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Tweak

Growing Up on Methamphetamines

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Tweak

By: Nic Sheff
Narrated by: Paul Michael Garcia
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Nic Sheff was drunk for the first time at age 11. In the years that followed, he would regularly smoke pot, do cocaine and ecstasy, and develop addictions to crystal meth and heroin. Even so, he felt like he would always be able to quit and put his life together whenever he needed to. It took a violent relapse one summer in California to convince him otherwise.

In writing that is raw and honest, Nic spares no detail in telling us the compelling, heartbreaking, and true story of his relapse and the road to recovery. As we watch Nic plunge the mental and physical depths of drug addiction, he paints a picture of a person at odds with his past, with his family, with his substances, and with himself.

You can also hear Nic's father's perspective in his memoir: Beautiful Boy: A Father's Journey through His Son's Meth Addiction.©2007 Nic Sheff (P)2008 Blackstone Audio, Inc. Biographies Health, Lifestyle & Relationships Literature & Fiction Fiction Memoir

Critic Reviews

"Garcia delivers a strong and commanding reading that perfectly expresses the rawness of Sheff's most personal recollections….Endlessly memorable." (AudioFile Magazine)

"Garcia becomes Sheff, offering a gritty and raw performance that demonstrates just how dire the circumstances surrounding Sheff's existence really were." (Publishers Weekly)

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I read some reviews of this book before deciding to sign up for Audible so I could listen to it, and many reviewers said the book is far too graphic and they were turned off by this. I didn't find this at all, not in the slightest, in fact as an ex addict myself I felt Nic could have added much more detail to certain scenes but was maybe prohibited from doing so by his editors. Extra detail wasn't needed though, it was raw and honest and even vulnerable. I found it triggering but also cathartic, and which surprised me, I wasn't aware I still had so much emotion buried inside me regarding my previous life.

If you're a current or ex addict this book will inspire you to look deeply inward and to try, try, try again. Because as Nic says in the book, relapse is part of recovery.

If you're not an addict and are questioning if you want that level of detail, rest assured there are many other beautiful layers of story and scenery in the book other than drug use, its just that the drug use is what gets focused on as its so unfamiliar to many readers.

Exactly as it needed to be

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I loved this book so much. Very well written and also well read.
I noted that other reviewers found there was too much detail, or was ‘boring’ - I completely disagree. I think they must not really understand, or want to understand, how it is to be an addict. This detail is do important. This book is a voice for all those who have suffered with addiction and who long for health in recovery.
Thank you Nic, for this book. I wish you all the love, health and happiness you deserve.

An amazing book - honest and raw

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The classic Jekyll and Hyde logic inside the user's head was extremely relatable,and as a current struggling participant myself was extremely insightful . I gained a valuable perspective from his journey.

Detailed debauchery.

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A heartfelt personal story of addiction and recovery. The author writes with such brutal, descriptive honesty that you feel you are going through his journey with him. I couldn’t stop listening, the narrator did a perfect job too.

An inspiring story of survival from addiction

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I loved the narration of this story I felt like it could have been Nic … such an interesting story of drug addiction and the causes behind it …

A very honest story and well narrated

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Tweak is a good audio book, I read half of the paper back in university, and recently, I listened to the audio book as much as I could till I had listened to it all. I loved the level of detail the author uses to describe his experiences. I work with drug addicts and Tweak gave me a lot of insight into why my clients spend their whole lives chasing their next high.

It's a good audio book

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Thank you so much Nic for writing this book. It helps me in so many ways you could not imagine. Please read this book if you struggle with addition, or cares for someone with addiction. This book will open your eyes, and hopefully start your healing journey. Read it, and your life will be changed forever.

Raw, honest and heartbreaking

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I absolutely enjoyed the story line, the writers journey/struggle with addiction was absolutely insane to me. Falling in and out of addiction for so long and following the ups and downs had me hooked.
However, the writing is pretty horrible. Most of his sentences ending in...or whatever, and everything, and stuff, etc. made me feel like I was reading a book written by an elementary school student.
I would recommend his fathers book “beautiful boy” by David sheff over this book as it shows the fathers perspective with much better writing.

Interesting story, poor writing

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this book was so boring. i was foolish to expect more from a former chronic meth head.

meth heads shouldn't write books

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I loved the book Beautiful Boy. ‘Tweak’, however, I found too graphic and unnecessarily detailed. I get explanations of how bad meth addiction is needed, but sex scenes and explanations of how long and how much sweat was involved was off putting. I found the language off putting too. This level of detail isn’t needed to understand how bad the meth culture is.

Loving an ice addict is a huge part of my own story and recommend ‘beautiful boy’ but I couldn’t get through this one. I may have a break from it and try again.

Some parts are well written-explaining the disease of addiction and its impact and i could relate to the desperation of addiction, but some parts the detail was hard to stomach. I love the author’s bravery in sharing and it has potential to be educational and emotionally impacting, it was just too much information at times. Further editing was needed and it’s a shame that as if the graphic nature was excluded it could be studied in high schools.

The narrator’s voice was off putting too.

Loved Beautiful Boy. Found this too full on

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