Recorded on: December 21st, 2025

Episode Summary by AI

I got a Sunday text from Trey saying he is moving most operations from Notion to GoHighLevel for AI automations and my weekly work will drop far below 10 hours so I treat it as basically losing that client. I spiral into doubt about entrepreneurship, money, providing with Lexi, and consider returning to FedEx or picking up hours from PT Dom. I run cash flow scenarios, recommit to finishing Blade, and rant about small talk, phone calls, and feeling misunderstood.

Notable Quotes From This Episode, by AI

• “Business is business.”
• “We're only as lone as we perceive our peers inability to relate to what we feel or see or whatever.”
• “We're only as alone as we perceive ourselves to be.”

Funny, Out of Context Quotes, by AI

• “Full of rich motherfuckers.”
• “Good salesmen you are.”
• “If I had to get out of bed at 4 a.m. or someone in my family got shot in the face, I probably would get right the fuck out of bed.”

My Thoughts & Feelings for Today - Summarized by AI

I got punched in the gut by the Trey text and my brain immediately tried to label it as proof I do not have what it takes. I know it is business, but it still stings because it threatens my stability and makes me question my identity. I am frustrated with myself for wasting freedom and sleeping in while claiming I want big outcomes. I feel alone in my head and tired of shallow conversations, so I dump it here where nobody can derail me. I am still locked on Blade and I am trying to turn this into a wake up call instead of a collapse.

What I Did Today - Summarized by AI

Read Trey’s text ending most Notion work, replied to Trey, felt down and questioned entrepreneurship, reached out to an old FedEx boss about driving work including Park City routes, checked finances and ran runway calculations, considered part time or full time FedEx while keeping Mina hours, messaged PT Dom about part time work, worked on Blade onboarding and informational pages, vented about phone calls and small talk, reflected on sleep schedule and discipline

Business Revenue Tracker (Since 12/20/24)

Income Today: +$0

Year 1: $38,859

Year 2 (so far): $0

Recorded on: December 20th, 2025

Episode Summary by AI

I reflect on how starting my podcast got easier over time. I fixed missing episodes by learning Spotify rejected M4A so I reuploaded MP3 versions. I review my first year of business revenue and how quitting my job aligned with higher monthly income. I think about money not feeling real, focus and discipline problems, and pressure to provide. I outline Blade app ideas around public accountability and strict rules. I rant about holiday gift expectations and social norms.

Notable Quotes From This Episode, by AI

• "I think you can learn so much just from asking the right questions"
• "the quality of life is directly correlated with the quality of questions that you ask or something like that"
• "if I can lead by example and get the fuck out of them and show how I did it, and also help other people do the same, and also make a living for myself and my future family, I just can't think of a better way to, to, I guess, navigate through life"

Funny, Out of Context Quotes, by AI

• "Nothing gives me more upset than when I give it a command like that, and I say a whole bunch of shit, and then it doesn't catch it."
• "When I say Napoleon Hill, I feel like I'm way off. I may as well say Napoleon Dynamite."
• "I just don't think people stop to consider that that's a fucking possibility."

My Thoughts & Feelings for Today - Summarized by AI

I feel proud that I can hit record without overthinking and that I solved the missing episode problem fast. I feel weird seeing the yearly revenue total because it does not match how it feels day to day, and it makes me question what number would ever feel real. I feel pressure about money and about not delivering fast enough for Trey, and I hate that I can get paid while feeling behind. I feel energized about Blade because the strict accountability is exactly what I need. I feel annoyed by forced social norms like holiday gifting, and I know I spiral into rants when I start pulling on that thread.

What I Did Today - Summarized by AI

Emailed Podbean and learned Spotify requires MP3 not M4A, reuploaded the correct files and confirmed episodes appeared, reviewed and totaled first year business revenue and client breakdowns, projected monthly income and tried to calculate averages with Siri then ChatGPT, reflected on quitting my job and income changes, worked a bit on Blade and planned uploads for remaining episodes, did some work for Mina and tried to solve Treys yearly data request, bought Christmas gifts mostly on credit, looked up Santa origins and definitions like soapbox and lollygagging

Business Revenue Tracker (Since 12/20/24)

Income Today: +$0

Total Income: $38,859

Year 1: $38,859 (Correct and checked amount)

Year 2 (so far): $0

Recorded on: December 19th, 2025

Episode Summary by AI

I talk through generating AI created emblems for my app and how impressive yet flawed some designs are. I explain burning remaining AI credits before reset, fixing podcast episode visibility issues on Spotify, and uploading multiple episodes to avoid falling behind. I share progress on a surprise feature, housekeeping tasks before Christmas, frustrations with demon like imagery, and a core design decision about task based commitments versus daily actions inside the Blade system.

Notable Quotes From This Episode, by AI

• “These emblems that it's made for metals that you can achieve and have meaning behind to display to show people the things that you've accomplished.”
• “Some of these emblems are just Unreal.”
• “So the original concept of the blade was, you have the purge, the oath, the crucible.”

Funny, Out of Context Quotes, by AI

• “I kind of want to just use and abuse what I have remaining.”
• “That really sucked ass.”
• “It's not what I fucking asked for.”

My Thoughts & Feelings for Today - Summarized by AI

I feel focused but overstimulated. I am excited by what I am building while also annoyed by inefficiencies and distractions. I want momentum without chaos and progress without cleanup debt. I am proud of decisions being clarified and aware that discipline includes stopping when something becomes compulsive. I want the system to mean something real and not drift from the original intent.

What I Did Today - Summarized by AI

Generated AI emblems, reviewed and saved designs, managed AI usage limits, emailed podcast hosting support, planned episode uploads, worked on a surprise feature, did personal and holiday housekeeping, refined app philosophy, reflected on task commitment structure

Business Revenue Tracker (Since 12/20/24)

Income Today: +$0

Total Income: $37,977