Influence
- By: Noelle Crooks
- Narrated by: Midori Francis, Noelle Crooks
- Length: 10 hrs and 2 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
After a series of go-nowhere jobs in the New York publishing world, Harper Cruz is broke, lonely, and desperate for a salary that won’t leave her scrambling to make rent each month. So when she stumbles across a job posting from an influencer offering triple her last paycheck, she automatically submits her résumé. Harper may not be familiar with self-help guru Charlotte Green, but her relentless optimism and charismatic can-do spirit has created a cult-like following of women across the country. When she selects Harper in less than twenty-four hours, it’s obvious she sees something she likes.
-
In Sickness
- A Memoir
- By: Barrett Rollins
- Narrated by: Barrett Rollins
- Length: 7 hrs and 25 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
When Jane, a world-famous Harvard oncologist, suddenly collapses at work, the medical team resuscitating her makes a shocking discovery: she has advanced breast cancer that she’s been hiding for years. The results are catastrophic. In Sickness shows how even the most rational people can be nearly destroyed by their irrational fears. Tragic, moving, and wryly funny at times, this is an unflinching portrayal of a complicated marriage and its secrets.
-
Girl Walks Out of a Bar
- A Memoir
- By: Lisa F. Smith
- Narrated by: Hillary Huber
- Length: 8 hrs and 47 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Lisa Smith was a bright young lawyer at a prestigious law firm in New York City when alcoholism and drug addiction took over her life. What was once a way she escaped her insecurity and negativity as a teenager became a means of coping with the anxiety and stress of an impossible workload. Girl Walks Out of a Bar explores Smith's formative years, her decade of alcohol and drug abuse, divorce, and her road to recovery.
-
-
Excellent
- By Anonymous User on 31-10-2018
-
On the Ledge
- By: Amy Turner
- Narrated by: Amy Turner
- Length: 7 hrs and 32 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
In 1957, when Amy Turner was four-years-old, her father had to be talked down from a hotel ledge by a priest. The story of his attempted suicide received nationwide press coverage, and he spent months in a psychiatric facility before returning home. From then on, Amy constantly worried about him for reasons she didn't yet fully understand, triggering a pattern of hypervigilance that would plague her into adulthood.
-
Safe, Wanted, and Loved
- A Family Memoir of Mental Illness, Heartbreak, and Hope
- By: Patrick Dylan
- Narrated by: Raúl E. Esparza
- Length: 8 hrs and 5 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
“Pat, we need to kill the dog.” When a sudden mental illness struck his wife, Patrick Dylan found himself living with an eerie stranger. Scared and unprepared, he began a desperate battle to protect her from a mysterious disease, shelter their children from her bizarre behavior, and recover the woman he loved. Within weeks, she had been admitted to the emergency room, the hospital, and the local crisis facility, but none of the experts could provide an answer. As her illness eluded diagnosis, the family’s struggle was only beginning.
-
High Achiever
- The Incredible True Story of One Addict's Double Life
- By: Tiffany Jenkins
- Narrated by: Tiffany Jenkins
- Length: 8 hrs and 53 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
With heart-racing urgency and unflinching honesty, Jenkins takes you inside the grips of addiction and the desperate decisions it breeds. She is a born storyteller who lived an incredible story, from blackmail by an ex-boyfriend to a soul-shattering deal with a drug dealer, and her telling brims with suspense and unexpected wit. But the true surprise is her path to recovery. Tiffany breaks through the stigma and silence to offer hope and inspiration to anyone battling the disease - whether it’s a loved one or themselves.
-
-
love this
- By Anonymous User on 21-08-2019
-
Under the Influence
- By: Noelle Crooks
- Narrated by: Midori Francis, Noelle Crooks
- Length: 10 hrs and 2 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
After a series of go-nowhere jobs in the New York publishing world, Harper Cruz is broke, lonely, and desperate for a salary that won’t leave her scrambling to make rent each month. So when she stumbles across a job posting from an influencer offering triple her last paycheck, she automatically submits her résumé. Harper may not be familiar with self-help guru Charlotte Green, but her relentless optimism and charismatic can-do spirit has created a cult-like following of women across the country. When she selects Harper in less than twenty-four hours, it’s obvious she sees something she likes.
-
In Sickness
- A Memoir
- By: Barrett Rollins
- Narrated by: Barrett Rollins
- Length: 7 hrs and 25 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
When Jane, a world-famous Harvard oncologist, suddenly collapses at work, the medical team resuscitating her makes a shocking discovery: she has advanced breast cancer that she’s been hiding for years. The results are catastrophic. In Sickness shows how even the most rational people can be nearly destroyed by their irrational fears. Tragic, moving, and wryly funny at times, this is an unflinching portrayal of a complicated marriage and its secrets.
