In this deeply honest and moving episode, host Melissa Etzler welcomes Adam A. Meyers, a veteran police officer, who bravely shares the story of his six-year-long struggle following a critical, life-altering incident in 2016 where he was forced to use deadly force in the line of duty.

Adam recounts the intense emotional turmoil he experienced after the shooting, leading him down a destructive path of poor coping mechanisms, including alcohol abuse (mixing alcohol with prescription and cough medicine), casual sex, marijuana use, and self-harm. He discusses the overwhelming burden of stress, anxiety, and depression he was trying to numb, and the moment of clarity that served as a painful stepping stone toward recovery.

Adam's story is a vital message of resilience for all first responders and anyone struggling with trauma and mental health, demonstrating that it is "okay to talk about your mental health and you can get help."

National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-7233 (SAFE)

National Sexual Assault Hotline: 1-800-656-4673 (HOPE)

Loveisrespect Teen Dating Violence Hotline: 1-866-331-9474

National Human Trafficking Hotline: 1-888-373-7888

In this powerful first episode, Autumn shares her incredible journey of surviving years of escalating domestic violence. She takes us inside the fear, the isolation, and the critical moments—including a chilling encounter with a female police officer—that led her to prioritize her daughter's safety and finally escape. Autumn bravely discusses the lasting toll of mental abuse over physical scars and challenges the common question, "Why didn’t you leave?" by shifting the focus to where it belongs: accountability for the abuser.

National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-7233 (SAFE)

National Sexual Assault Hotline: 1-800-656-4673 (HOPE)

Loveisrespect Teen Dating Violence Hotline: 1-866-331-9474

National Human Trafficking Hotline: 1-888-373-7888

The LOVE > hate Podcast is a trauma-informed space where survivors of assault and interpersonal violence can share their experiences and journey to healing and reclaiming their lives. Hosted by a trauma-informed Emotional Freedom Techniques practitioner, we believe in the power of your voice to inspire, empower, and connect.