Kristy’s first dark night experience began when her dog – her attachment figure – died when she was ten, and she lost her trust in life. Over the next twenty years, things seemed to improve; she left home, learnt how to meditate, began training as a counsellor, and started to explore her childhood trauma. During a somatic experiencing session, she had a profound recognition, which at the time seemed little more than a subtle “click”. The ensuing sense of grace and effortlessness – very different from her usually tumultuous inner world – lasted for a couple of weeks. After that, it was as if a threshold had been crossed; the process of unravelling both an entire lifetime’s and many generations of tension began.

We discuss – amongst many other things – the nature of the twisted double-stranded rope; how evolution is bringing us back into our natural state and undoing the effects of thousands of years of empire; and the importance of being in the presence of nature. We also talk about the space of love and unconditionality that starts to slowly move to the foreground, and how something profound, beautiful, and mind-blowing begins to emerge on the other side of the dark night.

Kristy Johnsson began her career as an environmental researcher, before doing an MSc in Clinical Counselling. Working with a somatic-ecotherapeutic approach that honours the intelligence of nature, she has undertaken her own deep psychosomatic explorations, as well as walking alongside many others (sometimes literally) in theirs. She has years of experience of environmental and outdoor education rooted in social justice, and is currently travelling in Australasia, while connecting ever more deeply with the more-than-human world.

Fiona Robertson is the author of The Dark Night of the Soul: A Journey from Absence to Presence, and Eve Was a Realist: Poems for the Untamed Heart. She works one to one with people who are going through a dark night or spiritual emergency, accompanying them in this challenging terrain as they rediscover and deepen into their real selves. She also offers a monthly dark night gathering group, and occasional workshops for therapists and counsellors.

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