Episodes

  • “Homoerotic Friendships” with Chloe | Cross My Heart Episode 10
    Apr 27 2026

    Chloe is here for episode 10! This week we talked about homoerotic friendships, turning 25, “Cry Thursdays” at church camp, chosen family over blood family, ASMR, and all-time favorite albums. .

    Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Comment, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

    Known for her viral "Tube top" video and "Dear Daddy God" diary series on TikTok, Hannah dives deep into the messy but beautiful reality of growing up queer in the Midwest.

    Chapter:

    0:00 – Hannah’s birthday party

    11:21 – Confessional: are you gay?

    17:42 – God is a woman (and we worship her)

    25:19 – Embarrassing middle school stories (the refrigerator box)

    31:00 – Homoerotic friendships

    35:21 – Starting a cult for: Midwestern ways of showing love & full albums

    45:00 – Forgive me but: put your dog on a leash & write letters

    48:06 – Roses & Thorns

    HannahBeck #CrossMyHeartPodcast #GayPodcast #LesbianPodcast #QueerComedy #TikTokComedian #DearDaddyGod #ChicagoComedy #ComingOut #MidwestLGBTQ #ExEvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #ChristianDeconstruction #ChosenFamily #MentalHealth #ComfortCreator #StandUpComedy #QueerTikTok #Podcast

    Keywords: Hannah Beck, Cross My Heart podcast, Chicago comedy, gay podcast, lesbian podcast, TikTok comedian, Dear Daddy God, religious trauma, ex-evangelical, queer comedy, Midwest LGBTQ, Caleb Hearon, So True Podcast, Brittany Broski, Broski Report with Brittany Broski, comfort creator, coming out stories, Christian deconstruction, mental health, therapy podcast, chosen family, lesbian dating, stand-up comedy, viral TikTok, queer, podcast


    Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Rate, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

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    54 mins
  • Youtube Raised Me Gay with Kaitlin | Cross My Heart Episode 9
    Apr 20 2026

    My friend Kaitlin is here! This week we talked about lesbian fanfics, the youtubers that raised us (and the ones that were cancelled), Alexander Hamilton, miniskirts, and a DM from a lady named Paula that I feel weird about!

    Follow Kaitlin @k.aitlin.joi on IG

    Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Comment, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

    Known for her viral "Tube top" video and "Dear Daddy God" diary series on TikTok, Hannah dives deep into the messy but beautiful reality of growing up queer in the Midwest.

    #HannahBeck #CrossMyHeartPodcast #GayPodcast #LesbianPodcast #QueerComedy #TikTokComedian #DearDaddyGod #ChicagoComedy #ComingOut #MidwestLGBTQ #ExEvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #ChristianDeconstruction #ChosenFamily #MentalHealth #ComfortCreator #StandUpComedy #QueerTikTok #Podcast


    Keywords: Hannah Beck, Cross My Heart podcast, Chicago comedy, gay podcast, lesbian podcast, TikTok comedian, Dear Daddy God, religious trauma, ex-evangelical, queer comedy, Midwest LGBTQ, Caleb Hearon, So True Podcast, Brittany Broski, Broski Report with Brittany Broski, comfort creator, coming out stories, Christian deconstruction, mental health, therapy podcast, chosen family, lesbian dating, stand-up comedy, viral TikTok, queer, podcast



    Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Rate, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

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    46 mins
  • Q&A: Church Trauma, Lesbian Dating, and Why I Called God Daddy | Cross My Heart Episode 8 (solo episode)
    Apr 12 2026

    here’s another edible-induced Q&A episode! I'm answering your questions about growing up queer, leaving the church, and why I called God "Daddy." I discuss some heavier topics today so take extra care while listening <3

    Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Comment, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

    Known for her viral "Tube top" video and "Dear Daddy God" diary series on TikTok, Hannah dives deep into the messy but beautiful reality of growing up queer in the Midwest.

    Keywords: Hannah Beck, Cross My Heart podcast, Chicago comedy, gay podcast, lesbian podcast, TikTok comedian, Dear Daddy God, religious trauma, ex-evangelical, queer comedy, Midwest LGBTQ, Caleb Hearon fans, So true Podcast Brittany Broski, Broski Report with Brittany Broski, comfort creator, coming out stories, Christian deconstruction, mental health, therapy podcast, chosen family, lesbian dating, stand-up comedy, viral TikTok, queer, podcast launch


    Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Rate, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

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    48 mins
  • "Lesbians Will Survive the End Times" with Olyvia Dibsie | Cross My Heart Episode 7
    Apr 6 2026

    My straightest friend is here and I have so many questions. Olyvia is a Chicago stand-up comedian, fantastic friend, and the only person I know who is not even a little bit gay. We talk about my recent social faux pas with a celebrity, why evil boyfriends don't deserve to go to Europe, medication shame, writing a TV show, and why lesbians will survive the end times.

    Follow Olyvia @olyviadibsie on Instagram and @im.lyving on TikTok!

    Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram.

    New episodes every Monday. Comment, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

    Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Known for her viral "Tube top" video and "Dear Daddy God" diary series on TikTok, Hannah dives deep into the messy but beautiful reality of growing up queer in the Midwest.

    Keywords: Hannah Beck, Cross My Heart podcast, Chicago comedy, gay podcast, lesbian podcast, TikTok comedian, Dear Daddy God, religious trauma, ex-evangelical, queer comedy, Midwest LGBTQ, Caleb Hearon fans, So true Podcast Brittany Broski, Broski Report with Brittany broski, comfort creator, coming out stories, Christian deconstruction, mental health, therapy podcast, chosen family, lesbian dating, stand-up comedy, viral TikTok, queer, podcast launch, hannah beck gay best friend, straight ally, queer best friend, female friendship, women in comedy, Chicago stand-up, Olyvia Dibsie

    Chapters:

    0:00 Lesbians Will Survive the End Times

    0:36 Intro + Evil Boyfriends Don't Deserve to Go to Europe

    3:11 Roses & Thorns

    5:30 Thorns: Doom Scrolling, Lesbians Will Survive & the Steak 'n Shake Incident

    14:43 Bud: Comedy Goals & New York

    15:24 What Are You Starting a Cult For? (Flowers for Everyone)

    19:13 What Are You Starting a Cult For? (I'm Writing a TV Show)

    25:31 Forgive Me, But: Medication = Mario Kart

    29:27 Forgive Me, But: Pink Whitney & Dating Athletes

    32:52 Studying the Straight Experience

    34:50 Confessional


    Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Rate, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

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    44 mins
  • "My High School Boyfriend Tells All" with Matthew | Cross My Heart Episode 6
    Mar 30 2026

    My most requested guest is finally here. Matthew is my best friend, my high school “beard”, my roommate, and the man who knew I was gay before I did! Watch us yap on our living room couch sort of like we do every day : )

    Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Comment, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

    Known for her viral "Tube top" video and "Dear Daddy God" diary series on TikTok, Hannah dives deep into the messy but beautiful reality of growing up queer in the Midwest.

    Keywords: Hannah Beck, Cross My Heart podcast, Chicago comedy, gay podcast, lesbian podcast, TikTok comedian, Dear Daddy God, religious trauma, ex-evangelical, queer comedy, Midwest LGBTQ, Caleb Hearon fans, So true Podcast Brittany Broski, Broski Report with Brittany broski, comfort creator, coming out stories, Christian deconstruction, mental health, therapy podcast, chosen family, lesbian dating, stand-up comedy, viral TikTok, queer, podcast launch, hannah beck gay best friend


    0:00 — Teaser

    0:30 — Meet Matthew

    0:51 — Hannah is hungover

    1:26 — Drunk college stories

    4:37 — Karaoke & Matthew's Voice Lessons

    8:05 — Roses & Thorns

    11:20 — Reddit & Health Anxiety

    12:34 — Thorns of the Week

    14:17 — Line Dancing

    15:15 — Prom Memories

    16:22 — Starting a Cult: Trying Things You're Bad At

    17:31 — How I Started Stand-Up Comedy

    18:40 — Bombing in Springfield

    20:21 — Bombing in Chicago

    22:26 — Starting a Cult: Thursday Nights Out

    23:17 — The 45-Minute Thursday Date

    24:26 — Why I Yap Through Movies

    25:35 — Starting a Cult: Reflecting on Media You Consume

    28:23 — How We Met: Queer Kids Finding Each Other

    30:26 — My Last Ditch Effort at Finding a Man

    32:41 — Sneaking Around in High School

    35:19 — Getting Doxed on TikTok

    38:17 — Confessional: What You Used to Believe

    39:47 — Glaring Signs You Were Gay

    41:52 — The DoorDash Sex Candle

    43:45 — Matthew's Personal EGOT Goals

    47:06 — Goodbye & Thank You


    Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Rate, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

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    47 mins
  • “My College Roommate Turned Me Gay” with Avery | Cross My Heart Episode 5
    Mar 23 2026

    My college roommate Avery is on the pod! We talk about how she basically turned me gay, our wattpad fan fiction eras, seeing God on an edible, getting sketchy tattoos in New Orleans, hiding Aldi wine in Hydro Flasks, and why our big gay friend group is basically a commune. Plus: manifesting with Brad, decoy journals, and why you should put your phone down.

    Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Comment, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

    Known for her viral "Tube top" video and "Dear Daddy God" diary series on TikTok, Hannah dives deep into the messy but beautiful reality of growing up queer in the Midwest.

