Hey friend!

I disappeared for six months. And I need to tell you why.

Because what happened to me in 2025? It's probably happening to you right now.

I ran a 101-day gauntlet. Wrote a children's story every single day. Published a podcast episode every single day. Ran at least a mile every single day. I crushed it.

Then the challenge ended. The constraints lifted. And I completely lost my way.

I thought I needed better systems. Tighter deadlines. More AI efficiency. So I tried to publish a book a week for seven weeks straight.

I failed.

Not because I lacked discipline. Not because I needed better tools. I failed because my creative identity wasn't anchored in Christ.

And when identity isn't anchored, every system eventually collapses.

Here's what I discovered during my creative identity crisis: I had trained AI to write like me so well that I stopped being me. I outsourced the hard, fulfilling work of creation. I lost myself in the efficiency.

The books were good. But they were missing something critical.

They were missing me.

So I blew them all up and started over. And on my 48th birthday, I launched the 50 by 50 Challenge: publish 50 books, complete 50 10Ks, and transform 50 lives by the time I turn 50.

I'm 48 now. I started at zero. And I'm currently three books in.

This episode is my return to the mic with one core message:

Your creative identity is the foundation on which your writing dreams stand. Start with WHO. And WHO starts with God.

Because here's what I now know to be true:

Christ anchors identity. Identity shapes systems. Systems refine skills. Skills produce soul-satisfying fruit. Soul-satisfying fruit pleases God.

Miss one link in that chain and you stay stuck living as a contradiction—dreaming like a professional while showing up like an amateur.

In this episode, I'm unpacking:

• Why 2025 broke me open and rebuilt me
• The real enemy blocking your writing (hint: it's not time or motivation)
• Why belief matters more than tactics
• How this podcast is changing to serve you better
• An adventurous writing challenge that will shift your perspective

My word for 2026 is SPEAK. So I'm back.

Welcome to the adventure.