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I Can't Even Kill Myself Right!

By: Sasha Fearce
  • Summary

  • Gain immediate access to borderline personality disorder (BPD) support and recovery tools by listening to our weekly podcast. We feature firsthand BPD Warrior experiences, expert guest interviews, real-time BPD support strategies, and mindful meditations.

    #BPD, #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder, #SupportForBPD, #RecoverFromBPD, #BPDAllies, #LivingWithBPD, #ICan'tEven, #BPDTerminology

    Sasha Fearce
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Episodes
  • Term of The Day, Tool Time & Mindful Moment: Featuring Bella Zimmerman & Kim Beavers
    May 22 2024

    Disclaimer: The title of this podcast and its contents are not intended to in any way promote, encourage, or advocate suicide or any form of self-harm. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide and needs support, please call 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline.

    In today's enlightening episode, we introduce a new segment, Tool Time featuring BPD Warrior Kim Beavers, where we provide tools to navigate and process your emotions. We explore the term of the day, mindfulness, and delve into its transformative benefits. Stay tuned for soul-soothing meditation led by Bella, crafted to harmonize your body, spirit, soul, and mind, helping you gain insights into your emotions. Join us for an enriching journey of self-discovery and inner peace!

    In this episode, you will hear:

    • 0:00 Intro

    (Beginning of Tool Time With Kim Beavers)

    • 1:35 Tool Time With Kim Beavers
    • 3:36 What’s Today's Tool?
    • 4:26 Mind-ful-ness and Gratitude
    • 10:20 Review: The Me Test

    (End of Tool Time With Kim Beavers)

    • 12:32 Term of The Day: Mindfulness

    (Beginning of Mindfulness and Meditation)

    • 13:37 Mindfulness and Its Benefits
    • 18:25 The Mindful Moment/Meditation

    (End of Mindfulness and Meditation)

    • 24:51 Closing Statement from Nicole
    • 25:13 Daily Mantra
    • 25:29 Outro
    • 26:42 “Free Mind” – Tems: https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=tQiNQL-FEgU&si=h3oAXYLrfQR1SK3j

    Episode Resources:

    • Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/
      • Bi-Weekly Support Group: https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain
      • Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3
    • Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

    Connect With Hosts

    Kim’ Beavers

    https://invisiblelines.quora.com/

    beaversbin2021@gmail.com

    Bella Zimmerman

    bellagzimmerman@outlook.com

    holistichealingbeautifulbirths.clientsecure.me

    Nicole Darby

    presspause4grace@gmail.com

    Free BPD Support Resources and Bi-weekly Support Group (Wednesdays): https://www.showmegrace.org

    Credits:

    Hosts: Kim Beavers, Bella Zimmerman, and Nicole Darby

    Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

    Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

    Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby

    Research Team: Nicole Darby & Tamar Brignolle

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    27 mins
  • A Heartwarming Account of What It's Like to Love Someone with BPD from Author Dr. Gregory Serfer
    May 15 2024

    In today’s episode, we begin with a compelling excerpt from Dr. Gregory Serfer’s book, "I Am Still Right Here". Nicole and Bella sit down with Dr. Serfer to have a healthy conversation about his book and his experience of being in a relationship with a person with BPD (pwBPD). They reflect on ways to destigmatize BPD and provide advice and encouraging words to a pwBPD and their partners, friends, and family.

    Disclaimer: The title of this podcast and its contents are not intended to in any way promote, encourage, or advocate suicide or any form of self-harm. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide and needs support, please call 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline.