    Keywords: Hannah Beck, Cross My Heart podcast, Chicago comedy, gay podcast, lesbian podcast, TikTok comedian, Dear Daddy God, religious trauma, ex-evangelical, queer comedy, Midwest LGBTQ, Caleb Hearon fans, So true Podcast Brittany Broski, Broski Report with Brittany broski, comfort creator, coming out stories, Christian deconstruction, mental health, therapy podcast, chosen family, lesbian dating, stand-up comedy, viral TikTok, queer, podcast launch


    0:00 How We Met

    0:50 Voting

    1:23 Our Radicalization Journeys

    2:20 Growing Up Conservative

    3:06 Fan Fiction Era

    5:18 Who Turned Hannah Gay?

    5:59 The Gift of Prophecy

    7:19 Manifesting & Tapping

    13:59 Gay Awakenings

    20:11 What Are You Starting a Cult For?

    27:04 Forgive Me, But: Friend Riders

    27:57 Forgive Me, But: Put Your Phone Down

    29:49 Confessional

    33:14 That Time We Saw God

    38:21 Avery meeting my Parents

    40:12 Matching Tattoos

    48:26 What's Next for Avery

    49:09 Goals & Parting Wisdom


    Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Rate, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

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    50 mins
  • Answering your "Daddy God" Questions | Cross My Heart Episode 4 (solo episode)
    Mar 9 2026

    In this solo Q&A episode, I'm answering ALL your questions about my Dear Daddy God diary series! From "why did you say Daddy God?" to "where is Chloe now?"

    fair warning: I took an edible before filming this, so buckle up for some rambling about fidget toys, bicep curls, and the prohibition movement.

    Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Comment, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

    Known for her viral "Tube top" video and "Dear Daddy God" diary series on TikTok, Hannah dives deep into the messy but beautiful reality of growing up queer in the Midwest.

    Keywords: Hannah Beck, Cross My Heart podcast, Chicago comedy, gay podcast, lesbian podcast, TikTok comedian, Dear Daddy God, religious trauma, ex-evangelical, queer comedy, Midwest LGBTQ, Caleb Hearon fans, So true Podcast Brittany Broski, Broski Report with Brittany broski, comfort creator, coming out stories, Christian deconstruction, mental health, therapy podcast, chosen family, lesbian dating, stand-up comedy, viral TikTok, queer, podcast launch

    0:00 - Questions Answered Today

    0:45 - Welcome to the Episode

    1:51 - Fidget Toy Review (I Took an Edible)

    4:32 - Why Did You Say "Daddy God"?

    6:34 - Where Is Chloe Now?

    8:20 - The Jason/Matthew Arc

    9:58 - Is Chloe With a Woman Now?

    10:07 - Are You Still Religious?

    11:53 - Did You Lose Friendships After Deconstructing?

    13:23 - The Apostolic Christian Church Explained

    14:16 - Boys = Men

    17:37 - Craziest Church / Cult Story?

    29:07 - I Joined the Prohibition Movement

    31:10 - Do You Still Talk to Your Parents?

    31:59 - Are you the tube top girl?

    33:25 - Future Plans: TV Show, Book, Live Comedy

    35:48 - Where to See Me Do Standup

    35:44 - What's your dating life like?





    Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Rate, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

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    37 mins
  • "My Kiss Count is Astronomical" with Sam Rocha" | Cross My Heart Episode 3
    Mar 2 2026

    Join Hannah Beck and guest Sam Rocha (@samhandleyrocha) for a hilarious and heartfelt conversation about religion, queerness, and freaking out at the airport.

    CHAPTERS:

    0:00 - INTRO

    0:28 - Welcome & Roses and Thorns

    4:44 - First Communion

    10:49 - Sam and the Lion King

    13:55 - Playing Games

    18:08 - Karaoke / Amazing Grace

    21:36 - Hannah's Daddy God Diaries

    23:32 - Sam's Gender as it Relates to Golf

    25:35 - Queer Role Models

    30:55 - Starting a Cult: Eurythmics & Hillary Duff

    35:25 - Ozempic

    37:27 - Sam's Airport Series & TSA Stories

    43:09 - The JFK Conspiracy

    44:03 - Where to Find Sam

    Known for her viral "Tube top" video and "Dear Daddy God" diary series on TikTok, Hannah dives deep into the messy but beautiful reality of growing up queer in the Midwest.

    Keywords: Hannah Beck, Cross My Heart podcast, Chicago comedy, gay podcast, lesbian podcast, TikTok comedian, Dear Daddy God, religious trauma, ex-evangelical, queer comedy, Midwest LGBTQ, Caleb Hearon fans, So true Podcast Brittany Broski, Broski Report with Brittany broski, comfort creator, coming out stories, Christian deconstruction, mental health, therapy podcast, chosen family, lesbian dating, stand-up comedy, viral TikTok, queer, podcast launch

    Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Rate, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

    Follow Sam Rocha:

    Instagram & TikTok: @samhandleyrocha

    #CrossMyHeartPodcast #HannahBeck #SamRocha #ReligiousTrauma #StandupComedy #ViralComedian #LGBTQPodcast #ExVangelical #ChicagoComedy #podcastclips

    Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Rate, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

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    44 mins