In this raw and personal episode, I share the unfinished parts of my journey—my health, my fear, my marriage, my recovery, and my doubt—and what it truly means to live in the messy middle while still showing up and building something meaningful. Subscribe The Dream Dividend, so you don’t miss the Next episode. →▶️ https://www.youtube.com/@TheDreamDividend/ Two and a half years ago, I had a triple bypass surgery. I've barely mentioned it on this show. This episode is different. No frameworks. No case studies. No five-step processes. Just the truth about where I actually am — the stuff I've been leaving out. In this video, i talk about the surgery and why I've drifted back to old patterns. The fear that keeps me from exercising — and where that fear comes from. What's it costing my marriage? The parts of my story I've oversimplified. And what it's really like to show up and record a podcast on the days I don't believe my own message. I've been talking to you like I'm standing on the other side of transformation. Like I figured it out and came back to show you the way. That's not quite true. I'm not your guru. I'm your fellow traveler. Same road, same fears, same questions. And I think you need to know this about the person who talks to you every week. If you're in the messy middle right now — this one's for you. What You'll Learn: _________________ - Transformation doesn’t have a finish line—most real change happens in the middle. - Health scares can create clarity, but without intention, urgency fades over time. - Fear lives in the body, not the rational mind, and often blocks the very thing that could help us heal. - Building meaningful work can quietly drain the people closest to us if we’re not careful. - Recovery and sobriety are daily practices, not achievements or closed chapters. - Teaching or leading while still struggling doesn’t make you a fraud—it makes you human. - Showing up without certainty, but with commitment, is how identity and change are built. Dream bigger - Lead better - Achieve more with Dream Manager methodology. →🖥️ https://www.thedreamdividend.com/ 02:15 – Leaving Out the Unfinished Parts of the Story 04:30 – The Reckoning: Admitting I’m Still in the Messy Middle 06:45 – Triple Bypass Surgery and the Story I Rarely Tell 09:20 – How I Drifted Back Into Old Patterns After the Wake-Up Call 12:10 – Fear of Exercise, Family History, and What My Body Remembers 15:05 – The Trap: Why the Thing That Heals Feels Like the Thing That Could Kill Me 17:40 – Teaching Transformation While Still Struggling Myself 20:30 – The Hidden Cost to My Marriage and Family 23:50 – Sobriety as a Daily, Ongoing Practice — Not a Finished Chapter 26:10 – Showing Up and Recording Even Without Belief or Certainty Watch more about " Dream Economy " ____________________________________ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2GiLy25sx-M https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tjOvvxnetUs&t=2485s https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o2Zfi1QlR3w https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=li6D0Q8EYWo https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kxro8mk1t0c https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1f0KQHA1CGA https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uhkstXA7olU&list=PLS-_7dZ7cQK1h_dm7fox9GuU5t9PePI6R #Transformation #DreamEconomy #RealLifeStory #Vulnerability #Life #HumanFirst #RecoveryJourney #MarriageAndWork #HiddenCosts #DailyPractice #ShowingUp #Fear #EvenWhenItsHard #PersonalGrowth #FearAndCourage #SameRoad #LeadershipTruth #BurnoutAwareness #WellbeingMatters #RealStories #RedefiningSuccess #LifeDesign #InnerWork #AuthenticLiving #Goals #RawAndReal #HardConversations #KeepGoing #YouAreNotAlone #NoShortcuts #Fear #TruthTelling #FaithOverCertainty #Commitment #GrowthInProgress #HumanOverHustle #HealingIsOngoing #PracticeNotPrize #PodcastVideo #BuildAndHeal #Host #DreamManagerPodcast #TheDreamDividend #KevinPatrick #NewPodcast #TheDreamDividend The Dream Dividend brings insights on the intersection of business systems, human engagement, and the transformative power of helping people achieve their dreams. Hosted by KP, Director of Professional Services & Customer Success and Certified Dream Manager, each episode educates listeners on why technical excellence alone isn’t enough—and what actually drives lasting organizational change. Join Host Kevin Patrick and catch every story of trust, leadership, and transformation. 🎙️→https://www.thedreamdividend.com/episodes Subscribe https://www.youtube.com/@TheDreamDividend/ — Where Dreams Meet Business Success.