No matter how many chances you give, it’s better just to walk away, while they blow up in front of you. Not knowing people are watching them, and will report them for their unprofessional behavior. You never know who is in corner or who has your back. What are the chances is moving in silence while your enemies don’t know what your next move is. It is hard to remain quiet when the news you got filled you with excitement, but it has to remain in the dark so your enemies don’t know what you’re planning. They will be dumb founded when you do make your next move. They hate it cause they never know what you will do next.

The war, the battles you were fighting behind closed doors, many thought you were lost, but somehow you over came it all. Like she was lost was the front you put up so no one would know how strong you really were. Therapy of sharing and no shame of how much strength it took to share. I had dream and I worked hard to make my dreams come true. Nothing I got was free or given to me, I worked for it. I had support and help in the beginning, but now it’s up to me. I was never lost, I was discovering who I was, while I was healing from a past that majority didn’t deserve. I’m not innocent nor am I perfect. I learned my lessons and I learned from my mistakes. I’m thankful all of the support I had throughout the years. I wouldn’t be where I am without the support, the hard work and dedication. I do support others as well. It doesn’t have to be loud or posted on social media, it can be done in private. When did we need to show our support of something needed be public? It’s none of business unless I choose to share. Small things do added up to bigger things when it comes to support. I have boundaries, and we live in a world where boundaries don’t matter or can be pushed. Your entitled self who thinks they can push and know everyone’s business is the problem. Many of us have learned that sharing everything has caused us more pain than good. I stand on what I say.

Why do the play boys keep showing back up even though you are married and happy now. No more wondering why they disappeared, ghosted you or giving you cold shoulder. You treated me like crap, you don’t get another chance. They save you cause they hate because it’s their weakness. They are exposing each part of themselves that we don’t see until it’s too late. Don’t send me a friend request or show back up on me. I have nothing to do with you. You are pathetic and a coward who never grew up. I do speak my mind and I don’t sugarcoat nothing to protect your feelings. You didn’t care about mine when you ghosted me, and got engaged. You couldn’t tell me in person, you had to tell my friend to tell me, but you kept spying on my life. Leave me alone, if you can’t live with what you did, not my problem. Sometimes you have to go through the difficult parts to get where you are.

The football reference, creating your team doesn’t mean each person needs to know everything, they just need to be trusted. With your partner you trust them, you are loyal to them. Why are individuals going after the ones are who married? We told you we are married or we have a wedding ring. It’s sad and pathetic, that many are so desperate you have to go after the ones who are married and the other end allows it. They are not loyal to their partner or respect them. I will tell you how it is. I’m very protective of my relationship. I will telling you three million times, I will either just block or walk away. This is still consider as cheating even if you don’t see that way. The immatures are the ones who can’t be trusted and need to be cut off.

Sharing my story, I came a long way. It doesn’t matter what you say or think. It was so easy for you to walk away. A smear campaign to clear you of any wrong doings. I am allowed to share to my story in my own time. I will share the truth. There are three sides to a story. I’m not innocent, but I had to live with pain while you walked away so easily. I was an old cardigan you use to wear and hang up, but thrown away after so much use. Never could be sowed back together, cleaned or reworn. That version of myself I can no longer identify. A version of hope, happiness and so much laughter, just the new version looking at the reflection of the old self in the mirror. The old self reflecting back to new self. Years of healing but never being the same. Accepting what I have is what I have left and will be added on later.

Finding the one for you is a once in a lifetime moment. My life isn’t just about the moments being angry or down, it’s also about how I came back so strong. You will know you found your soul with how everything comes together so easily. Three years and it’s like I knew him all my life. I don’t talk much about my husband, not because I don’t want to, it’s something I keep close. We are six years apart, eight months part, a story no one saw coming. Still going strong, the ups and downs brought us even closer. I waited for the moment to share my happiness, I had to go through the dark stuff first, before I found my peace and happiness. I hold my happiness and peace very close to me. Anything that threatens my peace will be blocked. I don’t play games and I am not sacrificing myself anymore to keep the peace. If I sense the choices I make are only to please everyone else. I will leave and you will never know that I left. Happens once in a life time, is thinking it will never happen, but it did. The ones who show up six years later because they are miserable and want to repeat the cycle. Then they find out you are married and happy, no more dealing with a man child, mom’s boy or a boy who never grew up. He only ran when life got tough. Not my issue that you are miserable, you lost a diamond. I am not the one to be on my hands and knees begging for everything.

All the hell I went through, I still came back so strong. Having someone write a speech and share it with the world, explaining how they weren’t treated right and everything was everyone else’s fault expect for their own. An accident that happened years ago, in a letter shared to the world was done intentionally, you wanted me gone. The car door closing on my hands wasn’t accident, you said it so yourself you did it on purpose and didn’t care how much it hurt me. Our relationship, wasn’t a relationship just another one you could use. You could tell the world how no one in the family cared about you, playing the victim card, until they found out the truth. That all of us cared, but you didn’t cared. You used everyone single of us, until each source ran out. Don’t be pretending now like you cared or you are worried for me. You burned that bridge. Cutting ties with you and other family members was hardest thing to do, but the wise thing to do. You can’t get me directly, but you still humiliate me to world all three of you. You still have the audacity to ask why I don’t reach out? It’s because of this right here, as well as you take credit for my success. I haven’t forgotten how you treated me, or made me feel. You can’t just come back and pretend like nothing ever happened. I will always be the black sheep, but at least I had the strength to leave, To recover from survival mode and heal. Coming back so strong is walking through fire. Coming back from hell, and I still haven’t changed, but have become more cautious. I will never let anyone tell me this will be the only time I will get valedictorian or threaten me to take the opportunity when my grandfather was sick. I didn’t think he was going to make it. I don’t care how high your position is, you will never disrespect me, just because you are a superintendent. You don’t scare me and your narcism showed, there is no taking back what you said. I achieved even high then valedictorian today, but do you see me treating others around me like shit? It’s just a title, my grandfather meant more to me, then a title that I knew I would get again. Clearly you don’t know your students that well, you like to cut each person down to make yourself feel better. How well did that workout for you? I came back stronger, while you had to leave.

When you feel at ease and you can finally let your guard down, come around in so long, was been hiding for years. I wanted to release new content but I was waiting for the right time. I am very thankful for the support and will always be. Never forget where you came from and who got you there. No one ever saw me again or heard from me, only when I chose to reach out. The message was clear to me since I was child, to stay quiet and your feelings don’t matter. High school, many hated you because you were smart and everything you got, you worked hard for it. They wanted everything for free instead of working for it. No wonder why I disappeared. No one should be bullied or harassed, and they still live with their parents. It goes to show, they will never grow up and play the victim. I always chose to be the bigger person, even though they didn’t get no emotion out of me. The one being chill, made them even more pissed, while their story changed even minute. It got them nowhere, but destroying their future because they were jealous. I was doing college classes in high school, not high school classes. Never once did I be arrogant or rub it in peoples faces. No matter what I did, I still had targets on my back, I am dammed I do and dammed if I don’t. Even today, many are envious of me, but not my problem. All you are doing is digging a bigger hole for yourself. I will call you out on your bullshit, I don’t care if it hurts you. You didn’t care when you walked all over my feelings.