Today I answer a question sent to me by a listener. The question is, if I ever was mad at God for Diderik's departure. Please tune in, as I share my transparency with you all. Enjoy Diderik's picture I had uploaded, he was 2 yo at the time, 8 years ago. Grief is such a hard journey, I appreciate you listening, pushing play and walking with me. God Bless and You are worthy.

Final day of Dideriks last breaths, sharing my heart with yours by reading day 5 of being in the PICU watching my son sleep. I also share my son's eulogy that I read a week later after he departed to the congregation who came to celebrate his life. May you take away something from this episode, may it bless you in some way. God is good, always. Please join me.

I will be doing a Q & A about my grief and about my thoughts on God, Jesus Christ and the afterlife. Please email me at nicolepeterson128@gmail.com with Subject: Podcast Question and I will answer them on the next episode of Growth Refined. God Bless

Welcome back to another episode of Growth Refined. Today I will be reading journal entry day 4, on my journey of grief, and my son's story. I hope you enjoy listening as this encourages you to know more of who God is and His love for you.

I would love to do a Q & A on my grief or any thoughts of heaven, God and the after life. Please email me your questions at nicolepeterson128@gmail.com with subject title: Podcast Question.

Don't forget, you are worthy.

There is so much hope to hold onto here, that Diderik is physically still with us but also that if he decides he wants to stay in heaven either way, he will be fully healed and fully himself. We believe in Gods purpose and plan for our lives, no matter how tragic our circumstances are. We trust Him, we may not always agree and be okay with it, and thats okay- but we trust. Please join me.

Day 2 Journal entry of my grief journey since the day of Dideriks incident happened. As hard as this is for me to walk through, I know God has a purpose and a plan for my life and for yours. I hope this episode and these journal entries encourage you, help you in same way.

I would ##love to do a Q & A one of these days on an episode. Please email me with your questions, nicolepeterson128@gmail.com.

Psalm 38:15-18

Today I start to share my grief journey with you all by sharing my journal entries and reflecting on those days of complete shattering loss. I appreciate you joining me, and having love and grace for my vulnerability and transparency. God is good, Jesus saves. Enjoy

How are we to be okay when life's circumstances get tuff? What are we called to do, or how are we called to act during bad situations? I know we live in a life of brokenness, heartache and pain. Our living God has hope for us, a promise for his believers that there is joy in the morning and a new life to come. Tune in!

Today's Bible verse readings are from:

Philippians 4, 1 Peter 4, Hebrews 13, Revelation 21

Shoot me a message if you have any questions I can answer for you and I will share them on my podcast! Email: nicolepeterson128@gmail.com

Have you ever wondered what goes on around you that you cannot see? Ever felt that awareness that maybe you just knew there was more going on around you than you could see, or even realize? Let's get into what goes on in the Spiritual realm that is all around us.

Today's topic went into my personal life with my grief and loss, my pain and suffering. All of us humans, have pain from something and we can all rest knowing we are not a lone and we are in this together. Praise God.

Bible verses Matthew 10, Revelation 21-22, 1 Peter 5, Luke 10, 1 Timothy and 2 Timothy