-
Girl Walks Out of a Bar
- A Memoir
- By: Lisa F. Smith
- Narrated by: Hillary Huber
- Length: 8 hrs and 47 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Lisa Smith was a bright young lawyer at a prestigious law firm in New York City when alcoholism and drug addiction took over her life. What was once a way she escaped her insecurity and negativity as a teenager became a means of coping with the anxiety and stress of an impossible workload. Girl Walks Out of a Bar explores Smith's formative years, her decade of alcohol and drug abuse, divorce, and her road to recovery.
-
-
Excellent
- By Anonymous User on 31-10-2018
-
On the Ledge
- By: Amy Turner
- Narrated by: Amy Turner
- Length: 7 hrs and 32 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
In 1957, when Amy Turner was four-years-old, her father had to be talked down from a hotel ledge by a priest. The story of his attempted suicide received nationwide press coverage, and he spent months in a psychiatric facility before returning home. From then on, Amy constantly worried about him for reasons she didn't yet fully understand, triggering a pattern of hypervigilance that would plague her into adulthood.
-
Behind the Facade
- A Mental Health Memoir
- By: Lauren Bartleson
- Narrated by: Lauren Bartleson
- Length: 6 hrs and 57 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
In Behind the Facade: A Mental Health Memoir, Lauren pulls back the curtain, giving a glimpse into the memories that she buried deep inside, never to see the light of day. By sharing the stories that are helping her heal, Lauren hopes to do her part in breaking the stigma around mental health and to inspire others to feel less alone in their journey.
-
On the Edge of Shattered
- A Mother's Experience of Discovering Freedom Through Sobriety
- By: Kimberly Kearns
- Narrated by: Candace Fitzgerald
- Length: 10 hrs and 16 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
The true story of a wife and mother's descent into alcohol addiction. A harrowing and sometimes heartbreaking chronicle of habitual blackouts and unremembered nights, and her triumphant emergence into the light of recovery.
-
Lush
- A Memoir
- By: Kerry Cohen
- Narrated by: Allyson Ryan
- Length: 5 hrs and 40 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
When Kerry Cohen reached her early 40s, she realized she had a drinking problem - just enough to blur the edges of her life that had become a monotony of working, carpooling the kids to school, and everyday distractions. What she also realized was that she wasn't the only one. Lush is a gripping memoir that examines Kerry's struggles with alcohol, a struggle that a rising number of middle-aged women are facing. Wonderfully poignant and relatable, Lush follows Kerry as she attempts to rediscover the awe in her life, leaving mistakes, regrets, and the bottle behind her.
-
-
as much as i love memoirs ....
- By Darren on 17-02-2024
-
Dry
- A Memoir
- By: Augusten Burroughs
- Narrated by: Augusten Burroughs
- Length: 8 hrs and 42 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
At the request (well, it wasn't really a request) of his employers, Augusten lands in rehab, where his dreams of group therapy with Robert Downey Jr. are immediately dashed by grim reality of fluorescent lighting and paper hospital slippers. When Augusten is forced to examine himself, he finds himself in the worst trouble of all. Because when his thirty days are up, he has to return to his same drunken Manhattan life - and live it sober. Dry is the story of love, loss, and Starbucks as a Higher Power
-
-
superior and moving 'i used to be drunk' story
- By Amazon Customer on 07-03-2017
-
Drunk-ish
- A Memoir of Loving and Leaving Alcohol
- By: Stefanie Wilder-Taylor
- Narrated by: Stefanie Wilder-Taylor
- Length: 7 hrs and 19 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
When Stefanie Wilder-Taylor became a mother, being able to connect with other moms over drinks or enjoy a glass of wine at the end of a stressful day felt life-affirming. From liquor cabinet concoctions in high school to tequila shots in her early stand-up comedy days to grocery store wine in young motherhood, alcohol was the seasoning that could give almost any activity more flavor. A drink instantly took the edge off and made even the most difficult adversary (be it a tough crowd in a comedy club or a judgmental PTA mom) not just bearable but fun.
-
-
Only for mothers of children
- By Tamara Cook on 19-03-2024
-
Drinking Games
- A Memoir
- By: Sarah Levy
- Narrated by: Sarah Levy
- Length: 6 hrs and 44 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
On paper, Sarah Levy’s life was on track. She was 28, living in New York City, working a great job, and socializing every weekend. But Sarah had a secret: her relationship with alcohol was becoming toxic. And only she could save herself. Drinking Games explores the role alcohol has in our formative years, and what it means to opt out of a culture completely enmeshed in drinking. It’s an examination of what our short-term choices about alcohol do to our long-term selves and how they challenge our ability to be vulnerable enough to discover what we really want in life.
