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Still Here - Midnight Conversations for the Ones Aging Alone

Still Here - Midnight Conversations for the Ones Aging Alone

By: Sandra Dilly De Leon/Sable Ryn
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 This isn’t a motivation podcast. This is a human podcast. A late-night, can’t-sleep, “why does life still hurt like this?” It's the late-night room where silence finally speaks kind of podcast. Hosted by Sandy “Dilly” De Leon and her shadow-twin, Sable Ryn, this podcast holds the emotions people aging alone rarely admit out loud. Here, we talk about the things most people hide: the loneliness, the breakups, the betrayals we carried too young, the nights that feel too long, and the fear of growing older alone while pretending everything’s fine. There’s no “5-step plan.” No perfection. Just honest conversation from someone who has lived through the fire and is still figuring things out in real time. If you’ve ever felt invisible… unwanted… unchosen… If you’ve ever held yourself together in the dark… If you’ve ever whispered, “I’m tired of being strong,” Whether you’re childfree, divorced, widowed, estranged, solo by choice, solo by circumstance, or quietly holding your world together… this is where you can breathe. Midnight conversations. Raw truths. A seat waiting for you in the dark.. New episodes drop in the quiet hours — for the ones who don’t sleep, who overthink, who feel too much, and who are still here anyway. Come sit with me. There's room here You don’t have to carry this alone. Hygiene & Healthy Living Psychology Psychology & Mental Health Social Sciences
Episodes
  • The Week Nobody Talks About (Split Screen)

    The Week Nobody Talks About (Split Screen)
    Dec 17 2025
    There’s the version of this week everyone sees. Office parties. Laughter. Wrapping paper. People talking about flights, dinners, who they’re spending Christmas with. And then there’s the other version. The one that happens after you lock the door behind you. The quiet apartment. The half-done chores. The silence that gets louder at night. This episode lives in the split screen. It’s about the week before Christmas — the strange, heavy in-between where you’re expected to be cheerful in public while privately holding your breath. Where you try to stay happy for others, even as the loneliness taps you on the shoulder when you get home. Where demons don’t arrive loudly — they slip in quietly, disguised as thoughts you didn’t invite. We talk about: Performing “I’m fine” while feeling anything but The exhaustion of small talk and forced cheer Coming home to an empty space and trying to outrun the quiet The guilt of wanting to belong without wanting to ask The fear that this might be how it always feels And the stubborn, fragile hope that refuses to die anyway This isn’t advice. It’s not a plan. It’s a diary entry spoken out loud at 2 a.m. If this week feels heavier than it’s supposed to… If you’re doing your best but still feel unseen… If you’ve ever folded laundry just to keep from crying… You’re not alone. Still here? Come sit. Good night.
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    34 mins
  • The Life I Thought I'd Have by Now

    The Life I Thought I'd Have by Now
    Nov 19 2025
    This episode is where the series finds its pulse. I talk about the night I couldn’t hold myself together anymore — the night life finally demanded honesty instead of survival. It’s raw. It’s not inspirational. It’s the truth about falling apart quietly, in a world that expects you to rise like nothing happened. If you’ve ever had a moment where you realized you had no choice but to keep going… even when you didn’t know how… This episode will sit with you in that place.
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    14 mins
  • December - The Fog Before The Frost

    December - The Fog Before The Frost
    Dec 3 2025
    When the lights come down and the phone stops ringing, what’s left? December can be beautiful—or brutal—for anyone aging alone. This episode sits in the space between celebration and silence. This episode is about the split-screen life of the week most people romanticize: office parties, gift exchanges, people planning trips, couples whispering about “our traditions”… while you’re nodding and smiling, pretending it doesn’t sting. Then you go home. And the silence hits different. This is the episode for the ones who come back to an empty apartment, dim lights, folded laundry, and the thoughts you tried to outrun all day. The ones who feel guilty for not feeling festive. The ones who try to clean the kitchen or reorganize the closet because the alternative is crying on the couch. The ones who don’t hate the holidays — they just don’t feel held by them. Here, we talk about the demons that come out when the world is celebrating: the fear that nothing will change, the ache of being no one’s priority, the loneliness that feels heavier under warm lights and fake cheer. If December feels like both a mirror and a reminder, this is your episode. You’re not broken. You’re not late. You’re not the only one sitting awake at 2 AM trying to make sense of a life you’re still building. Come sit. You’re still here.
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    24 mins
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