“I’m Not a Monster – I’m a Human with BPD”

What if the thing you’ve been taught to hide could become your source of healing?

In this raw and unfiltered episode, we sit down with a BPD warrior, Alice Hyoung, who gets real about the shame, chaos, and stigma that come with living with borderline personality disorder—and how she's reclaiming her life one radical act of self-ownership at a time. From surviving emotional extremes to discovering Internal Family Systems therapy, she shares how she went from daily despair to powerful, purpose-filled healing.

If you’ve ever felt broken, misunderstood, or exhausted from trying to explain yourself to the world… this one is for you.

1. Intro + BPD Stigma & Shame 🕒 00:00:00 – 00:01:25

2. Guest’s Story: Discipline vs. Mental Health Struggles 🕒 00:01:25 – 00:04:44

3. Radical Acceptance, Accountability, & Anger Ownership 🕒 00:04:44 – 00:06:02

4. Do the One Thing: Small Steps Toward Healing 🕒 00:06:02 – 00:06:44

5. Cultural Stigma, Language, & Media Representation 🕒 00:06:44 – 00:11:41

6. IFS (Internal Family Systems) Therapy Explained 🕒 00:11:41 – 00:20:45

7. Therapist Fit, Accessibility & Coaching Models 🕒 00:20:45 – 00:26:12

8. Family, Partners & Top 3 Wishes for Better Support 🕒 00:26:12 – 00:32:32

9. Boundaries, Peace Protectors & Relationship Dynamics 🕒 00:32:32 – 00:38:12

10. Surrender, Compassionate Detachment & Alan Watts 🕒 00:38:12 – 00:41:14

11. Future-Self Reflection: Creating from Pain 🕒 00:41:14 – 00:45:10

12. Final Thoughts: Ownership, Shame, & Permission to Create 🕒 00:45:10 – 00:50:57

13. Guest Contact Info + Community Resources 🕒 00:50:57 – 00:54:30

14. Outro + BPD Mantra 🕒 00:54:30 – 00:57:47

Episode Resources:

• Press Pause, Inc.’s Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/

o Free & low-cost BPD resources and support, including career coaching

• Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org

Credits:

Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole presspause4grace@gmail.com

Music Producer: DJtheIII

Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

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