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From Aspen Matis, author of the acclaimed true story Girl in the Woods, comes a bold and atmospheric memoir of a woman who - in searching for her vanished husband - discovers deeper purpose.

Aspen’s and Justin’s paths serendipitously aligned on the Pacific Crest Trail when both were walking from Mexico to Canada, separately and alone - both using thru-hiking in hopes of escaping their pasts. Both sought to redefine themselves beneath the stars. By the time they made it to the snowy Cascade Range of British Columbia - the trail’s end - Aspen and Justin were in love.

Embarking on a new pilgrimage the next summer, they returned to those same mossy mountains where they’d met, and they married. They built a world together, three years of a happy marriage. Until a cold November morning, when, after kissing Aspen goodbye, Justin left to attend the funeral of a close friend.

He never came back. As days became weeks, her husband’s inexplicable absence left Aspen unmoored. Shock, grief, fear, and anger battled for control - but nothing prepared her for the disarming truth. A revelation that would lead Aspen to reassess not only her own life but that of the disappeared as well.

The result is a brave and inspiring memoir of secrets kept and unearthed, of a vanishing that became a gift: a woman’s empowering reclamation of unmitigated purpose in the surreal wake of mystifying loss.

©2020 by Aspen Matis. (P)2020 Brilliance Publishing, Inc., all rights reserved. Lyrics to “Come Back Here” used with permission from David Lockwood.

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Terrible couldn’t even read till the end.

It was like the author sat with a thesaurus and tried to fit as many big words in one sentence as she could. It made the reading very boring and monotonous.

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Too long

I loved the last third of the book where it picked up pace. It could have done with a really big edit but lyrical and lovely none the less. perhaps overly wordy in parts. The story is powerful and a lot more could have been more political with the ascension of the, #metoo movement.

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I loved this book

I thoroughly enjoyed both titles by Aspen Matis. I drew many parallels between her and myself and I think she is amazing to have come out the other side of her ordeals with the courage to tell her story in it’s entirety.

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  • Sara
  • 18-06-2020

Not what the description claims

This book is a boring memoir written about writing a memoir. I hated every second of it but kept going hoping something of interest would happen because it was so heavily promoted to sound like a mystery of a missing husband's secret. The writer's language is overly flowery and excruciatingly descriptive with a million similes that should have been edited out. It was pretentious and pointless. I got it for free with Kindle Unlimited and yet weirdly feel like I vastly over payed for the experience- it was that awful. Like waiting in line for 7 hours at a knock off amusement park to be told the line WAS the ride.

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  • Kathleen Lynn Allen
  • 01-07-2020

A note to the author

One flowery description followed another. Fire your editor. Then take one chapter each from anything by Hemingway, Joan Dideon, etc. and crossed out all the overly descriptive words. Then read the rest . You will still find the real story...the meat. You will know who they are.Now do the same to one of your chapters - no meat. It was so sugary and where was Aspen? Make your next book REAL and cut the bullshit. All beauty is rendered meaningless when it is every other word! This is my first negative review. I kept fast forwarding in hopes of finding anything rewarding. I didn’t bother to stay around to see what happened. Your reader also never relayed sadness/anxiety/etc. it was the same tone throughout. However, it wouldn’t have mattered. Read this again in ten years and I hope you thank me.

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  • Terry H.
  • 30-06-2020

Too wordy

The story was ok. Way too wordy for me. Too much similes etc. Narration ok. Too long.

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  • robjoo1
  • 19-08-2020

I just can't...

omg so much long winded flowery language blah blah ble blah (roll my eyes) blek. I wanted to hang in there but could butcher my commute one more day. I should have read the reviews not just the description.

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  • oconnors
  • 27-07-2020

Simile and the world similes with you

Not! This book should have won the International Imitation Raymond Chandler Writing contest. I started counting the 'like's' and 'as's' and then just gave up when even that game wasn't amusing anymore. How in the world did this book get published? The editor(s) associated with this book should be fired and the writer should go back to Middle School English class and start all over again. No wonder the narrator sounds like her brain was numbed by the exercise of reading the words aloud.

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  • Matti07
  • 06-07-2020

Wordy and Self-Indulgent

The narrator had an unevan pace sometimes. The author manages to write many words with little or elusive content. I get no feeling of character depth or development. I gave up about 1/3 of the way through. No narrative intentions had surfaced for me.

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  • Sophie
  • 29-06-2020

Story is about her career NOT the missing person.

I love stories about relationships and this one sounded really interesting but once I got into it it was mostly the writer humble bragging about her career and her successes as a writer. Only a small portion of the book is about the "missing person". Very disappointing. The writer also uses extremely overly flowery language. Not my cup of tea at all.

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  • Elizabeth
  • 22-06-2020

not good

The narrator had a weird tone the entire time, like every sentence was the most profound thing ever to be said. The characters were super weird, self absorbed people. The whole thing was incredibly boring. I have no idea why I even finished it.

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  • Amazon Customer
  • 07-06-2020

a marriage of co dependence

I was very hooked on reading this story because it is well written. however the narrator is a twenty one yr old woman who meets a man while on that Pacific Crest trail and they find enough similarities of need and decide to continue the long hike together. Debbie has come to the woods to escape her past and finds her present can neatly fit in with Justin's. the problem is Justin although kind and loving has no intention of supporting a relationship if he is expected to become responsible in the typical expectation of getting a job and realignment of his own behaviors that fit his needs. Debbie aspires to be an author and Justin takes her to New York to reach her goal. Everything is fine until Debbie suggests marriage. Debbie is ok with having a husband with no ambition to get a real job until reality sets in. I felt sorry for Debbie and at times for Justin . However it ends well when each realize they are better apart so real goals.

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  • Kym
  • 30-08-2020

Waste of time

This was not about a missing person. It was about a man-child who didn't want a grown up job and who wanted his wife to take care of him; and a privileged, whiney wife who can't even put her own contacts in. She tries way too hard to impress with overly descriptive and unnecessary words. Pretentious.

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