    Guest:

    • Dr. Gregory Serfer

    Email: contact@gregoryserfer.com

    Book: I Am Still Right Here: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT

    Qoura: https://www.quora.com/profile/Gregory-Serfer

    In this episode, you will hear:

    • 0:00 Intro
    • 0:58 Trigger Warning
    • 1:21 Excerpt of Chapter 1 of I Am Still Right Here

    (Beginning of Interview)

    • 6:38 Introduction of Dr. Gregory Serfer
    • 11:04 The Creation of I Am Still Right Here
    • 15:30 Qualities/Traits of BPD in Relationships
    • 23:09 Practitioners' Attitude towards BPD and Personality Disorders
    • 24:38 BPD Doesn't Define a Person
    • 26:03 Idolization, Invalidation, and Disregard in BPD
    • 37:03 Understanding Transient Feelings
    • 45:08 Resilience in BPD
    • 51:06 Suggestions for Stressful Medical Environments
    • 1:04:16 Love Letter to BPD
    • 1:06:40 Final Thoughts
    • Dr. Serfer's Final Words

    (End of Interview)

    • 1:14:33 Outro
    • 1:18:03 "Thinking Less" by Sinead Harnett Music: https://tinyurl.com/SineadHarnettMusic

    Connect with the Hosts:

    Bella Zimmerman

    Email: bellagzimmerman@outlook.com

    Website: holistichealingbeautifulbirths.clientsecure.me

    Nicole

    Email: presspause4grace@gmail.com

    Website: https://www.showmegrace.org

    Credits:

    Hosts: Bella Zimmerman and Nicole

    Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

    Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

    Podcast Producer: Nicole

    Research Team: Nicole & Tamar Brignolle

    Website Resources:

    Bi-weekly Support Group (Wed): https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain

    Support The Show:

    Pandora, Amazon Music, Samsung Podcasts, iHeartRadio, Listen Notes

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    1 hr and 19 mins
  • The "Why" Behind the Podcast Title
    May 8 2024

    In this episode, we discuss the inception of our podcast title, "I Can’t Even Kill Myself Right," and feature an interview with our host, Nicole (AKA Sasha Fearce), conducted by her friend of 35 years Aseelah El-Amin. Nicole shares her journey as a BPD warrior, shedding light on the stigmas surrounding BPD, and how the diagnosis can impact personal journeys and relationships.

    Disclaimer: The title of this podcast and its contents are not intended to in any way promote, encourage, or advocate suicide or any form of self-harm. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide and needs support, please call 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline.

    In this episode, you will hear:

    • 0:00 Intro
    • 1:11 Sensitive Content Warning
    • 1:21 BPD Episode: Crying in the Parking Lot

    (Beginning of Interview)

    • Intro
    • How Did You Come Up with the Title, I Can’t Even Kill Myself Right?
    • Who is Sasha Fearce?
    • Misdiagnosis and Confirmation of BPD
    • The Origin of BPD Diagnosis
    • Does the Diagnosis Matter?
    • Is There a Way to Prevent BPD?
    • How Can You Decipher Between BPD Episodes and Everyday Emotions?
    • When Do You Disclose BPD in New Relationships?
    • Once You Disclose, What is the Ideal Response?

    (End of Interview)

    • BPD Daily Mantra
    • Podcast Outro
    • Music feature “Free” by Stephanie Mills: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QF4k5qPy-eM

    Episode Resources:

    - Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/

    - Bi-weekly Support Group: https://www.showmegrace.org/the-brain

    - Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3

    - Crisis Hotline - Call or text 988 or chat at 988lifeline.org

    Connect with the Host:

    Nicole Darby

    Email: presspause4grace@gmail.com

    Website: https://www.showmegrace.org

    Credits:

    Hosts: Aseelah El-Amin and Nicole Darby

    Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

    Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII

    Editor: Nicole Darby

    Research Team: Tamar Brignolle

    Support The Show:

    Spotify:

    Apple Podcast:

    YouTube: Coming Soon

    Website: ​​https://www.showmegrace.org/coming-soon-01

    Topic keywords: mental health podcast, mental health awareness, my mental health journey, mental health journey stories, bpd, bpd podcast, bpd disorder, borderline personality disorder, bpd in relationships, bpd diagnosis, bpd support

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    49 mins

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