-
One Hit Away: A Memoir of Recovery
- By: Jordan P. Barnes
- Narrated by: Ryan Haugen
- Length: 10 hrs and 46 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
At the age of 24, Jordan Barnes woke up next to a lifeless body, rifled through his dead friends’ pockets for any remaining heroin, and went right back to using. Strung out and homeless during the supposed best years of his life, there was no clear way out of the opioid crisis ravaging the streets of Portland, Oregon. But though Jordan had long accepted his fate, his parents still held out hope and would do everything in their power to get him the help he so desperately needed.
-
-
Rivetting
- By Amazon Customer on 04-06-2024
-
The Breakaway
- A Novel
- By: Jennifer Weiner
- Narrated by: Nikki Blonsky, Santino Fontana, Jenni Barber, and others
- Length: 13 hrs and 30 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Thirty-three-year-old Abby Stern has made it to a happy place. True, she still has gig jobs instead of a career, and the apartment where she’s lived since college still looks like she’s just moved in. But she’s got good friends, her bike, and her bicycling club in Philadelphia. She’s at peace with her plus-size body—at least, most of the time—and she’s on track to marry Mark Medoff, her childhood sweetheart, a man she met at the weight-loss camp that her perpetually dieting mother forced her to attend.
-
-
Disappointing
- By Tahlia on 07-10-2023
-
Class
- A Memoir
- By: Stephanie Land
- Narrated by: Stephanie Land
- Length: 8 hrs and 31 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
When Stephanie Land set out to write her memoir Maid, she never could have imagined what was to come. Handpicked by President Barack Obama as one of the best books of 2019, it was called “an eye-opening journey into the lives of the working poor” (People). Later it was adapted into the hit Netflix series Maid, which was viewed by 67 million households and was Netflix’s fourth most-watched show in 2021, garnering three Primetime Emmy Award nominations. Stephanie’s escape out of poverty and abuse in search of a better life inspired millions.
-
-
Brave, raw and honest.
- By Anonymous User on 06-01-2024
-
Crash
- How I Became a Reluctant Caregiver
- By: Rachel Michelberg
- Narrated by: Rachel Michelberg
- Length: 6 hrs and 28 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Crash: How I Became a Reluctant Caregiver tackles a pervasive dilemma in our culture: the moral conflicts individuals face when caregiving for a disabled or cognitively impaired family member.
-
Pet
- By: Catherine Chidgey
- Length: 10 hrs and 31 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Like every other girl in her class, twelve-year-old Justine is drawn to her glamorous, charismatic new teacher and longs to be her pet. However, when a thief begins to target the school, Justine's sense that something isn't quite right grows ever stronger. With each twist of the plot, this gripping story of deception and the corrosive power of guilt takes a yet darker turn. Young as she is, Justine must decide where her loyalties lie.
-
Diary of an Alcoholic Housewife
- By: Brenda Wilhelmson
- Narrated by: Brenda Wilhelmson
- Length: 12 hrs and 13 mins
- Unabridged
-
Overall
-
Performance
-
Story
Brenda Wilhelmson was like a lot of women in her neighborhood. She had a husband and two children. She was educated and made a good living as a writer. She had a vibrant social life with a tight circle of friends. She could party until dawn and take her children to school the next day. From the outside, she appeared to have it all together. But, in truth, alcohol was slowly taking over, turning her world on its side.
-
-
A hard listen
- By Anonymous User on 08-03-2023
Publisher's Summary
Brain on Fire meets High Achiever in this “page-turner memoir chronicling a woman’s accidental descent into prescription benzodiazepine dependence—and the life-threatening impacts of long-term use—that chills to the bone” (Nylon).
As Melissa Bond raises her infant daughter and a special-needs one-year-old son, she suffers from unbearable insomnia, sleeping an hour or less each night. She loses her job as a journalist (a casualty of the 2008 recession), and her relationship with her husband grows distant. Her doctor casually prescribes benzodiazepines—a family of drugs that includes Xanax, Valium, Klonopin, Ativan—and increases her dosage regularly.
Following her doctor’s orders, Melissa takes the pills night after night until her body begins to shut down. Only when she collapses while holding her daughter does Melissa learn that her doctor—like so many others—has over-prescribed the medication and quitting cold turkey could lead to psychosis or fatal seizures. Benzodiazepine addiction is not well studied, and few experts know how to help Melissa as she begins the months-long process of tapering off the pills without suffering debilitating, potentially deadly consequences.
Each minute thrums with the heartbeat of Melissa’s struggle—how many hours has she slept? How many weeks old are her babies? How many milligrams has she taken? Her propulsive writing crescendos to a fever pitch as she fights for her health and her ability to care for her children. “Propulsive, poetic” (Shelf Awareness), and immersive, this “vivid chronicle of suffering” (Kirkus Reviews) and redemption shines a light on the prescription benzodiazepine epidemic as it reaches a crisis point in this country.