In this episode, we sit down with Sky, a bold, brave voice in the BPD community who also goes by the name King Sky’s. Sky’s story is one of pain, poetry, and perseverance. From childhood group homes to emotional misdiagnoses, he takes us on a journey through the chaos and confusion of life with Borderline Personality Disorder — and how the moment one therapist’s encouragement changed everything and music quite literally saved his life.

Disclaimer: The title of this podcast and its contents are not intended to in any way promote, encourage, or advocate suicide or any form of self-harm. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide and needs support, please call 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline.

Here is the episode breakdown:

Guest:

• King Sky

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kingskiesmusic/

Email: skylanevaeh78@gmail.com

00:00 – 00:57 | Welcome + Mission of the Show

00:58 – 02:29 | Checking In: How Are You, Really?

02:30 – 04:55 | Rollercoasters & Peace Protectors

04:56 – 06:39 | Early Signs & Life in Group Homes

06:40 – 08:45 | Diagnoses Journey: From DID to BPD

08:46 – 10:39 | Isolation, Memes, and Finding Community

10:40 – 12:23 | If I Could Talk to My 8-Year-Old Self…

12:24 – 14:41 | VENOMOUS: The Music, the Message, the AI

14:42 – 17:10 | Music as Lifeline & Therapy

Credits:

Host, Producer & Research: Nicole Darbypresspause4grace@gmail.com

Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

In today’s episode, I sit down with Gabby — a 35-year-old mother of four, who has walked through trauma most people can’t even imagine. From losing her husband in a shocking arrest, to battling substance use, to navigating the emotional wreckage of CPS and custody loss — Gabby’s story is not just about survival, it’s about showing up raw and real even when the world refuses to see your humanity.

This episode is not easy. But it’s necessary.

If you’ve ever felt like you’re too broken to be loved, too exhausted to keep fighting, or too complicated to explain — Gabby’s story is here to remind you: you’re not alone, and your story isn't over.

Disclaimer: The title of this podcast and its contents are not intended to in any way promote, encourage, or advocate suicide or any form of self-harm. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide and needs support, please call 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline.

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Episode Summary:

Total Runtime: ~43 min

0:00–1:30 – Opening & Trigger Warning

1:31–3:00 – Meet Gabby

3:01–6:00 – Trauma Origins

6:01–10:00 – The Day Everything Collapsed

10:01–14:00 – Seeking Help, Being Punished

14:01–17:30 – Messages to Her Younger Self

17:31–21:00 – Parenting & Grandparents

21:01–24:30 – BPD Mythbusting

24:31–28:30 – Love, Triggers & Relationships

28:31–32:30 – Therapy & Memory Loss

32:31–35:30 – Future Self Letter

35:31–38:30 – Society’s Stigma vs. Personal Truth

38:31–41:12 – Closing Thoughts & Contact

41:13–43:24 – Outro & Crisis Resources

Episode Resources:

• Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/
• Connect with the Host: Nicole Darby: presspause4grace@gmail.comCredits:Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole DarbyMusic Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIIISound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

“I’m Not a Monster – I’m a Human with BPD”

What if the thing you’ve been taught to hide could become your source of healing?

In this raw and unfiltered episode, we sit down with a BPD warrior, Alice Hyoung, who gets real about the shame, chaos, and stigma that come with living with borderline personality disorder—and how she's reclaiming her life one radical act of self-ownership at a time. From surviving emotional extremes to discovering Internal Family Systems therapy, she shares how she went from daily despair to powerful, purpose-filled healing.

If you’ve ever felt broken, misunderstood, or exhausted from trying to explain yourself to the world… this one is for you.

1. Intro + BPD Stigma & Shame 🕒 00:00:00 – 00:01:25

2. Guest’s Story: Discipline vs. Mental Health Struggles 🕒 00:01:25 – 00:04:44

3. Radical Acceptance, Accountability, & Anger Ownership 🕒 00:04:44 – 00:06:02

4. Do the One Thing: Small Steps Toward Healing 🕒 00:06:02 – 00:06:44

5. Cultural Stigma, Language, & Media Representation 🕒 00:06:44 – 00:11:41

6. IFS (Internal Family Systems) Therapy Explained 🕒 00:11:41 – 00:20:45

7. Therapist Fit, Accessibility & Coaching Models 🕒 00:20:45 – 00:26:12

8. Family, Partners & Top 3 Wishes for Better Support 🕒 00:26:12 – 00:32:32

9. Boundaries, Peace Protectors & Relationship Dynamics 🕒 00:32:32 – 00:38:12

10. Surrender, Compassionate Detachment & Alan Watts 🕒 00:38:12 – 00:41:14

11. Future-Self Reflection: Creating from Pain 🕒 00:41:14 – 00:45:10

12. Final Thoughts: Ownership, Shame, & Permission to Create 🕒 00:45:10 – 00:50:57

13. Guest Contact Info + Community Resources 🕒 00:50:57 – 00:54:30

14. Outro + BPD Mantra 🕒 00:54:30 – 00:57:47

Episode Resources:

• Press Pause, Inc.’s Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/

o Free & low-cost BPD resources and support, including career coaching

• Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Credits:

Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole presspause4grace@gmail.com

Music Producer: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

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