Heads up: This episode contains mature content, sensitive themes, and language that isn’t suitable for children. You’ve been warned.

This one’s not for the faint of heart or those easily offended by frank and open discussions about things too often left unsaid.

In this episode, I dive headfirst into the emotional aftermath of sex— and it's raw (no pun intended), unscripted, and real. From the guilt and shame that once seemed to be the very nature of it all, to finally having an unexpected freedom that I never even knew existed. So yeah, I talk about what it used to feel like after the big "o", and what it feels like now. This isn’t some salacious treatise about technique or performance. This is about those quiet moments after—that no one is talking about, except as maybe a punchline to a tasteless-ass, ego-puffing "joke".

I open up about the deeper layers that people don't openly talk about - especially MEN: emotional awakening and awareness, unspoken fears, and the quiet inner grief that sometimes hides beneath all of the most intimate moments we share with someone we love. You’ll hear how my wife and I navigated a conversation that spun out post-big "o", how I finally, somehow, allowed myself to shift gears without the oppression of guilt, and how I finally, finally reached a point where I could say, “Wait… where did the shame go?”

There’s also some laughter ('cause it ain't all that serious, once you finally "get it"), some back-and-forth, and a whole lot of truth that doesn’t come neatly packaged. This podcast was never meant to fix you. It’s just a place to have that new-level honesty.

I never set out to make a podcast. If my wife hadn’t been diagnosed with Stage 3 cervical and thyroid cancer, I probably never would’ve. I just needed to say what I couldn’t say out loud. This episode takes the place of one I recorded for myself, never meant to share. No edits. No performance. Just me, a mic, and my heart—trying to make sense of it all. This is where Blue Collar Buddha began.