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Grieving My Kids While They're Still Alive — Luke O'Neill

Some episodes change you. This is one of them.

Luke O'Neill is one of my closest mates ..someone I've known for over 20 years. And for the first time, he sat down and told his story publicly.

Four years ago Luke came home from work and his kids were gone. What followed was 3.5 years of family court, $180,000 in legal fees, ambiguous loss, identity collapse, and a fight to stay alive.. not for himself, but so his kids would one day know they were worth fighting for.

This episode isn't about the system that failed him. It's about the man who had everything stripped away and refused to break.

We go deep on:

• What ambiguous loss actually is ..and why it might be harder than grief
• How Luke future-paced his way through the darkest days
• What real support looks like when someone is suffering
• Why isolation can be healthy..and when it isn't
• The identity death that comes with losing your role as a father
• How love ..not anger ..became the thing that kept him going

This is the conversation men need to be having. No performance. No anger. Just the truth of what it costs to stay standing when everything is taken from you.

Part 2 is coming. There's a lot more story to tell.

If this episode hit you ..if you've been through something like this or you're in it right now ..reach out. To Luke directly at @luke_o.neill_ on Instagram. Or to me at @thetechnician — I'm always open to hearing what landed for you and what questions you want answered in Part 2.

You are not alone in this.

Trigger warning: This episode contains discussions of grief, family separation, mental health, and the emotional impact of family court on children and parents.

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This is INNERCINEMA.

Not a meditation. Not a therapy session. Not a breathing exercise with some lo-fi music underneath it.

INNERCINEMA is a full somatic experience designed to take you somewhere most personal development content is too scared to go inside. To the parts of yourself that sit underneath the achieving, the performing, and the relentless forward motion you've been calling ambition.

This episode is for the high performer who has built something real, hit real numbers, done real work on themselves and still can't shake the feeling that something is missing.

If the wins keep coming but the fullness keeps not coming ..this one is for you.

Disclaimer: This experience is intentionally intense and emotionally activating. If you're looking for a relaxing wind-down meditation this isn't it. If you're ready to crack something open press play, find somewhere quiet, close your eyes, and stay with it.

If anything comes up that feels too big to sit with alone..reach out. That's what I'm here for.

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THE TECHNICIAN PODCAST Your Dad Didn't Hurt You. Your 9-Year-Old Brain Did. | Mitch Hunter

What if the thing you've been carrying your whole life..the wound, the unworthiness, the need to prove yourself .. was never actually about what happened to you... but about the story your child brain made up about what happened?

This week I sat down with Mitch Hunter - physiotherapist turned meditation teacher, academic turned mystic, and one of the most grounded spiritual humans I've ever met.

Mitch has 30+ years of meditation practice, has trained in Buddhist monasteries and caves in India, worked in chronic pain at university level, and had a stabilised spiritual awakening in 2019 that completely redirected his life.

This conversation went places I didn't expect. We talked about what meditation actually is (and why most people are doing it wrong), how your nervous system holds onto experiences your conscious mind has forgotten, and why the most powerful healing tool on the planet isn't a technique, it's your own awareness.

Mitch shared the story of a childhood memory that surfaced during deep meditation.. his dad burning two sticks that meant the world to him as a 9-year-old ..and how seeing that moment through adult eyes dissolved decades of overachieving, people-pleasing, and proving his worth. No therapy. No framework. Just objective truth.

We also went deep on my own journey — a past life experience during holotropic breathwork that unlocked a shame pattern I'd carried my entire life, and how one moment of being truly seen cracked it wide open.

In this episode:

— Why concentration comes before meditation and why most people skip the step that matters most

— The difference between data and drama, and how your brain weaponizes meaning against you

— How Mitch went from physiotherapy clinic to Buddhist monasteries to a 5,000-year-old temple ceremony with 2 million people

— What actually happens in the body during a spiritual awakening (and why Mitch lost 10kg in 3 weeks)

— The one question that changes everything: "What literally happened?"

— Why the people most triggered by your truth are the ones who need you most

— How living your truth isn't about chasing peak experiences

— it's about being fully present while you take your sausage dog for a pee

This one's for the men who've done the work but still feel like something's missing underneath it all.

Connect with Mitch Hunter: Instagram: @_hunterhealing

Website: hunterhealing.com

Email: hunterhealing@gmail.com

Connect with Trav: Instagram: @thetechnician

Podcast: The Technician Podcast