My loneliness didn’t start in prison.

It didn’t start with drugs.

It didn’t start with alcohol.

It started when I was three years old.

In this episode, I talk about witnessing my mother being shot — and how that moment quietly programmed my nervous system to believe the world wasn’t safe.

When chaos is your normal, calm feels suspicious.

When intensity feels familiar, you mistake it for connection.

This isn’t about blame.

It’s about truth.

You can love someone and still acknowledge what shaped you.

If you grew up in chaos, there’s nothing wrong with you.

Your body did what it had to do to survive.

But survival is not the same thing as safety.

Healing is teaching your body what safety feels like for the first time

Lonely wasn’t something I felt for the first time in prison.

It was something I learned as a child.

In this episode of Unchained, I talk about growing up in chaos, my mom’s marriages, the boyfriend who did very bad things to me, and the kind of loneliness that happens when you’re a little girl carrying something too heavy to say out loud.

I talk about my dad’s suicide one year before I went to prison. The guilt. The anger. The silence.

And I talk about how trauma and grief didn’t create my self-destruction — they just gave it gasoline.

If you’ve ever felt lonely in a room full of people…

If chaos ever felt like love…

If being needed felt safer than being alone…

This one is for you.

Follow, share, and send it to someone who needs to hear that they are not broken beyond repair.

Healing is possible.

Twelve hours.

Handcuffed to a chair.

“Just tell the truth.”

In this episode of Unchained, I share what happened during the interrogation that led to my confession — and how quickly the tone changed once they got what they needed.

I talk about being booked into my local jail, seeing familiar faces on both sides of the bars, being placed on suicide watch because I couldn’t stop crying, and being transferred to another county while I sat alone praying my mom would come.

She did.

This episode is about humiliation, loneliness, and the moment everything shifted.