Episodes

  • S1: Introduction

    S1: Introduction
    Aug 31 2025
    Introducing the Purpose and Vision of I Feel Your Pain Podcast


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    7 mins
  • S1 Ep1: Holy and Horror-When pain piles up

    S1 Ep1: Holy and Horror-When pain piles up
    Sep 6 2025
    The 2nd of August
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    16 mins
  • S1 Ep2: Womb Darkness: Miscarriages and a Fall of Grace

    S1 Ep2: Womb Darkness: Miscarriages and a Fall of Grace
    Sep 13 2025
    On what should be a day of pure celebration, we hold space for a more complex truth. This special episode, recorded on my daughter's 18th birthday, journeys back through the "womb darkness" of multiple miscarriages and the terrifying moment of her fall as a 4 and a half year old, a event that became an unexpected sign of grace.

    We will navigate the lonely landscape of pregnancy loss, discover a scripture that gives language to unspeakable grief, and find solidarity in the quiet resilience of a hope that refuses to be extinguished. This is for anyone whose joy is tinged with sorrow, and who needs reminding that our deepest pains can be the very places where light breaks through.
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    19 mins
  • S1 Ep3: Amputated Dreams: The Marriage Crucible

    S1 Ep3: Amputated Dreams: The Marriage Crucible
    Sep 20 2025
    What happens when "for better or worse, in sickness and in health" becomes your devastating reality? Today, we enter the fire of a marriage tested by catastrophic illness, countless surgeries, and the loss of a dreamed-for future. This is the story of how grief and unimaginable stress turned inward, creating a chasm between two people who loved God and each other deeply. We will hold onto the scriptural truth of a three-strand cord, and find solidarity in the practical steps to communicate and seek help when the weight is too heavy to carry alone.
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    25 mins
  • S1 Ep4: The Sister-Shaped Hole: Sibling Loss and Shattered Identity

    S1 Ep4: The Sister-Shaped Hole: Sibling Loss and Shattered Identity
    Sep 27 2025
    Sibling loss is often a disenfranchised grief, overlooked by a world that does not understand the unique bond.
    Today, we talk about the earth-shattering pain of losing a sister, the keeper of your secrets, your shared history, and a part of your own identity. This is the story of a sudden, tragic car accident that took my sister's life, leaving me to navigate a world that feels permanently altered. We will find solace in a scripture of raw lament, and discover ways to honour our siblings and carry their memory forward when the path ahead seems broken.
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    22 mins
  • S1 Ep5: Burying My Twin: Secondary Loss & Identity

    S1 Ep5: Burying My Twin: Secondary Loss & Identity
    Oct 4 2025
    What do you grieve when the person who dies is not your child, but felt like your own?

    This is the story of a sacred friendship, two boys raised like twins, and an eight-year battle with cancer that tested everything. We explore the concept of "compound grief", when losses pile up in the same year and the unique pain of "secondary loss," where you are mourning not just a person, but a shared future and a part of your own family's identity.

    We will find our footing in a scripture that calls us to weep with those who weep, and we will navigate the difficult solidarity of how to show up for someone else when your own heart is breaking.
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    19 mins
  • S1 Ep6: My Mother’s Mirror: Grieving the Man Who Reflected Her Soul

    S1 Ep6: My Mother’s Mirror: Grieving the Man Who Reflected Her Soul
    Oct 11 2025
    What happens when a person becomes a living, breathing link to a parent you have already lost?Today, we explore the profound and unique grief of losing my uncle, my mother's twin who was more than a beloved uncle. He was like a surrogate mother in a male form, my champion, and the person in whom I could still see my mother's spirit. For 22 years after her passing he was a mirror, reflecting my mother’s soul back to me. In my eyes he was the keeper of my mother’s essence and his death felt like losing my mother all over again.

    In this episode, we explore the unique and layered grief of losing a person who embodies another and sit with this complex sorrow. We will , find comfort in a scripture that acknowledges both grief and hope, and offer solidarity to anyone grieving a person who held the memory of another with ways to honor these sacred, reflective bonds.
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    19 mins
  • S1 Ep7: Milestones and Memory: Navigating Triggers

    S1 Ep7: Milestones and Memory: Navigating Triggers
    Oct 18 2025
    Holidays and celebrations can sharpen the pain of loss, turning days of joy into profound reminders of absence.

    In this episode, we move beyond birthdays to the complex terrain of cultural and family milestones. We will use the example of Mother's Day, a day that can be agonising for a mother who has lost a child, a child who has lost a mother, or a woman who longed to be a mother. (Story)

    To explore how these societal triggers impact our grief. We will find comfort in a scripture that tells us God treasures our tears. (Scripture)

    In solidarity I will share practical strategies for reclaiming these difficult days. (Solidarity)
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    15 mins